Pt. 1 then
I've needed to go but I decided you were more important to me
Maybe sometime if you read this you'll know what it all means
I like to be vague as a joke but for you I hope it's clear to see
what you mean to me.
I meet a lot of people and I tell them their the best,
but there is something I notice about you that is different from the rest
I knew you were cool, and beautiful from the start
But what was even more appealing was your heart.
Someday I hope you're in a place that's truly happy
in this life and in this world, will it ever be?
Oh how much I hope that it'll be
I mean every word but there's so much more for me to say,
and I hope I find a way to do it somehow, someway
And I'll strive forever to do the best I can
to continue improving myself as a man
For you and this beautiful cruel world I'll do the best I can
Just let me know what I can do to make you smile
To fix your world and make it brighter if even for a while
And I might fail but I'll strive to do it perfectly, all for you
I've seen the pictures of wires across you and your face
And I knew instantly you were never meant to be in that place
Oh how I wished to rescue you and take all your pain away
Let me take your pain away
Pt. 2 now
And yes that's all very real,
very much how I used to feel.
And still I'm a little embarrassed to say rereading this felt so surreal
But I'm an emotional person, and these feelings tend not to last.
But half of that is how much we interacted after you coming back.
I know you made an effort, just like how I did.
And to think otherwise would be stupid.
And I thought I was connected,
but connections don't work one-way,
and now this is the price I have to pay.
I know I helped you some,
not nearly as much as I'd have liked.
And I can only help what's in sight.
Maybe it's that you might have hid,
probably not what you did.
But all things I got to consider at least once in my head.
Can't help what we are now,
maybe you'll need me another time.
And if you do remember you're still a welcome friend of mine.
And again this is very real,
and now this is how I feel.
Again I'm a smarter person and I hope you too are mostly healed.
I know a bit of what you've been up to,
I got friends with a snap so it hasn't been hard to figure out.
I just wonder if you've any guilt, but that's something I doubt.
You're not too stupid a person, after all of your life I am sure.
But right now do you know of any goal you're going for?
I know I'm not the only one to think this,
just someone thinking of you right now.
Still hoping that soon you'll be happy somehow.