Im as gentle as the wind after a hurricane hit

My kiss is a twisted promise

My love is coughed up crimson

The splatters evidence of my self sacrifice

My warmth a radiating rage

My joy is an ironic *******

My Delicate touch traces incisions

What feats of tender assassinations

I've lined you up sweetly and discretely

Murdered what pride is on display

I move through your envy

I lick the tears like candy

I sleep through my nightmares

I love like I ****,

And you watch every line,

hoping I'm something different

But I've always been

Exactly what you wanted

And never needed most

It is not a quaint construction

Nor is it easily read

But as you enter willing by my own hand

you feel like you will fall endlessly

into the gaps,

not sure where you'll land

And if this viral way of thinking

gets in your head

And you start to feel at home here

Remember

You are always a welcome member

But like the rules of physics are twisted by unforgiving machinations

And reality also with the wielding of imagination

What is possible is

look and touch but

Do not expect you will not to be chided or derided

I reserve all my failings as your own

That's what happens

when you untuck the gray matter in here

You lose your bearings

And I'm in control

I own the red herrings

You are left senses reeling

Mental overload

You cant see who I am in the dark

You can only assume what I'm feeling

Words cannot describe

And I dont care for your descriptions here

What ever your tribe

Don't graffiti over my art.

Dont judge what's on display

You won't have to mind your manners

But you will have to find your own way

Just as you found your way in and maybe out

I never forced you to take part

I didn't try to **** or raise your doubt

I didn't ask you to sing my song

While it swims around your head

But I'm sticky like that

And I'm slippery too

I dont stay on one side or the other

And dont placate or back down

I dont think straight or bent

Here in this space I create my world

And you are just another visitor asking for rent

In a place already filled

And that's the magnificence of it

there's always more space to go around

I didn't hijack your head

I laid it out and you fed

You took it in

You made it

Poision

Or an

Antidote

I just write thoughts

and leave them lying

around as notes.

What else?

A tangled bundle of glistening threads

No hint of beginning, no end

What one thread looses

another one pulls,

The highways and byways of life

A stellar matrix

Star lit dot to dots

Jumping from one to the next

The riddle is read

But not in the way it is written

The answer is said

But not in the way it was given

Another black hole

Another pull form the inside out

I go there to find you

But by the time I get there

You are all hollowed out

Where did you go?

Where did I find myself?

How did we lose?

What have we found?

Another tussle

A pull of thread

And another journey

Beyond the veil

Dont say I didn't warn you

Sanity hangs by a thread

Only which one?

I let them get in my ear

and they didn't even speak

I let them cut you out of me

And I'm still bleeding and raw

A great deception

The law social of norms

The implied despotism

Of stigma

Of stain

But I am slain

I wear the eternal stain

Because I didn't love you

Like I should have

I Loved him more