few people who tell me to forget about the past just fail to understand that sometimes past doesn't forget me
They fail to realize that one is still in the battlefield dodging bullets surviving attempted ****** my war is still ungoing but as always chances are I survive like I often do by unseen forces its a cruel ancestral karmic war that must be paid no one is immune to it
no matter how prosperous waiges of sin generating good and bad Karma are unstapable ask me I've lived it in the flesh
wining or losing doesn't matter too much it doesn't depend on the self alone
One has to experience cause and effect of all actions and inactions perhaps generational values apply here must perform my deed suffer their bad karma
what can I as a recipient do but endure
please don't say to soldier me in this battlefield hell of mine "forget the past! look forward!" "Don't look back, you'll crash and die!"
my forward might be more of the same battlefield ****** neverending generational type war unprovoqued covert enemies ever popping up like agents in my Matrix did
unexpectedly using different names covert culprit Terminator One others wearing masks hungry wolves some in sheeps clothings others smiling snakes in my fallen paradise many have fallen though by my side and something out there from beyond spares me the people of God shall taste poison and it won't harm the Lord upholds me and I wait patiently safe heaven is within me.
so much emvy jealousy misunderstanding malice greed