that is the one I love the most
I said as she walked away
far away, she gained distance and I thought
it was all so ******* bleak
then saw her
and her sway
her smile
her new day
to save me
her *** was incredible
her ******* the perfect upturned shape,
I even almost loved her,
but she had tastes and habits
slurping her cereal in the morning
grated on my nerves
and her bras and ******* all hanging in
from every god ****** thing,
she got tired of my sinus sounds
how I was continuously clearing my throat,
money became an issue ,
I wanted my beer and cigarettes
and her, she wanted leafy vegetables
and hummus?  Fun while it lasted,
but I felt terrible when her new dude came and
got her. Until twenty more like her
had come and gone.
And I decided to try to love myself.
I quit all the *******,
the feeling sorry
the lonely nights and
saw I was good.

not even words can describe
the mess you make of me
with just one glance
one smile
one laugh

to be in this moment forever,
with our legs intertwined,
our lips pressed together,
our hands everywhere and nowhere,
and my body on fire,
would surely be heaven itself

you say, 'be careful with yourself'
i feel my hands shake
and I reply, 'I don't know how'

some say that death is a fate
not worthy of even
the cruelest of killers
yet here I am
waiting for the sweet release of death
from this world
which has left me only
in pieces
and in pain

the word home
only exists within
the comforts of you
in my arms