I could of sworn this was all a dream
Ya know, one of those freak fantasies
But in actuality this is reality
And you expect me to prosper in this so called society
Then you say God is with me
God is against me
God abandoned me
God left me wondering why the sky is blue and grass green
He left me to ponder as to why everything must be
As I drowned in the black sea trying to discover my identity
Then again I'm surprised I even have this opportunity
Considering the streets were my home, my only sanctuary
My parents were poor, and I struggled in school
My eyes were singed shut so I never thought I'd see the light of day ever again
BUT!
I was given the chance to escape the hell hole I called life
And now I fly like an eagle with a smile upon my face
Something I forgotten how to do so long ago
But it feels good
It feels good not to wake up afraid
Not to have to check over your shoulders every five seconds
To know that the people you care about are safe
And the pain, the pain finally dissipates into the dust
i'm free...
I'm finally free
But i'll never forget the pain that haunted me
I'll never forget how I came to be me

Hello mother
Hello father  
It has been a long time since we went our separate ways
Sorry I haven't come to visited you in awhile
Been kind of torn considering this is my faught
If only I had listened you we would've still been a family
I miss you guys
In fact I just wanted to say I love you guys
Of course I can't say it to your face anymore
I’m scared, it’s so cold without your warmth
I’m just sorry
Sorry I took my own life
I hope you can forgive me for causing you so much pain
Well I guess this is goodbye
Hope we can be together again on the other side

If I may have your attention please
Allow me to say just one little thing
And that is tragedy
Tra...ge...dy

If you do not agree that life is a delicate thing
This poem is not meant for thee
Well never mind this poem is meant for you to see
Because this poem is meant for everybody

So without further delay
Allow me to begin with what I have to say
But you cannot say you have not been warned
Because this poem will make become torn

Look around and what do you see
Life...Life is such a beautiful thing
Would you not agree
But life is being stolen from right beneath our very feet

A new threat has emerged from the deepest depths of the darkest abyss
One that has surpassed all violence before our very eyes
It is heartless attacking both our elders and our youth
Proclaiming no one is safe from it's voracious bite  

So one by one they fall
Both our future and our past
Causing one to think will we survive
Because as of now drugs smile as the world trembles beneath its feet

Tick...Tock
Gun...Shot
Run...Now
Don’t...stop
Tick...Tock
Gun...Shot
Dreams
Long ago, there was a little black boy with a dream
A dream to one day be free of all the chaos in society
Long ago, there was a little white boy who held a gun up to his head
All because he became fed up with the injustices that trapped him within his own body
They were eight
Since when did the playground for eight year olds become the life that not even us adults wish to live
Since when did eight year olds cry so many crimson tears that they form a river big enough to swim in
Better yet, drown in
Back then this was unheard of
Back then it was war against color
You know those as white as snow against those as black as dirt
Now it is just pure ignorance
You know black lives, white lives, all lives matter
WELL ***** THAT!
The children’s lives are what matter
You know the future of our very existence on this earth
But it seems no one really notice that the children are suffering from our stupidity
Which leaves only one question
Does anybody really care
Tick...Tock
Gun...Shot
Say goodbye...to the dreams...that have been lost

Do I love her?
I can't say that I do
I mean I love her
But I don't love...her
She is really nice and all
Always got my back and what not
But alas I am too young to love
Too young to be loved
I'm not mature enough
Not strong enough
Not fast enough
So do I love her
Maybe...
But as of now...
Love is the last thing I'd call this

Imma just...sit back here and be my...self
As I...watch the world go around and around and a...round
Just chillin beneath the...tree near outskirts of the town
Playing it cool as if...there isn't a worry in my mind
Paying no attention to the time
As the ******* continue to climb
Because...that is who I...am
A laid back ***** who doesn’t give a...****
Another brotha hiding from rules of society
Because in society I will never be a true human being
Cause all society sees is the...color of my skin
So because i’m...black
I am a...cursed being
Another plague that...infects this world with its...nonsense
So I just...tip toe away tryna...live a normal life
As I...carve a ******* in the...very atmosphere
Laughing away as I...live to be free
Lying beneath the...trees near the outskirts of the town
Once again just being...M to the ******* E