I don't want to ask the questions I want to ask
I don't want to hear the answers I want to hear

You're my Angel and my Demon
You're my Rescue and my Death

My will is faltering and failing
My faith is strengthening and secure

I don't live in a paradox
But I die in a paradox

Nearly fell
I heave blood

Scream into my pillow
Bite my tongue in two
Claw off my flesh
And cleave my frail mind
Blow a hole in my soul
Break my hands
Tie me behind my back
Snap my neck, please
Because I don't want to give in

You swallow up the light around you
And your shadows cover all beneath
The darkness within consumed your heart

But I fear you not
I see the beauty in your eyes
And I have no light you can steal

You are my Black Pearl
My secret and sacred treasure
I will always protect you
In the shadows of my wings

Cut me down
I will forgive you
Cut a friend down
You will woe the day you were born

Love me
I will love you
Love a friend
I will put a jewel in your crown

God, please
Let her drop the blade
Let her skin remain whole
Keep the blood in her veins
And fix her eyes on You

I look at my memories of us
I give a little smile
We never had a relationship
But we shared one lonesome kiss
You had a boyfriend
I really didn't care
I loved you
You thought you loved me
We were closest of friends
Nothing between us
People gossiping about us
But they didn't know
Time took its toll though
That kiss had a poison
We drifted quickly
And the pain was too much
You moved on without me
And my heart went with you
I did my best to make it work
But you always chose someone else
So now I must say goodbye
I'll always be alone for you