Every time I look into your eyes I hate myself
I hate myself because I love you
I hate me,
I hate myself because I let you go through heartbreaks
I hate myself because I was to late to save you your heart
I hate myself because I wasn’t always there for you
I hate myself because I couldn’t wipe away the tears when you cried
I hate myself because I didn’t make you smile when you were frowning
I hate myself because I never found you earlier in life
I hate myself because I didn’t hold you at night when you needed someone there
I hate myself because I wasn’t the first person you thought of in the morning and last person before you went to sleep
But....
I do love myself because I will be your last everything
And I love the thought of that
You might not always be someone’s first but you can be there last