just a friend
that holds my heart
and should rightfully know it's his

just a friend
that is playing it smart
and knows how hard this is

just a friend
as we restart
a friend i love that is

s.s

death is terrifying
but only because it is the unknown
we are always afraid of what we don't know

maybe that's why i can't bring myself to ask you
if you still care
or maybe that's why i can't swallow
these little round tickets to freedom
sitting in my hand

because it is unknown

and it is terrifying

but in all honesty
the unknown
of living without you
is so much worse
and it is unknown
what i will do next
because the one thing i do know

is that i can't do this

s.s

muscles sore
from the day before
an ache you adore
wanting more

s.s

im falling
and i need a foothold
your arms catch me
steadying me
but somehow
im only falling faster

s.s

i still see you in my sleep
maybe that's why i refuse
to close my eyes

s.s

just be open and honest
that's what you've always told me
but little did i know
it had to be the truth you wanted to hear
or it still would never be good enough

s.s

and still
when i hear your name
something inside me
goes weak
and i ache
for you
to come home

i sat there
and asked myself
why it hurt so much
and the only answer
i could find
was because
i loved that boy
but couldn't make him mine

s.s

do you ever feel
that life isn't right
that things are not the way they're supposed to be
you look around and the world is
distorted
dull
different
but you can’t do anything to fix it

no matter how hard you try

s.s