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Bob Wax Sep 2020
i just want one person to hold
i never give up and give over control

i cant stand to touch another unless its you
i dont want a hug from anyone but you

cause i cant stand the touch of anyone else
and when i hold you i feel full of myself

people fade so fast
i just want your face to last

i just want you to be my person
the only one i touch and open up to

please dont fade so fast
becoming a ghost of my past
Bob Wax Apr 2020
HELLO
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Bob Wax Feb 2020
born and raised in farmland indiana
lived there back when i believed in santa
later i moved to ohio
where i spent my teens going ******
finally dad moved us to big texas
where i would come to meet all my exes
after college ill move some place
far away from this disgrace
never had a problem with who i was
but i guess in texas they have different laws

they say
you cant say youre from indiana
you dont represent farmer americana
you cant say youre from ohio
thatd be like accepting a typo
well you definitely arent one of us
cause you dont like to talk on the bus
or in the grocery store
you think southern hospitality fun to ignore?
its hard to understand who i am
so i go back home to my fam
they talk to me they tell me
that every where has welcomed me
dont be discouraged, your one of us
even if you dont talk on the bus

so my texas friends and i keep traveling
searching for my answer, try unraveling
land in china and the people are so fine
they compliment my face and praise divine
they ask where im from in america
and blank goes my rentina
standing before my texas friends
my mind weighs the odds and ends
the logistics of where i belong
is this where i make my stand, sing my song
or alas just keep quiet and move along
say some answer and move on

no i thought i need this
a fight to be free of this
to understand my identity
i have to sacrifice a deep part of me
not going to compromise
no need to lie and disguise
the problems with my identity deep inside

im from indiana i say
immediately im meet with distaste
now suddenly in a different country, they want me?
saying ive been in texas for a while thats you now baby
but i dont understand
thats not where i stand or on brand
i just dont understand
im not just some texas ranch hand

i dont belong anywhere
i am my own ill clear the air
i just belong to me
was that so hard to believe?
i go home and they say im not from home
i go aboard like thatll be my new home
ROUGH DRAFT PLS EDIT AND   FINISH SOBER XIAO JUN
Bob Wax Dec 2019
lately i feel like my life is going by crazy fast
feels like im strapped to a semi heading to a crash
gaining speed rapidly driving towards the wall
this is where my life shatters and apart it falls

armando said well talk about this later
so i hid 3 days straight
thought i didnt need a mediator
so i didnt dictate

the problems i was hiding
staying scared in my hole
i always had a hard time inviting
was never good at crowd control
Bob Wax Dec 2019
i dont have anything to write about
so instead ill dream something where i shout
get the anger needed to record
doing drugs like jordan belfort

drops my worries and cares
makes me feel like im getting somewhere
music is complicated and hard
just wanted to make some audio art

mixing little bit of art and math
dont forget to add in emotions to the bath
relaxed and sitting in now
music doesnt make me doubt

swimming through the bath
wanting to make art last
put the work aside from me
let it be judged freely

art gets what it wants
cant believe how bad i was once
lot of room to grow
cant wait to see my future shows

got a lot of work to do a head of me
first of all i got to finish this degree
then the grind for creative satisfaction
gotta say goodbye to the distractions

got to many vices currently
cant tell if they are destroying me
everyone i know who smokes
is reduced down to half the bloke

stronger without it weak with
a week with, and im not ******
i want to die in china of old age
rather than shot in this gun cage

its really hard to compare the two
two completely different people groups
doing the same thing as the other
but one gets entitled, hot, and bothered

theyll **** each other at the end of the story
and its the end of the story
and i dont know if i was talking about
america or china in their nuclear fallout

jordan, drugs, and, i
or my struggle with the artists eye
making music like a bath
the combination of art and math

thats it.
was it worth it.
Bob Wax Dec 2019
sleeping in til nine
put contacts in the wrong eye
outside getting rained in
listeing to micheal cera palin

different cold the wet and dark
the body and soul drift apart
coworker said "running late"
no need to worry, there is no hate

o how happy i am again
o so happy my friends
im doing just fine
on my daily grind

feeling out my insides
there's been a lot to realize
just trying to figure this soul out
acting like a **** fool, no doubt

always check the left
never been right i guess
born not normal in the right place
been left to find out, im a disgrace

all because my hands are southpaw
it's become my greatest flaw
not something i can change
not something i want to change
first four, setting, first point of conflict. second four, the body and mind separate. (rest follows the pattern set in second four.) third four, body is talking about delights in my current physical grind, for which i draw a lot of pleasure. fourth four, mind is talking learning about myself, and recalling previous embarrassments (growth). fifth four, body is talking about how i get confused and check for the L made on my left hand, pattern goes LRRL, sometimes i feel like the earth is made to easy for right handed people, and i therefore do not belong. sixth four, mind is talking, (realization and resolution. please reread once or twice and give me some feedback!
Bob Wax Dec 2019
Stomach rumble
Inside shuffle
Hungry again
Calories for lend
Didn't I just eat
Why the constant repeat
Don't wanna stay alive
Kamikaze surprise

Stomach rumble
This time it's trouble
Gone to long
Foods not fond
Endless appetite
Just end my life
Consume me for once
Dishonest trust
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