'It's the right thing to do'
doesn't make it hurt any less
I'm happy just being friends,
but it means my life's a mess.

It's not that I choose the worst girls
Oh no, I only choose perfect shining pearls
It's that the pearls don't choose me
and that's my problem you see?

I broke my promise, and you know why
I can't sit here, just wanting to die
I just needed, a moment of release
just one moment, to be at peace.
I broke my promise, my promise to you
but I don't care, because neither do you.

Your laughter was more beautiful than any song
now I've forgotten it, and everything feels wrong
I'm slowly forgetting, the taste of your lips
and the exact perfect curve, of your beautiful hips,
Now we're just memories, I messed up and lost you
I've just got the memories, I can't lose those too.

months came and months went
I still felt trapped inside this tent.
I couldn't breathe and the walls were caving in on me.
I was drowning in the memories of us, and nobody could see my cuts.
I tried to rise above but I kept sinking down.

so I gave up, and I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I couldn't stay, but I need to go away.

I miss being happy
I miss being in love
I miss smiling
I miss waking up and not wishing I hadn't  
and most importantly,
I miss being me

Why do you make me feel this way?
Why do I smile with each word you say?
Why can't I get you out my head?
Why do I think of you as I lie here in bed?
Why is this happening again?
Why didn't I learn from the pain?
Why do I look forward to this so?
Why am I sad, when you have to go?

Those beautiful eyes were lost in that book
with a perfect smile, and the most beautiful look.