i envy your dog
that with impunity
is allowed to stare
at you every time
with eyes full of love
when i tried
to imitate him
you looked away

what is it like to love unconditionally
she asked
and i answered
melting and longing
at the mere mention of his name
and at the same time
accepting a fact
that another woman
will take his surname
some day

i think i can stay
a little bit longer
in your hands
they make me feel
safe and
useful like a bee
looking for a flower
in the middle of
harsh winter

my life's mission is being a woman of a good heart
but
not on the knees

i have punched
in his chest to check
if there is still a heart
and it was
indeed
just
barely
alive

with my god i speak every night
he teaches me
how to trust
someone bigger than
i
and takes care of me
better than anyone

c h a n g e s
are flying up to me like
b i r d s
till today
i was closing my windows
not to hear their singing
in the mornings

yesterday in my bed

revolution took place

nobody got killed

especially he was very fortunate

because if he never loved me

what i was crying for

****

you've been like
almost five years long
psychodynamic therapy
pretty effective
i must tell you
finally
i got cured
and
you keep lying
on the couch

if my heart is a sea
you are a seaside
that is why your beaches
are my little paradise
and
the waves may cover you
in a gentle rush of love
out of the blue