Feeling lost sitting at home
I've been on autopilot so long
I'm making tracks in my carpet
Nothing but a figurative circle
I keep telling myself
It will be okay
It's only temporary
You are not alone
And I know
This is just how life is sometimes
But that doesn't take the pain away
Sometimes you don't even need a reason to hurt
Your brain just starts to send the wrong signals
I am writing right now and it doesn't matter if it *****
I am speaking to no one and to everyone
Just to not feel so alone
I'm not afraid to cry
But I'm tired of feeling like crying
It's a melancholy thing I suppose
And even if it doesn't feel good
I'm still appreciative of the ability to feel
This isn't a matter of actually being alone
I just feel like a stranger in my own skin
People are trying to help me
And I'm not denying it
It's only temporary, right?
I'm obviously in a state of depression right now. I used to write a lot and it was very therapeutic for me so this is a forced attempt to start again.