Some bridges need to be burnt and I
Lost the ones that need losing.
Now my dreams are full of colour and
My days are more happy.

Warm summer days sitting on the grass reading poetry books
feeling happy.
Thinking we had all the time in world
Breathing live back into my heart.
Walking bare foot on the grass you where the light in my darkness.
You found a beauty in me no one else could see.
You were the only one who understands me.
I can live without many things but
I couldn't live without you.

Comfort comes in different ways.
A hug.
Kind words.
Your favourite dinner.
A poem.
A funny memory.
A kiss from the one you love.
Your child's smile.
A friend who is always there.
Whatever way you find it hold it
And never let it go.

A heart torn in two.
Dreams broken.
Lifes shattered.
No tears left to cry.
There's nothing to take.
Leaving on a train.
Never coming back.

The first time I saw your face
I felt my world move and my
Heart shake.
Never have I seen anything as perfect
As you are.
Yes I know it is wrong to love you
But I can't help it.
Your always on my mind day and night.
I have never felt anything like.

I have seen the sea
When it is.
Rough and wild.
Calm and still.
Warm and cold.
Dark and moody.
In all these moods.
I see my self.

They told me i could have anything
That nothing was out of my reach.
But the one thing I want is the one
Thing that I can't have.

How do I start this poem?
How do I tell you that I love you?.
Because the bed is burning and my mind is full
Ready to burst.

Your the secret that I love to keep
Waiting on  your message with anticipation.
Feeling my heart beat so hard.
Feeling things words can explain.

Longing to feel you pull me close.
Longing to taste your kiss.
Dreaming of being alone in your arms.
Getting lost in your eyes.

Your more than just a secert
Your my favourite to secert to keep

Your heart is as black as the night sky.
Your eyes are colder than winter.
You let hate consum you.
Your the lonely one who is who crying
Without a hand to hold.

LIES! LIES! LIES!.
Being over fluttering to me Pretending
You where there for me.
You can't even tell the difference between being hurt and being mad
I was just a pawn.
Even now you smile as the tears
Roll down my eyes.
I don't care how beautiful you think you are, but if your heart is ugly
That makes you the ugly to.
You take pleasure from other peoples
Pain it gives you a high.
I have tried hard to find the good in you but i can't find it.

My heart is empty and numb.
The ones who should care don't care.
Would it really matter if I wasn't here?.

Step into my shoes.
Feel the things I feel everyday.
Feel every broken thought rushing
Through your head.
Listening to all the nagging voices
That never stay still silent.
Then you will know how it feels
To be in my shoes.

Forget what people think and say.
Know your own self worth and know
That you are enough

Trying to hard.
Not trying hard enough.
Trying to write anything to ease the pain.
Trying to smile for a while.

Just looking for a place to call home.
So fed up of broken promise and lies.
Needing friend and a shoulder to lean on.
Hoping for some mindful sleep.

I am just trying to find the lost voice.
Trying to find the real me.
I not trying to fit into your world.
I am here to make my own world.

I am not sure what to think or
Feel anymore.
Everyone keeps talking like
I am not in the room.
Hiding the pain holding back
The tears.

While they say.
It's just an act.
She needs to snap out of it.
She needs to get up and
Get on with it.
She needs a push.

I wish I was normal.
I wish I didn't feel like this.
I wish that I wasn't so
Broken.

I wish I wasn't the embarrassment
They see me as.
I wish the suffering in my head
Would stop.
I wish they knew how feels to
Be broken.

None wants to be broken.
None choose to be depressed.
It's feelings you have no control over.

I choose to be alone.
Burying my pain in lines of poems.
Crying where I can't be seen.

depression.
Is not an act you can stop.
It's not a feeling you can control.
It's a life long battle.

To me.
I am broken and trying hard to
Be happy and get through
The day.

To everyone else.
It just an act I am nothing more
Than an attention seeker.

Even wild flowers can grow
In the darkest part of us.
Hope isn't always lost.

I came looking for help I got silence
And a cold shoulder.
Watching faces hide behind mask spinning a Web of lies.
In darker times I sat alone without
A hand to hold.
Why come to me now when I don't need you.

I must confess I put my pen down not
Sure if I would write poetry again.
Took a step back took time out
Wondered what was next.

Sitting by the water watching as the
World passes me by.
I met a poet who said write what you
Feel not what people want to read.

The greatest poets of our time made
Mistakes and had haters.
Life brings you lovers and haters
But you keep writing.

Never stop doing what you love go home and just listen to your heart.

I remember the first times and all
The beautiful times,
Every emotion felt every tear cried.
The smile on my lips the butterflies
In my stomach.
Its not the first moment that hurts
Its the last moment that hurt.

Yes I made a mistake wrote a few
Bad poems I want to forget.
Ready to move on picking up my pen
Listening to my heart as it speaks.

