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Justin Case Mar 2015
I wish I could walk away.
But I can't, because I still love you.

I wish I could say that I'm ok ...
And actually mean it.

I wish I could hate you for what you did to me.
Because I feel like it would make things easier.

I wish I would have stayed in my bubble, not letting you pry me out.
Then my shell would have protected my fragile heart.

I wish I cold have all of those days back.
All that wasted time, just for a shattered heart.

I wish I would have never learned what love is.
Because then I wouldn't have to live knowing what I'm missing out on.
Justin Case Dec 2014
Everyday I think of ways to get you back.
Ways that would make you smile,
Ways that would make you sad,
Ways that would make you regret, and
Ways that would make you feel guilty.

Everyday I think that maybe if you just saw me, everything would go back to normal.
Maybe if I just showed up to your house one night and knocked on your window,
Then you would see how much I still love you.
I could hold you in my arms again to show you what it feels like to be held by someone who loves you more than themself.

But I know that wouldn't help.
It would just make things worse.
Because I don't want you back if you're only here because you feel bad for me.
I want you back because you love me and can't live without me.

But now I know that you can live happily without me.
Too bad I can't live without you.
Justin Case Jan 2015
I wonder what will happen next time we wee each other.
Will you pretend you didn't see me?
Will I pretend I didn't see you?
Or will we say hi and carry on with our day?

I wonder if you would let me talk to you.
Would we be able to pretend we were still best friends?
Talking and laughing like the good old days.
Or would you tell me to leave and refuse to talk to me?

I wonder if you would go home and miss me.
Would you reminisce on our glory days?
Would you want me to be part of your life again?
Or would you just carry on with your day,
As if nothing ever happened.

I wonder if you would even recognize me.
Do you remember what I look like?
Or am I just a faint memory?

I won't have to wonder for much longer I hope.
Justin Case Jan 2015
Do you ever think about me?
Or am I forgotten?
Justin Case Mar 2015
I wrote you a letter today,
But I write to you all the time,
Through poetry, journals, and many others.
But this time was different.

I wrote you a letter today,
And unlike all of those other things I write for you,
I think I may give this one to you,
Let you actually read it.

I wrote you a letter today.
It's not hate mail.
I actually was able to talk like a normal person,
Without snapping and ranting about how you shouldn't have left.

I wrote you a letter today,
And I felt a bit better.
Justin Case Feb 2015
Everything that happened between us just seems like a dream now.
And that's okay.
Because I've had plenty of amazing dreams during my last,
And in the end they were just dreams.
So if I can convince myself you were really just a dream,
Then maybe I'll be able to move on.
And maybe it's better that way.
Too bad deep down, I will always know that it was much more than just a dream...
Justin Case Dec 2014
This is for you.
I don't know if you'll ever read it,
But I can hope, can't I?
Why do you still read these?
You said what I write hurts.
It makes you feel like a horrible person.
That's not what I write these for.
I write so I can express, not hurt.
But it shows you care.
Why do you still care?
Justin Case Dec 2014
Some days ****,
Others aren't so bad.
Some days I pray that God would just take me home.
But then I realize I'm just being selfish.
You know, I never knew what emotions were before I met you.
And now I wish I could forget all again.
But some days, I'm ok.
I can keep my mind busy with thoughts other than you.
At least until I get reminded of you, which is so very easy.
Some days I just sit around and stare.
Not at anything in particular, just stare.
But I'm told it gets better.
Sometimes I almost believe it too,
Until the smallest things bring you back into my mind.
But I make it through life.
Day by day.
Hour by hour.
Minute by minute.
And they add up after awhile.
They add up to a whole lot of nothing.
But life goes on.
Justin Case Mar 2021
Water, water, every where, but not a drop to drink.
More like
People, people every where, but not a soul to care.
Justin Case Dec 2014
Love cant even describe my feelings for you.
Other than you, I have no one.
Obviously I don't even have you now.
Maybe I should give up, stop hoping that you just might come back.
Perhaps I would be happier if I could just move on.
Love keeps me here though, waiting for something that will never happen
Even though you've put me through this, I still Loomple you <3
This isn't supposed to make sense to anyone except for my one and only. If only she would stumble across it...
Justin Case Mar 2015
I stay up late at night,
Lying in bed,
Writing poems in my mind while I fall asleep.
I write poems for you.
Poems you'll never see
Because I never remember them by the time I wake up.
Justin Case Apr 2022
Lord
Jesus Christ, Son of
God
Have
Mercy
On Me
Justin Case Dec 2014
I never called you a monster.
I believed everything you ever said to me.
So why are you twisting my words?

