Our minds meet our hearts throb.
Giving into desires burning flames
Your hands on my hips your warm
Whisper that Lingers in my ear
I am lost in this forbidden moment
Naked minds our souls entwine
Each touch fills me with euphoria
Drowining in your eyes
you the lick the deepest parts that
You know so well fireworks are
Bursting in my mind my body
Offers its self to you as if you where a
Greek god going with the flow twitching
Hips shaking bodies I can feel it coming
My back archs and I howl to the moon
The moment is gone and I am left wearing
Nothing but the smile you gave me

Tell me?
You didn't feel
The spark like I did.

Tell me?
That you didn't think
About the kiss we had.

Tell me?
Your not lost the
Moment.

Tell me?
Why you watch my body
Move.

Tell me?
Why when we are together
You are more alive.

Tell me?
Why do our hearts
Beat as one.

Smile for the camera.
Pose like your enjoying the moment.
Show teeth but don't show to much.
Talk but don't talk to much.
Saying anything just not what's on
Your mind.
Be anything you want to be
Just don't be you.
Have some of light but you
Can't have it all.
You can be seen just don't be heard.
Look down and not up that's not for
You.
I am doing this to protect you.
It's for your own good.
Ties cut bridges burnt.
Leaving without looking back
Now I can be whatever I choose to be.

People tell me I am to nice.
People tell me I am to loud.
People tell me I am to quite.
People tell me I love to much.
People tell me I trust to much.

I dance to my own tune.
I follow the beat of my drum.
I write the poems I want.
I let my light shine brighter than the stars
My heart talks I listen and write the words.
I am what I am

Her words still linger in my head.
Now she is being the great pretender.
Its all mellow smiles and happy moods until the last puff is taken.

It's hard to forget when someone says
I want to **** myself everyday.
Now today they are full of a high but
It is not on life.

She tells me the **** helps.
But I fear it is doing more damage
Than good.
Because life's problems are put on
Hold.

Then the bone crushing fall to reality
With a bang happens.
We find out selfs back to the start
A over again.

I can help but wonder.
Am I the bad guy for saying this
Running away does not fix things?.
Am I the bad guy for saying covering
Your ears causes more harm than good.

Day by day as minds become wasted
The more drug dealers win.

There's no more cheeks left to turn.
My confidence is shattered enough.
There's nothing left to take anymore.
There's nothing even left to say.
My wounds are so deep they can't heal.
There's no break from this pain at all.
The night brings me a chance to dream
And be free for a while.
It's the same thing everyday.
Why cry because it doesn't ease the pain.
Why talk because they never listen anyway.
I am seen but never heard.

He walked out the sea like a Greek god. watching as his wet flawless skin glistened, under the summer sun.
He seduced my mind he touched me with me with words.
Engulfed by desires flames he had my heart, from that moment on.
Captivated by Salacious thoughts.
He had me feeling things only my heart could understand.
Body kisses, neck kisses, breathless bites he made my body tremble.
He gave me a warmth that I've spent a lifetime looking for.

Feeling numb and empty.
Surrounded by masked faces
I no longer know.
They greet you with a fake smile.

They ask how are you and then
Look their phone.
Not waiting for you to answer.
So i say everything is fine.

Pouring my heart on to blank lines
Of my notebook.
Happy when night come because
I can escape for a while.

The world is falling apart two
Black life's taken.
Yet they tell me to cheer up
That it is not my problem.

We are living in a fake society
Where its okay to live a lie, and
Judge anyone who doesn't fit
Into that mould.

Haven't you notice how every picture
Has a smile that tells a thousand lies.
My friends look at each other and
Say #letstakeaselfie.

Feeling like a paper boat on a lake
Wondering if I belong anywhere.

Today my heart is bursting with love.
You know that kind of love that hurts.
It's in every poem that i write.

He seems to be everywhere i go.
In every little thing that i do.

He lurks in the deepest part of my dreams.
The wind carries his voice to my ears.
My heart answers his call.

The only problem with dreams are they
End when morning comes.

