I want to SCREAM at the top of my lungs
I want to jump up and down
waving my arms about
I want to grab him and shake him

But I know it wont help

He doesn't see it anymore
the love we used to have
its just a memory to him
and I can't figure out
why he thinks its so out of reach
to have again

IT IS RIGHT HERE

Yeah we went through some ****
and we had to set some
stuff on the shelf
but it didn't move
its just sitting here

please just come and get it

Am I dumb?
have you been trying to show me
this whole time
and I'm just too daft to see it
have your words
been saying yes
while all your actions
say NO
Am I just a pathetic girl
chasing shadows of something that will never be

I really want space and to spend some time just on my own
but I want to be with someone just as much if not more
but I only really want to be with him
and I don't know if he wants to be with me
but I still feel like I should be single for a bit
but if we did this right I wouldn't need to try to escape
but what if we don't get it right
and what if we do

I don't think you know what love is
Not the way I do
Each time you find someone new
You say
Oh this time it's real
but it never really is
you just fall in the same trap
of lust and delight
captured by their looks
or cunning wit
but as time moves on
so do you

I wish I could gather my thoughts
tell you how I feel
but the words don't come out
not the way i want them to
they are jumbled
and scattered
never in the right order
they don't portray
the message
I'm trying to say
But I wish, I wish so much
that you could know
what is in my head