Some few things you should know about me
if ever I manage to capture your love.
To me, there is no such thing as casual ***
nor casual relationships, nor casual love.
It may not seem like that on the surface,
I may be able to act the part of what society
has told you to expect of a man...boy...thing.
But in truth I sit awake writing about everything
that touches me so deeply that it hurts.
Things that make me happy come with a price
called guilt, and that guilt drives me to abandon.
Stupid reasons and stupid logic born from
things done and almost done that I watched
so detached from myself that I couldn't believe it was real.
If you love me, don't ever tell me
don't do that to yourself.