Hurt?
No
Upset?
Not really
More like overlooked
Underappreciated
Hopeful and Humble
I guess I should be
Cocky and Brash
Confident and Coy
Selfish and Conceited
Bashful and Wry
But at the same time
why bother
I'm happy when the only thing I have to hold on to are memories and sensations I thought I lost
The attention I seek isn't even for any kind of validation
More of just an interpretation of our standing
what I mean to you is all I want to know
am I a part? a pawn? a fool? a toy?
I'm okay with it I just want to know
how do  I make things easier and effortless
I'm getting alittle tired of filling out the rainchecks