You want me to **** myself?
That's cool.
You're all I was holding on to to keep me alive.

I can't tell you what you felt?
No I can't, but I can try to express my confusion.

So I'm bad with words, you know that.
You're the only reason I'm as good as I am now.
Something came out of my mouth wrong, mis-worded.
Shouldn't you be used to that?

Why are you mad at me when you're the one who left me?
You left me falling off a cliff with noone to catch me.
So if you really want me dead, just say the word.
Because I will do whatever it takes to make you happy.
I'm sorry for the way I try to express my feelings. Don't take it personally when I mess up.
Justin Case Sep 2015
Like the morning dew, you glistened in the sunlight, beautiful to all who could see.
Like the morning dew, you would greet me, being the best way to start off the day.
Like the morning dew, you would be refreshing, leaving a longing on my lips for more.

Like the morning dew, you left me, only to keep returning, never to be forever gone.
Like the morning dew, you make my feet cold, making me unwilling to venture any farther.
Like the morning dew, you were beautiful, but never lasting.
Justin Case Mar 2018
You are precious to me.
Much like that fateful ring though, you bring me much pain.

How can someone that brings so much joy into my life bring me so much pain?
The same way the ring does of course.
Being with you is such a high
That being without you is worse than death.
I would do anything to keep you.

Not only that, but the ring desires its true owner,
All others are simply a temporary placeholder.
The trouble is, I know I'm not the final destination,
Which means it is only a matter of time until you will be gone forever, never to return.

Still, I would travel through Mordor for you,
Although I fear I won't be as fortunate as Frodo.
I would risk my life, go through all the pain.
All you have to do is ask.

The chance of me making it through this journey is probably about the same of Frodo succeeding without Sam's help;
It just ain't gonna happen.
Justin Case Dec 2014
Its a good thing I found the pieces to my shell.
You know, that thing you broke me out of?
Well I put it back on, and its a good thing too.
If it wasn't for my shell, everyone would know how much I still miss you.

I'm falling apart on the inside,
But my precious shell holds everything together.
I cry myself to sleep,
But my precious shell hides the tears.
I go through the days in a haze,
But my precious shell is painted with a smile, so nobody knows.

Thank you my precious little shell,
You're all I have left.
Justin Case Feb 2015
My watch doesn't tell time.
These are the things it tells me:

Quit making excuses.
Never Give up.
Get over yourself.
Idk. I haven't written in a while and that's the first thing that came into my head.
Justin Case Mar 2021
I just want you to be okay. No more pain.
Justin Case Apr 2021
I try so hard.
I do my best.
I give you my all,
You can attest.
Despite my efforts,
I know it's a bit rough.
At the end of the day,
I'm just not enough...
Justin Case Jul 2015
I am but a shadow, ignored by all.
I am merely a cloud, going wherever the wind takes me.
I am nothing more than a leaf, no more special than anyone else.

I'm a loner.
I'm a drifter.
I'm the same as you,
And you are the same as me.
Justin Case Jun 2018
I'm becoming numb to the pain.
How long will it be until I feel nothing at all?
Justin Case Dec 2014
I wish I knew if you still read these.
I wouldn't blame you if you didn't.
But I write these mostly for you.
The ones I write for me you'll never see.
I write these hoping you will see them and be willing to accept me for who I am,
Knowing I made mistakes and that I am aware,
Knowing I want the chance to try again.
I know you aren't going to come running back into my arms like I dream you would,
But could you at least walk back into my life?

I miss our talks.
I know I have a special talent at messing them up,
But you should know I don't mean to.
I improve after each mess up, learning from my mistakes.
So if you could give me one more chance (or a million like I'll probably need),
I would be grateful.

