At first I was too scared to really believe
All I could do was question how this could have been real
I could not have prepared, just didn’t know how
Convinced it was deception, blinded I made a vow
If this could really be true, I’d always be there for you
Give you everything you want, and take anything you don’t
I’d give my life to, and happily die for you
And for the briefest of moments my sadness was frozen
You gave my life purpose and meaning and stopped all the bleeding
But then the truth unfurled in front of my eyes
Like a runaway freight train, I was so terrified
As the weight of the world crashed down heavily
When that speeding train derailed and headed for me
I’d tried to be for you what you wanted me to
But life had another plan and I didn’t get the chance
To see it all through, ‘cause life was stolen from you
Goodbyes don’t heal all the heartache that’s been left in your wake
Countless Hail Mary’s can’t bring you back; it’s just too late for that
One minute you were there then you departed
And all I could do was cry, I was broken hearted
It left too much grief to bear, far too much raw pain
All I wanted was to die so I’d see you again
‘Cause Goodbyes don’t heal all the heartache that’s been left in your wake
Countless Hail Mary’s can’t bring you back; it’s just too late for that
Copyright ©2016-2017 KF
Written after bereavement but with more of a focus on what could have been before tragedy struck.