I think of suicide
I think of committing suicide
I don't know if I would commit suicide
But I sure want to try

Now, folks
This is not a question of whether or not I will.
It's a question of why I want to
I'm not sure why though.
Maybe it's the worthlessness if feel in the pit of my stomach every time I look in the mirror.
Maybe it's that I feel trapped all the time..even in open spaces.
Maybe I feel alone when everyone's around.
Maybe, just maybe I'm tired of feeling like this...maybe I'm over it.

What are you supposed to do when you are at edge but you have no one to step back for?...All there's left to do is ...jump.

Its not that Im ashamed of being sad or depressed its just that I dont want to be a burden or a disappointment, and I dont want my parents to think its their fault.

I still want to rip my skin apart
because I miss you
but you don't miss me
and I want you
but I'm not good enough
I'm not of any importance
in your life
So why are you important to me?

give me a reminder of why my existence is even relevant in life.

I guess i forgot to mention that
when someone breaks your heart
all the heartbeats that they gave you
get taken back tenfold
and sometimes it leaves you
empty
or close to death

wow i loved you just to be stripped
of my trust for you, you said that
i looked sad then you asked why
and after a while i told you
and you looked at me with sad eyes and said
"i wont let anything hurt you"
but then you turned around
and slit my wrists yourself
and there i was
foolish enough to give you another chance..
and not even a week later
i hear that you're coming back for me
with a knife and now
you are going to try to end my life
before you end the relationship
that shouldn't have existed in the first place
.becasue that would hurt much less