People are so ******* dramatic
Wow you're sad today
You aren't sad
It's all temporary
You don't know what its like
To be sad
Every ******* second
Of every day
And think of the different ways to **** yourself
And wish it were you that night instead of those kids
And have to swallow various pills every morning
Just so I can leave the house
So don't ******* say "wow I'm so depressed"
Because your mom won't buy you more clothes
Or some dumb **** like that
Even after all the **** I've been through
I don't feel sorry for myself
So stop feeling sorry for yourself
Over trivial things
Think of the positives

I have so much to give to you
And you have so much to take
Im kissing the ground you walk on
So Give me a ******* break
Do you even think of me
When you're lying there half awake
The way you touch me
It Makes my body ache
How am I supposed to feel
When you tell me this is all fake
Can this all just ******* stop
I'm going to pull the emergency brake

Peach dream
She smokes 2 packs a day
Black hair
I still want to kiss her (sometimes)
Hands
Reaching out
Takes my shirt off
Counts on my finger tips
How many times she wanted to see me
Scream
She isn't anything to anyone
Not even me
Ok that's not true
She means something to me
The sad bags under her eyes
And the cracks in her lips
I even tried to help her quit smoking
Took her to a hypnotist
It didn't work
But I still let her smoke in my car
And I still want to kiss her (sometimes)
And when she got high the other night
And ****** someone else
And blamed it on me
I don't know
I still want the chipped paint on her nails
And the hair falling into her face
I want it all
I think

They say they understand
But they don't
Emotions built up inside me
Like an overflowing cup
Things falling out,
But
Things left inside

"Look up"
I look up
I see nothing but an empty sky
There's not even any stars
So you can't say any stupid romantic thing about the stars
We sit wondering how far it goes
What exactly are we looking at
Just darkness
Pure nothingness
But something is there
We don't know what is out there but something is
Kinda like tomorrow and the next day
And after we die
We don't know what's out there
We find each other's hands in the dark night
Trying to feel some significance in this world
While we realize how minimal this life is
This life that is everything to every individual that lives it

Today I found out that
For the first 6 months of our relationship
You were afraid of me
You thought I was going to **** you
Or myself
Or both of us
I told you
Why the **** would I **** myself if I am so afraid to die in the first place

You ****
You seriously ******* **** for making me fall in love with you
But
I guess I should say
Thanks for actually making me feel for once
Thanks for showing me that someone will stick around for more than just a good ****
Thanks for every ******* kiss and the nights of fighting and the *** stained sheets and the love.
Thank you most of all for loving me. Even when I was crying begging you not to leave and you haven't yet and you laugh at all my stupid jokes and all the poems I wrote you and
Just thank you for loving me