After all this time
I still reminisce
About all the times we shared

But if I could go back
To that campus in that town
I'd do it all again, no questions asked

Minus this and that
I'd still lay under the stars
Or sit on the fountain ledge

I'd still hide in the bushes
I'd still read beneath the trees
Even still be the third wheel

One thing though
I might take back
All the hurtful words I spoke

Another would be
The shyness
I let hold me back

I'd be more vocal, outspoken
But since time has passed
I'm stuck living in today

I'm watching you all walk by
Without even saying hi
Because you do not know my name

Cue the part where I
Start to question what we are
And I
Can't help but think that
Sometimes life has certain ways of
******* us over
We get so comfortable with
Someone and then
One day they just up and
Leave you sitting all alone wondering
What the hell went wrong?
You did everything you thought was right but
Obviously you ***** everything up so why
Should this be any different?

Everyone always leaves you and
You begin to wonder if it's you but
You think back on the patterns and
Every single time it's been a
Time in your life that just didn't seem right but
You thought you couldn't breathe without
Them, now your eyes are open to
The fact that you may have felt like you were drowning
A sea of loneliness and despair consuming you but
Reality hits you and
You're doing okay.
It hurts like hell and that's why
Sometimes people say loosing your best friend is
Tougher than loosing a lover but
You're surviving.
They replaced you and you've replaced them.  
Memories float around you and
The small things still haunt you

I guess this is my way of coping with
This since our conversations last less than a minute and
We haven't seen each other in months.
I know living 2 hours away was tough but
We always seemed to make it though and I
Just don't know you anymore and
My biggest fear is you
Telling secrets or using them to
Destroy me but you
Promised you'd never do that but then again you
Promised me a lot of things and here we are now.
I just wish we could talk it out
Without you turning into a monster.

I don't even know what happened
It was a gradual process and I saw it coming
I tried to stop it but it made things worse
So eventually I just let it run its course
Whether it was the experience or the boy
I will never quite know what
Tore you apart, stole you away.
To this day, I blame the boy but
I know that this isn't fair because
Things don't last forever so why
Did I expect this friendship too?

I just know some nights when I can't sleep I
Imagine every adventure we took and smile because
Even though sometimes I hate you I still
Thank you God for bringing you through and for
Teaching me to be a friend who
Never gives up on achieving things
I still pray we'll mend things but I guess
This is me saying
Even if we failed at this, I still believe
You were the greatest thing to happen to me