I know who we are now
we are lovebirds
wait...
we were lovebirds

But now
we are set free
wait...
you were free

I don't see a way
Out of here anymore
wait...
IS there a way out?

The worst form
of a dystopia
is the utmost
*Utopia

Story..
Stories
I have a story to tell
It's a tragic one as usual

A day goes by. Silence reigns and birds cuckoo
While this happens..
Two people sit under a tree
Using it as a rendezvous
For usual meetings
They met...
Once...
In ten days

They enjoyed it
I helped another person
and he tried to help me
I did a better job of helping him
that's what I think..

Anyways, once they met
they enjoyed it
they would talk together
and climb a tree
Play with a dog, which was a
golden retriever
They are big!
It was a lot of fun
Often playing Videogames
like..
Mario kart..?

That was a day
and it happened on
an occasional basis
when both of them could spare some time
from their daily *time consuming life

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One day however
A bright sunny day
A sunday afternoon
filled with birds flying about
nearly the end of the school year
It was all going by wonderfully

We had met another time
because you called me
and told me to help you out
and just to relieve the stress
that the school year had put on us

We climbed a tree
with a rope on it
it was pretty tall
about 10 feet high

I remember talking about self harm..
..and ways to **** oneself
and I gave up climbing and jumped off
the rope
6 feet
straight down
on my back/ankles

It hurt like batshit crazy
but i told you I managed through it
then later
when talking to our friends
I let it slip

I told her about my failed attempt
I was really depressed after that
It actually FAILED!

Well, now more people knew about it
and these rumors spread fast
as you would know
I was still fine with school
just.. I  became more depressed
My grades were fine
I was nearly at the end of the year
nearly there.
nearly

And then
I realized
that
Mockingbirds
are similar to humans
they don't talk much
at the time of crisis
but they remember
it, and pass it onwards

They don't lie.

*Mockingbirds dont lie

I hope that
Your lips are
On my lips
Soon..

Not just for homecoming
or school events
but for an eternity
so we can
remember
each other
and our love
for the other

Dark and calming
Peaceful and energetic
Chirping heard in background

Come.
Reside in me.
There is a void here.
There is no life here.
The doors are completely open.
But I don't remember keeping them open for you..

With your face covered in darkness
It is unforeseeable to look at my future
And yet.
You stand tall with your sword
On your left side.

You are not welcome here.
Thanathos
I never said I desire death.
Though I do, inside my head.
So leave.
Now.

Its every man for himself
Humanity has unresolved issues
Usually I take the brunt
Of every wrongdoing
Because
Apparently its always me

We all know
One day
We shall perish
Leaving behind
A legacy
How you choose
To remember me
or
Someone else
Is your choice

But..
If we all are to perish
Why not quicken up
This process
That can take
A whole century..

**Why not quicken it??

Sleep is magnificent
its powerful arms,
gripping us. holding us.
furtively. enclosing us.
in its vast embrace of solitude.

We were sleeping
regardless of the time, and the heat,
emanating from our bodies.
Our bodies, cramped onto a bed
with legs intertwined
and pillows everywhere and
blankets hiding our faces.

The serenity, the solidarity
amongst us.
To simply sleep.
Nothing more, nothing less
simply to lie in the embrace of the other
with eyes closed, but bodies closer.

Such is the power of sleep.
To bring two individuals together,
to bring two souls together.
Aligning their heart, their minds, their bodies
to love each other.

We sat together,
upon a hill with dew on grass,
against a tree
with glowing city lights ahead of us
We waited patiently for night fall
to stand witness to the beautiful starry night

The wait lasted a while but it paid back.
It paid back through the beauty,
the awesome power,
and the sight of the stars.
These stars were unfathomable
even while we stood witness to them.

The city lights took notice
of the star filled night sky
and dimmed their lights ever so low
Making visible the huge spirals of the Milky Way
emanating a white glow
but so peaceful, oh so peaceful
it calmed the entire human soul

The night was still so young
so much had yet to happen.
She sensed the serene silence
understanding our time was complete.
The world would wander
and locations would change
but our experiences would remain.

Be wary, be intelligent
don't lose hope
and
don't forget
that though you
believe in death
marking the end of your
problems
and while it certainly is
the key
to your problems
it certainly isn't

Looks are deceptive
It seems, and virtually feels
as though it can lead you out of ALL
the ****** misery in your life
its kinda.. untrue..
because after you die..
you are to go to the Underworld..
and please, lets not talk about it
I dont have a personal experience about it
but seriously
You will face just the same problems again
is it worth it to leave your progress right now?
You are doing great,
and death has doors
which you,
aren't required to knock on
for a while
A REALLY LONG WHILE

so please, enjoy the season of christmas
meet people under mistletoe
yes, I am serious about that
and live
and see the brighter side of things
and also watch Sherlock
season 3..

