It used to be you that id need
But
Its only my demons you wanna feed
I'm on my knees
Begging please
I wish I could breathe

I miss your touch
I miss your eyes
I miss the way we used to smile
I smoke my ****
Just too help forget its been awhile
What I wouldnt do to be beside you
Inside you
But clearly you got other **** too do
I realized you replaced me
Im not able to compete with technology
One day I hope you actually love me
Actually miss me
And actually need me
Until than Ill remain lonely

               <3 I love you more than my words can say
I know its too late but its the truth.

Stop the fighting
And useless bickering
You say you love me
You say you want our family
But all you can do is judge
Call me names and make demands
And still expect me to budge
Telling me lies and orderin commands
While you been holding a grudge
I been trying to make things better
But it doesn't seem to get no better
I did everything you told me too
But no matter what it never seems to be enough for you

<3 no one will ever be able to take your place :'( I miss you

To the people who read this ..

For a peice of mind
You need too imagine a minute
A world without war
Without poverty
Without chaos
Without the brainwashing society
Do you get it
Maybe not on my level but one of some kind
Do you ever feel out of place ?
Like you don't belong
Like your not even apart of this race ?
Humans?
Beings with limbs so long
What the **** are they anyway
A parasite as some would say
A loser with the words I type
And the thoughts I have

I refuse to say goodbye
Specially when your all that matters
My mind without you scatters
And all I wanna do is cry
I've lived before without you
But that was before I met you
Now I'm just lost and don't know what to do :(
I can't and I won't get over you
Just please tell me what it is I have to do

I miss the living **** out of you
                         And I love you I do ! :'(
At least I know there was a time you said "I love you too"  <3

I wanna get high
That's for sure
The pressure is on
Weight is heavy
And could easily be lifted
A simple plunge
A simple pinch
I'll feel loved and gifted
It's bad how much I miss it
But my life is a mission
And it can't be lost to addiction
Just gotta survive this extra friction
And instead of just flippin
I need to learn to listen

I can no longer hide
I been in your basement my whole life
I wanna know outside
I want the cold air to cut through me like a knife
Why must you lock me up ?
Only time I see you
Is when I look under the door
I don't know what to do
I cant take this anymore
I'm breaking out of this prison you've trapped me in
I'll roam the streets
I'll dive into alleys
No one will know I'm even around
Not like they knew before
After awhile I'm surprised
I never knew I crash landed on a place as beautiful as this
Where did I go?
How far from home have I gone ?
It's no wonder I feel like I don't belong
I can see these creatures from here
How do they warlk ?
How do they tarlk ?
How do they have to be so loud ?
And why do most clutter in a crowd?
Some answers I guess I'll never know
But for now
Let's
       Just
             Go
                  Home

You make me strong
You make me weak
You make me feel like I belong
Even when the words you speak
You tell me of a life not so long (ago)
One I didn't know existed
One I couldn't remember
It all took over so quickly
I didn't know what to do
Or what you expected of me
But we hooked up mid December
Things were rocky things got rough
But I knew inside it was you I love
For you I'd just about go through (hell)

I thought of you today
And you weren't there
And I'm prouder then ever
More concerned about the party life
The party style
Can't settle down
Cause you'd rather live so wild
It's been 4 months
I know it's not long but it's still awhile
I feel a lot better I even smile

I needed you today
And you aren't here
Almost don't wanna wake  
If it's another day like today
I miss our silly talks
And all the jokes we used to crack
I know this probably isn't what you wanna hear
But I'm done putting my life at stake
No more bowls
No more hot rails
No more time wasted thinking you care
No more doing self harm
Cuz I know in the end you aren't really there

I lied
It wasn't big
But still I did :(
Why did I lie?
I don't know
We talked
You yelled
I made you cry
Because I lied
Why did I lie?
I don't know
But still I lied :(