Pop open the bottle
Grab the green
And sleep in the tree house
No one even knows
That you exist
But your used to it
But, just that one boy
That looks out
That knows who you are
And wants the best
No matter what
Just for you
And when you doubt the feeling
You ask. And you get confirmed
With a simple,
Pleasurable yes

Watching
Your mom pick up another bottle
Waiting
For your dad to call back
Even though he never has
Wondering
Why life is so complicated
And how out of all the people
In the whole world
You had to get stuck with them
Watching
Your step dad mentally **** you
Day after day
Waiting
For someone to finally notice
Wondering
If you will be the blame

Pacing.
Back and forth
Back and forth
Looking at your accomplishments

Noticing first
The ones that everyone knows about,
That are public records,
And the ones that you brag about,
Constantly

Then realizing,
That what everyone sees
Isn't who you are

That what you do at home
Is the real accomplishment
Because of
All the things you do
That you aren't responsible for
But do anyway

How you control yourself
In public
And
How your hide your feelings
So nobody feels bad for you

Those are who you truly are
Who you are not just because you hope
That some one
Anyone will find you
In a good act

But because no one is looking and you
Want to be you

Pop open the bottle
Grab the green
And sleep in the tree house
No one even knows
That you exist
But your used to it
But, just that one boy
That looks out
That knows who you are
And wants the best
No matter what
Just for you
And when you doubt the feeling
You ask. And you get confirmed
With a simple,
Pleasurable yes

Just if
I decide to try
Just if
You really want to

Just if
I will really want
What I think I want
Just if
You really mean
What you say

Just then
Just then we
Not I and you
But we
Will be able

Able to stay happy
Able to love without judgement
Able to be we

I am sitting on my bed,
In this room that doesn't look the same to me.
And I don't know what I am doing here
Or why I have walked into this house
Day after day.

All anybody does is put me down,
Give me.fake promises,
And "move there whole schedule for me"

I don't know why I live with this.
I can't do it anymore.
I wish this pain would just go away.
I've had it bottled up
So that no one would see,
That I'm not who I used to be.

I used to be a little girl.
That never broke the rules,
Or did anything wrong.

That little girl got perfect grades
And got honor role,
And perfect attendance,
And character awards,
And got first place in the talent show.

But I'm not her anymore.

I've lost my innocence.
I know what the world is like now.
My parents tried to hide the world from me,
So that I didn't conform.

But I'm sorry,
I grew up.
I broke a few rules.
I did a few things that I knew I wasn't supposed to do.

That little girl did not have a care in the world
She was Always happy.
I try to be like that. I really do.
Pushing myself over the cliff,
Of sadness and depression,
Just to land in a pool of it.

I do it over and over
Hoping and praying that one day
It might just be a pool of happiness

But so far,
That hasn't happened

I try so hard to please people
To make them happy
And to assure them
That everything is going to work out
That everything is okay
And if it isn't okay right now,
Then it will be in the end.

And I convinced so many people
That this statement is true.
But unfortunately
It never works me.

I had to learn the hard way,

I was taught that the only person that could help,
Never leaves my side.

The hardest part of it all,
Was learning
That only He works for me.