I like that show,
you will too
Just live and let bygones
be bygones
If this is too cliche
well..
Sorry about it.
I am trying to convey a point

You are wonderful
and interesting
and just so intelligent

I know!!
I understand
and i know its wonderful
talking to an interesting person

But I don't believe in myself
I don't trust myself
I am cynical
Doubting myself
preventing myself from gaining my power

Just being cynical is preventing me
this is not good

She was a true princess
on this world
She was rich and wild
and free

She always got what she wanted
without any questions or doubts
I
was her prince

The prince who would look at her
and start blushing
due to her exuberant beauty
She was like a red rose in a garden of purple tulips

Her beauty was unmatched by anyone
The Prince loved her so much
he was ready to do anything....anything
just to make the princess love him

The Princess however loathed him
she hated him more than he loved her
She wanted him gone from her life
But he wouldn't leave

He was afraid to let go of her
He was a kind person
unrealistic, and dreamed of living with her
But she wanted him dead

And one day, she did it
She found her inner strength
and finished him off
for once and for all

And left her kingdom with the one she desired
But she wasn't feeling loved
She didn't like her new prince
She yearned for the old one

But he was gone
little did she realize
that he actually loved her
for who she was
and not for what she was

I have no hope remaining
Constant hate + my depression
Only results in self destruction
Nothing to tether onto either....

You see.
We all have them
Either confused
Or
Misunderstood

Now
I have fallen in love
Not because
I am reckless
And someone
Who loves and throws things away
Nooooo
That's a confusion

I have fallen in love
Because of self less respect
And because
I awe
And admire
you

I respect you
I not just yearn
I want you
To have the best

Hope you do
Remember
That love
Conquers
All

*Amor vincit omnia

I am scared.
Don't hold me
It will make me look
Like a scared viking
I don't know if they existed
But I don't want to be the first of the kind

So take pleasure
In my discomforts
And leave me alone
When I am scared.

Okay then
Back we are
Going
Back in time

Woo

we have to be the light and burn
and help others burn
and show them the way
because sometimes
we are their last matchstick
and they are stuck in a cave,
unable to find their way out
we should help them out
and be their light in their times of duress

because sometimes
we have to burn away
to let others prosper
and often times
they will credit you for it
for being their last resort
and also for being their light out of the tunnel

But, they will miss you
for you were the last one
and now if they go back in the cave
then they can help someone else
who is lost there
but will not be able to get out of it
because you were their last hope
and now you are
*burnt

Today
At the park
I realized how wrong I had been about life
It is so wonderful
And so....
beautiful

I saw a person
walking their two dogs
I went biking
Talked to a couple of friends
It was just so..
different

I realize now
Why everyone tells me to cheer up
Its because
Of the beautiful world

Hold it high
Let everyone see it
The illuminating torch
Who is making everyone smile

Let them see the source
Who is bringing wondrous joy
and a means of working in the night
Shine it bright
Crank it to the highest output
Shine it towards everyone
Search for the lost ring
Search for gold
Search what you want
But remember
to keep the torch light
and illuminate
those people
with the
kindness
and
joy
that you possess

Its the same old rant
I suppose
I am sad
Not just about grades
but about everything
about me
about myself
about my attitude
just about everything

I dislike myself
I said I wouldn't do this
But its back here again
Sadly

Sun shines
Happy and bright
Flowers bloom
Smiles spread
Everything's beautiful

He will forever stand there
Guarding that piece of treasure

He will stand there lonely
He will stand there brave
He will stand there striking fear in the enemies

He will stand there.
Swords Raised
Shields drawn in front
Knives on sides
Battle Armor in position

That templar will protect the treasure
It is his duty
It is his choice
It is his life

And he will annihilate
and ******
to retrieve it
if stolen

The lonely templar
has seen the truth
and is still living

you haven't
so stop complaining about life.

Learned so much more today
haha
fluke of conversation
turned out to be worth it

you.
have
in the end
been better than I have
survived more
endured more

ha.
i thought i was
the one in peril
no
I misunderstood

I never even
paid
or gave
anything to you

i didn't promise to help
didn't follow through anything
hurt you more

just,
all the more reason for
me to apologize to you

ooh, I don't like the feel of this
I should have realized
i didn't

Apologies

**Sincerest Apologies

I remember
for less than a blink of an eye
a majestic V of forested *****
Far below it
A tiny stream
blue from the sky
Two low roofs
a yellow patch of
sun drenched beach

My fingers rasping across the wood
in a desperate effort
and
then I stood alone
in a cold and rain swept night

A ticket
Good, when validated, for
one trip to Verna

Behind it a date, gone,
long since, the ticket void,
punched in a pattern
of tiny holes