Met a poet who helpped me
With some wise words.
Picked up my pen and wrote again.
Started a new poetry class.

Found my way and found my voice
Learned something new.
Found a new love for the poetry
I almost never wrote again.

Now I am back at it with a new
Poetic voice and tone.

Its hard when you say
Something and everyone else
Hears something different.

Look up from your phone
what do you see.

Why does everything have to
Happen all at once.
Meet the perants settle down before
Time.
Rush to have the perfect home start
A family to keep everyone happy.
Why doesn't anyone just slow
Down and just breathe?.

Lonely nights and dying days.
Moving from day to day
No need to check my phone because
I know what is waiting
The can you help me messages
The where are you messages
Dying inside just that little bit more
Waiting for the light to fade
Darkness brings me comfort and freedom
Those few preicous hours of short
Lived peace

Let these tears be
The last I cry.

People will always come into your
Life making you love them.
But it is how they leave that stays with you

Look up and you will find me in the rainbow.
Look up and you will find me stars.
Look up and you will find me in the moon.
Look up and you will find me in the sun rise.
Look up and you will find me in the sun set.
We maybe worlds apart.
I am every where you look.
I am in very you song you hear.
I am all around you.
Just look and you will find me.

It's late and I should be sleeping,
But the anxious thoughts won't let me.
I try to put a brave face on everything
And smile even when I am hurting.

I don't know why I feel this way or
Why I just feel like crying.
I can't always explain my thought when I don't understand them myself.

It's a beautiful day when all I want to do is just lock myself away.
I wish that I could feel so much different.

I wish the depression and anxiety would set me free.

Let me tell you one thing.
Your beautiful as you as are.
Your to strong too live hurt.
Please stop chasing one who keeps
Breaking your heart, you
Deserve so much more.
Don't care what strangers think
Care about the ones who love you.
Forget about finding the perfect picture and filter just be yourself.
Refuse to used by anyone.
If your not their first choice then they
Need to be shown the door.
You are enough and you
Deserve someone who wants to
Mend you heart and protect it.
Your special because your one
Of a kind.
You are more than enough.

Take the mask off when your
Talking to me.
Let me see the real you
Flaws and all.
Show me the you that no one knows.

The crashing waves kisses the shore
Everytime they meet.
Never will there be another touch
That feels as good as yours.
Never will I hear anything as sweet
As your voice in my ear.
Not even the cool summer breeze feel as good as your fingertips on my skin.
I will never love again or give my
Heart to someone else.

My eyes close and suddenly I am alone
With you in a beautiful dream.
I can't wake up because I want to stay
In this moment with you.
Feeling your lips pressed against mine
Feeling our bodies entwine
Becoming one.
Lost in every inch of a dreamful pleasure words just can't explain.
Wrapped up in your arms my heart is heavy.
Because when morning comes the dream is over.

My only relief is sleep.
Where I'm free.
Not hurting or crying.
Living with out fear.
Until morning comes taken it away.

Poetry is my medicine

I let my guard down letting you in.
Believed the dream you sold.
The doubt in my mind gets louder.
I read your messages.
I hear your voice in my dreams but i
Am not sure if it's the real you.
Sometimes I wish that I never answered Your message.
Then I wouldn't feel like this you
Were someone I once loved.

It always sounds the same
I'll stop tomorrow.
But tomorrow never seems to come.

Watching as heads are buried in
The sand.
Telling yourself it will change.

I have grown tired of the lies and
The never ending excuses.
This problem will never change.

You can't help someone who doesnt
Want to help themself.
The ice is getting thinner and thinner.

You have choose this life.
You have made your bed and now
You can lay in it.

the camera never lies
But the pictures do.
A picture paints a thousands words and tells a thousands
Lies too.

He inavded my dreams stealing each one seducing my mind.
I stood watching him in the shower
His dripping wet skin glistened.
My heart fluttered my mind filled with
Salacious thoughts.
He knew I was watching him he let
Me watch and dream.
Tempting me teasing me dropping his towel his towel he pulled me close.
Stealing the air from the lips tongues
Teased breathless bites.
One taste of his lemon drops kisses
Had me wanting more.
Each touch brought me to my knees
Wrapped round his finger.
Grasping the sheets his touch was like
An arrow of delight.
He knew how to make me scream and cry with Pleasure.
Leaving me breathless and speechless.

Will I pretend to be happy so you
Can feel better?.
How many times have you said
This is last time?.

While everything is a game or an act
We are lift to pick up the pieces.
Beer cans and wine bottles every were
You ask why the angry face.

You say that your an adult you don't
Need told what to do.
Live in a ***** house drink yourself
To death I am past caring.

The day you crossed the line was
When you spit in my face.