You were written
in my destiny
Only as the sky
Untouchable

I can admire you
Your presence
Only never be with
Untouchable

When you are a star
I am not the dark
In my world to be seen
Untouchable

To fly would be
Feel your presence
Only never be
With you present
Untouchable

If you are the sun
I am only the ray
There by your eminence
Untouchable

You were written
in my destiny
Known by my heart
But my eyes not so
Untouchable

My turn to scream,
To yell at the top of my lungs
Turned a white colour red
Out of stupidity but that is what youth does
Forget about chasing legends
And follow shallow dreams
In mid thigh tight skin dresses
Remember the shirt stain lipstick

I tell you, when the night is young
At one in the morning
My blood sing with the stars
My skin becomes the sun
I look forward to tomorrow with
blurred memories leading up to it.
See what it is, I can’t have my love yet

With these eyes lined with charcoal
Who’s to say my friends aren’t imaginary
I hear a story starting to form
Remember too, what its like
To smile at death, forget its meaning
How lovely it is to have your ******* firm
Time standing still during the day
Only the night bringing you life, oh I’m there

I hear you wanted to see me
About my age adding up to some years
Not while I can still go a week without sleep, I say
That is my big talent you know
Telling lies about myself
Who’s sob story will I tell next
My turn to shout, I say
To yell at the top of my lungs
I am here with a camera,
About to sell another life, rumbles of youth.

Black,

I’ve not thought of you as merely a colour.
I’ve thought of you as absence, lack of, without…
You’re not final, like I’ve come to see, you’re not definite,
Already determined.
Absent, a picture that is yet to be completed, defined
in normalcy accepted by majority.
My favourite. I can never say it clearly how I look at you.

To me, you have never meant dark. You always meant space
to be filled by those deserving, those with colour bright enough to imprint
on you and leave a mark. Spot enough, strong enough its not swallowed by
the entity you embark.
You aren’t but might be, an attractive illusion that’s always
invited me to take a step further, embrace my beginning.

A strong statement is what you are, being a blank that’s to be filled with
memories capable of extinguishing you, yet strong in identity, capable of
absorbing any colours coming near you to remain the same without any
blemishes, any marks that might indicate memories came and went
light enough to leave a mark of their own.

There is no wrong match for you as I’ve come to know, it’s a matter of
which cannot be overwhelmed by what you are, which can take your
nature and maintain theirs at the same time, which can compliment
you impeccably, you shine and become a beauty no one could have
anticipated.

You’re like no other, in saying so, you are what I am called
Black.

In losing you, my chest became heavy

Tears built I refused to let go

Your name offended me, I burnt

And the smoke choked me when I went to sleep

I will cry, I will cry

And when I did, it rained a storm

Only after a storm

Its a new day with clouds that drew puppets

I let you go it seemed, how light I became

I found there’s an empty space

Filled with nothing but hope of moments the air carried

I found myself once again

And she breathes simpler, she shines more brighter

I thanked you then

So I’m writing you something tailored

For my tenant to ask questions,

Know I’m shallow where love’s concerned

And the road that I’m now to take

I’ve befriended in my dreams

Its only about me

I have fallen in love with my-her-self

I have loved you before I knew what love meant, before I could cry and think of you as nothing. I have loved you before you were a man, before people started losing faith in you and seeing you as less, before you cried about what the world has done to you and I love you still.

My love is imprinted beyond the stars our eyes see, the stars our sky shows, beyond the realm our faith knows; my love is infinite, shallow in the face of those who don’t understand but to me is faith itself. Its yours to hold and leave, misuse and ignore, its too powerful for me to control or do anything about, whatever you want it to be even nothing, it will always be.

I can’t change who you are, how you are always in my thoughts, how I look for you in everything I do and wish my presence is known to you even if I’m not because you are now a part of me I don’t know how to erase only to ignore. To me you are the beginning, the end, forever and beyond; in this life and the next.

You are the love my eyes search for, my hands couldn’t hold onto, my heart couldn’t forget, my soul couldn’t erase, my thoughts start with and myself is. Now far away, so far it feels like I am someone new without what makes them themselves, I cry because it wasn’t enough for you to look for me and wait, you found me in…in someone else yet your eyes are still searching.

Love is too small a word to name what I feel for you, hurt as I am; I know knowing you breathe is enough for me to spend the rest of my life only watching you live. I can never explain, I can never say what it is you make me feel, and they will always tell me what it is yet knowing what lies in a place no one can ever reach, I know in this life I have a feeling that is worth more than moments. Unfortunate and tragic as our story has turned out, yours is the only name I will say before I fall asleep.

I was yours, I am yours, I will be yours. Our story is as it should be and always hasn’t ended if my eyes open when the sun rises. I can say I love you but love is simple, I can say I hate you but hate is cloudy. What I feel, I’m still searching for what it means…

Yours truly

Lover