Alone
alone next to you
my insides screaming
notice me senpai
Anxious to reach out
reach
stretch
While you ignore me
Your whole Ora screams at me
screams you deserve this
To be ingnored
on a spiritual level
Anxious
Doesn't always show
dramatically, no
sometimes
Oh sometimes
I scream on the inside
I cry
Ripping at the wallpaper of my mind
Unlike you
I wish I could
So easily
Switch off.
Stitch off
switch off
switch off
so easily
I can't
I know I can't
Yet I want
and I yearn
Another creative torture
For my mind
my mind
this thing inside
My heart
it really has strings
I feel them pulling
Me apart, that is
I could almost laugh
Silly silly.
But I don't
I think
It's the worst medicine
Really
thinking, that is
it's the worst
For most it's helpful
For me, it's a *****
I almost laughed again
as I dig my mind-hole
Deeper
Deeper still
how deep into my mind might I dig...
Deeper still
Some people sleep deep
I dig
Deeper still
as deep as my endless mind.