But you've already done enough for me,
And I don't expect another chance.
I've already had more chances than I deserve.
But if you could find some way to give it, I promise I won't abuse it.
I will cherish it as much as I cherish you,
More if that's even possible.
I miss you.
I know everyone probably tells you to never talk to me again. I understand.
Justin Case Oct 2020
The genie gives three wishes, but I need only one.
I'd wish to have never existed. Exceptions? Bar none.
Justin Case Jan 2015
I kinda wish I never met you.
You know why?

Because before you:
I didn't know what true happiness was.
I was content with being alone.
I thought love was fake.
I enjoyed life.

But now that you've come into my life and then left:
I cry because I'll never truly be happy again.
I hate being lonely.
I know how incredible love is.
I can't enjoy life because you were all that ever made me happy,
And you left me dead on the street.

Thanks for ruining my life,
This was hard for me to write because I still love you and my life was amazing with you. But I hate life without you and I just want to die.

I realize the title doesn't have much to do with the poem. The hardest part of a poem for me is the title.
Justin Case May 2018
There's no such thing as perfect,
But you could have fooled me
Justin Case Dec 2014
I used to hate poetry, but I learned to love it.
I learned to love it because you did.
You expressed yourself and I loved what you would write.
But now poems are all I have left.
I don't have anything to bring me joy.
So I find myself writing more and more everyday.
Just hoping that you might someday stumble across them
And realize how much I love you.
So I will hold on.
I will hold onto my love for you,
My hope that you just might come back,
And last of all, to poetry.
Justin Case Jul 2015
It's like a game of poker.
Your parents would be disappointed, but won't you play one more round with me?
We'll play the cards we are dealt and the winner can take all.
There will be no need for any lies or tricks, a fair game is all I want.
You've been dealt the Queen of Hearts and I the Ace of Death.
Who will come out on top?
Let us play and find out.
Justin Case Dec 2014
I've finally collected the pieces of my shell.
You know that thing that you broke me out of?
You worked so hard to get my out of it.
And now, I've collected the pieces and glued them back together.
There might be a few cracks left in the shell,
But I'm pretty much back to my old self now.
I'm a brick without feelings, just how its supposed to be.
Justin Case Mar 2015
Why did this happen to me?
What did I do to deserve this?
Where did I go wrong?
Is this what happens when you love too much?
Is this the "benefit" of giving your heart to someone else?


Life isn't fair.
Justin Case Jan 2015
Before you, I was ready to die.
I didn't hate my life, but I didn't love it.
I was just kind of here.

Then you entered my life.
Every night I prayed that I would get to live forever with you.
I loved life more than I thought possible because you were there.

Now that you've left me for dead, I'm ready to die again.
I pray every night that God would take me home,
Let me leave this living Hell and go to paradise.
Because right now I have nothing to live for.
You took everything I had, and then some.
I'm ready to die now, but don't feel bad about it.
Its not your problem, just be happy my dear.
Justin Case May 2018
Are you upset with where you are in life right now?

If not, then don't regret anything.
Every single thing in your past got you to where you are.

If you are upset with where you are in life,
Quit wasting time feeling sorry for yourself.
The past is the past and there is nothing you can do to change it.

Look at your mistakes,
Learn from them,
And work towards a life you can be proud of.

Don't regret anything.
Everything that has happened is why you are who you are.
If you don't like who you are then make a change.
Regret Nothing
Justin Case Feb 2015
And just when I thought everything was all better,
You started appearing in my life again.
Justin Case Mar 2019
In the worst of times, Hello Poetry is here for me.
She is the only one I can talk to; the only one that understands.

When I crave death the most, I hear a faint whipser from her.
She calls to me, begging me to let her bear my burden,
even just for a time.

She holds me tight and lets me know that I'm not alone.
She tells me that everyone hurts sometimes, and not a bad thing.
She reminds me that my past troubles have passed, and this will too.

Hello Poetry, the one who comforts me when skies are gray
and all seems lost.
The one who doesn't care if I ramble on about the same thing for hours.
The only one that won't judge me for the things I have done, or the things I say.
Nothing I say is stupid to her, all my thoughts have value.

And even though she knows that once she has revived my spirits
I will leave her and completely forget about her for some time,
She selflessly lets me go, knowing that one day I am bound to return.

