Do You remember when you were the thought that embraced me when I was scared
I'm not a coward but with you
I was
Comfortable
Fragile
Soft
Not weak
Just safe enough to let go of my puffed chest and tightened biceps
I think back and I miss it like the first two baseballs in Chicken Little
For all the same reasons I miss childhood
In both ways I was secure
Taken care of
Reckless with decisions
My deception for healthy options
Was twisted in the twinkies tucked away in Zombieland
Nevertheless, I leaned on for support too much
I grew through all the pain
Pins and needles digging into my funny bones to laugh louder than the comedian in a dead crowd
And to no avail
I lay in dry blood covered in fresh scars
Poorly injected incisions
Equally infected decisions