Where is my mind
I can feel it spinning
I'm falling behind
In a race
I'm not
winning
Inside, I'm collapsing
I'm crossing the line
I need to find
My mind
It's circling
I'm wishing to get
Some consolation
A way out of this trip
No open doors
I'm hoping
You'll see that part of me
And you'll love me
Despite
My madness, my fight
My constant flight

the world crumbles
but you refuse to break
the losses you felt and those yet to come
are a dull ache
like a love long lost
and a war wrongly won

i just want to live a normal life
without this pain and unnecessary strife
set aside what i can gain
and walk outside and feel the rain

it's no one's fault but my own
i've built up new skin out of stone
and as much as i want that rain
i feel, with this, there's more to gain

I fall down so much
like, God, I have more scars on my knees than you'd believe
they've joined and now it's just one big splotch
and while
Yeah, I guess they could be my past mistakes
In some sort of metaphor on life and the universe
they're also all the times I've laughed and just mildly ****** up
you take those moments for granted
forgetting your knees don't just break every time
so laugh
and **** up
you're fine

you look at them and you want it, you do
but, truthfully, that's just not you

There are troubles left unsaid but that's okay I'm fine
I'll think about it in bed and wonder how I ever got this far yet never reached a point but then I'll realize what I've done to have you here anyway
Is it okay to think like that I mean it's not like you're mine
just because you're here doesn't mean I get to keep you you're free to be whatever you want with whomever you please
As long
I guess I can't expect that either
But as long as you remember me
As long

you know?
living isn't a necessity for being yet
we stumble on and I get that, really, I do
'cause here I am

sign something, care, tell someone
yeah, that'll do it
you're safe where you are so why should you give a ****
you let things fall apart because they're irrelevant
to your further existence
you can just stay there
where you're safe
where not giving a ****
gets you so, so far
because you've never needed someone
to give a ****
about you

not caring isn't a defense mechanism
it's a step closer to nothing