Even if that day would never come, I know she would celebrate instead of mourn, for she has helped me finally climb out of this hole that always finds a way to bring me back in.

One day I will be okay, and it's all thanks to you, my dear.
Justin Case Mar 2015
Everyone says the if a girl runs away that it's because she wants to be followed. She wants to see what a person will go through to be with her.
Well that isn't always true. I tried following the girl that ran away. She just ran even farther. Sometimes, when a girl runs away, it's into another man's arms, and she doesn't want followed.
Justin Case Apr 2021
Oh fisher, fisher, how can this be?
I'm caught on your hook, were you fishing for me?

Your beautiful looks were the eye-catching lure,
Next find the fish that you'll bring to the shore.

A gullible guppy came swimming on by,
And that outstanding lure went and caught his eye.

He was a bit cautious, but took a small bite.
And at first it seemed like everything was alright.

But next thing you know, he was hooked real good.
He was enjoying his catch, as anyone would.

Things seemed real good when you were reeling him in.
But give him some slack, and things were bad again.

Little fishy didn't know that you would be his demise.
Until you pulled him from the water and he saw the blue skies.

You played that little fishy, from deep in the sea.
But you don't just catch fish, you catch poor guys like me.
Justin Case Mar 2015
Do you remember how you could never look into my eyes?
You always told me that it was because you were afraid of losing me.
But I think I figured out the real reason.

When you looked into my eyes, you saw how much I loved you.
You saw how much that you meant to me,
And you knew that you could never love me the same way.

You never looked back into my eyes because you knew I would see.
You knew I would see that you didn't love me forever.
You knew I would figure out your secret.

You knew I would have to find out eventually,
So why did you hide it from me for so long?
You knew that the longer you waited, the harder it would be on me.
Why didn't you care?
Justin Case May 2018
Shared grief may be "half the sorrow", but not for me.
How can I share my pain when I know it will make others sad or worried?
That would make me feel even worse.

What do I have to be depressed about anyway?
I have a good life.
I had a good upbringing.
I have friends and family who care.
I don't have to fight for survival.
I don't have to worry about becoming a casualty of war.

Despite having so much to be grateful for, I hate life.
I don't fear death, I long for it.

But I have to be strong.
Real men don't cry.
Real men don't have emotions.
This has been drilled in my head so much that I don't even know how to feel.

I know I'm upset but I can't explain why.
I know I'm upset but I can't even cry.

All I know is that I have so much to be grateful for,
But I would still rather be dead.
I can't tell anyone because I would feel worse for making them worried.
I can't express it because I don't even know how and real men are strong.
I don't know why I feel like this, but I can't get over it.
Justin Case May 2018
It's only been a day but it feels like forever.
Missing you
Justin Case Sep 2015
-Out of dust we were made, and to dust we will one day return.-

You were the rock on which I stood,
The only thing I was sure of in life.
Weathered by the wind and rain,
Beat down through trials.

The rock that was my foundation
Became the sand on which the fool built his house.

As an alcoholic keeps coming back for more,
Despite the consequences,
I shall forever return to you.

To all things we must return,
And to return to you,
Is what I must do.
No matter how hard I want to stay away, no matter how hard I try,
you always return to my thoughts, my dreams...
Justin Case Apr 2021
Oh, to be a dog!
I wouldn't have to pretend I'm not excited to see you.
I could be as needy as I wanted,
because even though it gets annoying, people always give in to a dog.