Is there anything beyond the stars?.
If faith is lost can it be found?.
Do all roads take you somewhere?.
Isn't a white lie still a lie?.
Can a broken heart feel again?.
Is there life after love?.

I am never alone
But yet I feel so
Lonely everyday.

I never talk
Because none
Ever listens
Anyway.

A smiles
Hides more
Than you
Think.

You say
You understand
When I know
You don't.

I love
Everyone but
I trust none.

Welcome to my
Nightmare.

Honestly.
I have grown tired of you
Sitting a bed catching rust
Never stepping outside
But you complain about how
Bad everything is
You like to feel pain
You don't want to be happy
Your stuck in a nightmare that
Won't end I won't say I told you so
Rolling my eyes because nothing
Ever changes with you
The money never lasts the days are gone in a puff of smoke
There's wine bottle every where
So yes I am tired or you.

You never cared about how the sleepless nights affected me.
How the overthinking kills me slowly.

Words that cut deeper than any knife ever could.

My mind is full of painful thoughts I wish that were not mine.
I feel things I wish that I didn't feel at all.

You call me a monster because I fought back.
You created this monster who fought back so who is to blame?.

My bully wasn't in the playground or outside on the street.
My bully was at home.

I will never know,
What it feels like to kiss his lips,
And feel my heart race,
When he calls my name.

I will never know,
The feel of his hands dancing
On my skin under the silver moon
Light of midnight.

I will never know,
How feels to wrapped up in his
Soul feeding on each soft moan,
He drops into my mouth.

I will never know,
How it feels to drown in his
Dark blue eyes, and swimming
In the beauty that most people
Never get to see.

They will always be unknown
Pleasures I will never feel,
Yet I still love him bound to him
As if he is my twin flame.

I'll never marry a prince.
I'll never wear dresses.
I'll never be a millionaire.

I'll always find ways to be happy.
I'll always have my head in the clouds.

I'll never be afraid to laugh loud.
I'll never be afraid to cry.
I'll never be afraid to be my self.

Don't waste time its to short and to precious.
Don't think just do it.
Don't ignore your heart just listen to it.
Don't think about tomorrow.

Have fun everyday.
Laugh until it hurts and tears fall.
Tell someone you love them.
Do that thing you keep putting off.

Don't get caught in stupid fights.
Don't grow up to fast.
Stay young for as long as you can.
Don't grow old.

No thoughts to share.
Nothing to tell either.
Long days and cold nights.
Heavy eyes closing.
A mind that won't sleep
Jam jars full of heartfelt words.
Waiting to be used.
Maybe tomorrow.
Just not now.

Let down all my life.
No encouraging words.
Left with a bad taste in my mouth.
You where not the greatest father.
You where the greatest con man.
A slide of hand a well polished lie
Everyone swollwed.
Now all the fathers day reminds
Me of how you where never there.
You knew more about other people's kids than you knew about me.
I wasn't a boy called Stephen.
I was a girl called Stephanie.
But I still wasn't enough for you.
You left me out of everything.
Never once did you buy me a new toy.
Never once did you take me out.
Instead you acted like i was a punching bag.
Something to hit when people didn't
Like you, and could hit my mum
Because it would be hard to explain another black eye.
So I will raise a glass to you.
The worldest greatest con man and
Say thanks for nothing.
Because that's all I ever learn from you.

**** thoughts on silk sheets.
His soft warm lustrous skin.
Seductive eyes promising pleasure.
His ****** touch felt like an arrow of
Delight, shooting through my body.
Kissed by desires flames lost in his arms.
He had my body and my mind begging
For, more of him.
Each deep ****** took Mr closer to ecstasy.
Unzipping my inner core he set me free.
He gave me everything his eyes promised

Losing your mother is like.

A rain that never ends.
A road that ends before you do.
A pain that keeps hurting.
A good bye your never ready to say

Hell has made its self
At home in my chest.
It's hard to breath when
My mind is full.

None ever told me that
Love comes with a
Painful sting.

Tears on my pillows
And pieces of a broken
Heart.

I guess this is
The dark side
Of love.