everything is
crowded.
I'm not sure what's
real and what's
fake, or what's
good and what's
bad, or even why
I am still
here and not at
home and just
sleeping
relaxing
letting
go.
Instead I am
here.
I am trapped between
four men and
three strollers and
too many
cowboy hats to even
remember how many there
actually are.
All I can
focus on is how
absolutely
terrified I
am and trying not to
disturb anyone but
also trying to
get enough air in my
lungs that I don't
suffocate.
But that's really
really
really
hard to do
especially now
especially here
So please excuse
me for a
minute if I
make myself
small
or if I start to
whimper
or if I
cry a little
bit.
It's nothing I can
help.
But the worst thing about
it is that when
you're afraid of
parties or
stepping into the pantry or
the city bus,
it sometimes feels like there's
nothing you can
help.
And trust
me when I
say that
almost nothing is more
painful than being
useless.
A friendly message about claustrophobia, people. Forreals.
Oh my god. I've been neglecting my babies D:
I've been out for a while, eh? Truly sorry about that. Last time I wrote was what, two months ago? I'm so sorry, guys. I hate myself ;____;
But I'm back now, see? I'm back with even ******* poetry. Aren't you glad? I am. I missed y'all. <3
Anyways. I'm back with a poem about anxiety (hooray, I know). So, here you go. I'm just easing back into it, I promise I'll be getting slightly less ****** as I start to write again more.