I wouldn't have to worry about what anyone thought.
I could love you to my heart's content and be happy with my life.
Justin Case Dec 2014
You say you love me, yet you left me.
You say you care, but you wouldn't even call.
Leaving me was right AND wrong??
What does that even mean? I don't understand.
How did I end up here?
Less than a year ago, life was just life.
Then the most amazing thing happened to me.
I was happier than I ever thought possible, all because of you.
But now, now I just wish none of it ever happened.
I wish I had never gotten tangled in this mess.
I would rather have my boring life back than live in this nightmare.
But the funny thing about it is, I still love you.
I don't know how or why, but I do.
You stole my heart and that cant be undone.
When I told you "forever" i meant it and still do.
I love you forever, and I cant help it.
I'm sorry to say, but my heart belongs to you.
Do with it what you want, but it will always be yours.
I ain't a poet...
Justin Case Aug 2015
Too perfect is something that I didn't think was possible.
But sometimes, somebody is too perfect for you.
They are so right for you that they are actually bad for you.
It doesn't really make sense, but does anything?
Justin Case Mar 2015
People say "Never let go of someone that you can't go a day without thinking about."
But what about "If you love something, set it free. If it loves you, it will come back."
Does this mean you should let go and hope they come back?
Or does it mean never let them go and do whatever it takes to keep them around, even if they don't love you anymore?
I loved her and I still do.
She loved me so I set her free, and she never came back.
Sometimes, even if they love you, they may love freedom more...
The product of typing without thinking.
Justin Case May 2018
Don't trust me just because others do,
Trust me because you do.
Justin Case Jan 2015
Trying to put me back together would be like:

Trying to do a million piece puzzle,
Without half of the pieces.

Trying to solve a  Rubik's cube,
While blindfolded,
With your feet,
With shoes on,
Under water,
Without an air supply.

Trying to put a broken plate back together,
When all of the pieces have turned to powder.

Trying to bring my body back to life,
After its been cremated,
And the ashes spread in the wind.

Trying to flip a "heads",
While rolling dice.

Trying to put me back together is useless.

You would have better luck:
Splitting an atom with your bare hands,
Stopping world hunger with a single pea,
Surviving in outer space without oxygen,
Running to Mars and back on foot.

I'm un-fixable ever since you took all of my love,
And left me for dead.
Justin Case Jan 2015
I never really understood depression until recently.
I always thought people where just babied when they were young,
Or they just cared too much about the subject,
Or they just didn't know the joy of knowing Jesus.

I would tell them to be happy.
I would list all kinds of reasons,
Like how lucky they were for this or that and so much more.

But now I understand.
My heart has been shattered and I know depression.
I know what it feels like to not be able to eat or sleep.
I know that nobody can say or do anything to help,
Except maybe the one you love.
Sometimes.

I know what its like to have a great family and friends,
But nobody to talk to.
I know what its like to be a priviledged individual,
But still feel empty.
I know what its like to have everything I need, plus more,
But it still isn't enough.

I finally understand what its like to be depressed and suicidal.
And it *****.
My heart goes out to everyone in the same position.
And I hope we can all get out of this whole.

And for those who don't understand depression,
Just know that its not your fault we can't be helped,
Because nothing helps.

We might seem ok,
Because that's the show that we put on everyday
So others won't know.

We just need you to be there for us.
Not to do anything except be there.
not a great poem but im not a poet so what do you expect.
Justin Case Jan 2015
I see so much pain.
So much hurt and depression.
Talk of suicide and self injury.
I know nothing that anyone says will help the hurt.
So I encourage everyone who knows someone like this,
To just listen.
Don't try giving advice,
It doesn't help.
Don't tell us stories of yourself in a similar situation,
We are different.
We just want someone to listen to us and be there for us.

And for everyone who feels worthless and ready to die,
Hang in there.
You are loved.
More people than you could imagine care about you.
I know it won't be easy at all,
But try.
Even if you only find one reason to live and a million to die,
Fight for that one reason.
Justin Case May 2015
You left me for him because he is more fun,
But you still come to me with your problems because you can't talk to him about them.
You say I'm the only one you can tell because I'm the only one who cares.

Somehow this doesn't make sense to me.
Justin Case Dec 2014
17hrs left. Lets see how much I can sleep away.
Cool. 7 more hours.
5 left. What shall I do?
3 hours. This is taking forever.
1 hour.
45 minutes. I'm getting nervous.
30 minutes.
15.
10. Here it comes.
Its almost here. Will I survive?
Justin Case Feb 2015
I wonder if enough time has passed for you to forget me.

Do you remember what we had?
Or has it been replaced with all new memories?

Would you still recognize me?
Or would I be a stranger to your eyes?

Would you talk to me like a long lost friend?
Or would you pretend you didn't see me?

Are you truly happy now?
Because that's all that matters to me.
I just kinda wrote...
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