Dad,
I was furious
I was desperate
I was foolish

I thought I could keep you out
I thought I could come back courageous
I thought I could hurt you as you me.

Dad,

you played the same game
you left this world so sudden
you gave me nothing to hold

Dad,

Im sorry.

Dear Daddy,
5 months ago, you disappeared.
5 months ago, I found out in the newspaper
5 months ago, I wished I could just have one more day

Oh Daddy,
how I wish it wasn't so
how I wish it was only a dream
how I wish I had one more chance

I see your eyes, struggling to see the light.
I see your heart, slowing at each beating second
I feel the sheet wrapped around your neck, pulling pulling..
I feel your strong hands that used to hold mine, clench..

Tears, tears, tears... How did it come to this...

I miss you Daddy.

God,
I love you, I hate you
I ask for your help, I wait for your guidance
where are you, dear God?
My palms are open, my heart desperate for mending
please, dear God, I need you.