You can crown yourself king, and demand I kiss your boot.
You can tie me to your horse and ride into your sunset, with me dragging behind.
You can turn everyone against me, make me feel like I'm worth less than two *****.
But I swear to god things will change.
This unstable mountain you built for yourself from all of your *******, is going to crumble from beneath you.
You will fall, hard.
I'll move on.
I'll have a life.
I'll be successful.
And you? All you will accomplish is helping me grow thicker skin.
That was not your goal, aye?
See, people like you don't get very far in life.
They work and work to build themselves and make themselves stronger by making other people weaker.
But then life makes a 180 degree turn on them, and all their work was for ****.
They fail. They always do.
You will fail.
I'll laugh in your ******* face, just like you laughed in mine.
My laugh however, will last forever.
How long will yours last, huh?
Not long, not long at all.
It's a big drop from the top of the world to the **** of the earth.
Enjoy the view, *******.

If i told you i needed help
would you listen?
Or would your silence
Echo off the walls.
See my life is like a car,
Sometimes moving fast
And other times so **** slow.
If i told you i feel hurt inside
would you not just hear
but listen
to what i said
I need someone to care.
Im tired of trying to fight alone.
Im tired of trying to survive at a table for one.
If i told you
I cry all over my body
And each tear is a knife
And they are leaving scars on my flesh,
Would you cut me a bandage,
Sop up my blood,
Or leave me to bleed out.
If i told you
I was alone and my demons are taunting me
would you get me out
Or would you keep walking
or keep scrolling...
Im not begging for attention,
But one cannot be expected to be alone and silent like a life long detention.
If i told you
I was ready to confess everything
Come clean from my secrets,
Strip myself naked so you could see my imperfections
would you care even the slightest bit
Or are you so selfish
And so ignorant
To walk on
And leave this person to die.
If i told you i was ready to die
would you blame it in cliche,
Or believe it and save me from damnation
Its time to think.
It could be up to you
This isnt just my world,
Its yours, too
and dont you want to be
somebody
To someone?
I need you.
Because all of these "if i told you's
Are becoming
**im telling you

I'm here, I'm living.
I'm here surviving.
I'm here... But I'm not thriving.

I want to go to the other side,
I want to go where there is light.
I want to dance and sing,
And laugh and twirl and do my own thing.

But I'm here and stuck on my side,
I've died and cried on inside.
I search and sought for a way out,
But all I could do is scream and shout.

The thoughts and voices in my head,
They're drowning me I can't tread.
I'm a prisoner of the war,
And I'm losing strength
And I can't fight anymore.
I let out one forceful roar,
Then surrender and fall to the floor.

I want to go to the other side,
I want to go where there is light.
I want to dance and sing,
And laugh and twirl and do my own thing.

But I'm here and stuck on my side,
I've died and cried in inside.
I search and sought for a way out,
But all I could do is scream and shout.

I will find my way to paradise,
Even if I make the same mistake twice.
I will work and I won't give up,
I will climb high and I will live it up.
With my chin up and my head held high,
I WILL walk over to the other side.

I put on a smile,
I burst out a laugh.
I look happy in the photographs.
But that's all a cover, non of its real...

I'm dying on the inside,
I cry myself to sleep at night.
I'm breaking down piece by piece,
But no one cares no sees.

Everydays a new start,
But they all end up just the same.
First I'm happy,
Then someone comes and lights the flame.

I'm burning on the inside,
The fires bright but there's no light.
I'm drowning in the darkest sea,
Praying to be set free.

I thought I could do this on my own,
Face all the hardships and no one will know. My mind is shattered,
My thoughts are scattered,
My heart is so worn my heart is so tattered. There's no one here to guide me,
To do what friends do.
There's no shoulder here to cry on,
No help to pull through.
That leaves on choice one voice,
Only one turn to.
The one inside my head,
Saying things better left unsaid.

I'm breaking on the inside,
Got no more tears my eyes are dried.
I'm done trying to pretend,
I'm done trying to comprehend.

But I put on a smile,
I burst out a laugh.
I look happy in the photographs.
But that's all a cover, non of its real....