When our college days came to an end,
Moving back to our places brought distance.
When I felt affected so much by it,
My friends seemed not to feel much.
I wept over our gone together times.
I longed to get back our past moments.
But tick, tick, tick, tick went the clock.
And time has made it's own move now.
When I see my old friends again,
I have lost the touch of feelings.
Just as the clock ticks by, do feeling change?
Did my tears for the people I loved
Turn my heart into a hard diamond?
Why don't I feel the same any more?

I love saying "I love you baby" to myself.
I don't seem to love anyone enough or long enough to be able to say it to them.
Is that crazy?

I met my now turned ex friend
Last month after about a year.
He had traveled miles to meet me
Though we had just a day together.
We met in the city we had first met
where we had spent time together.
He had told that I was his reason,
That we were friends forever.
He wouldn't make a choice,
So it was on me to decide
and take him to places as well.
We hit restaurants and theatre
catching up with each other.
But he just went on phubbing,
While we were heatedly gaming,
While watching his choice of movie,
Even while we were dining.
He phubbed every chance he got
With no explanation whatsoever so.
I couldn't bring myself to tell him
To put his ******* phone away
And that I wanted his full attention.
The whole time calming myself down
telling myself it was only for a day.
We parted with him saying
it was such a fabulous day
And that he didn't want it to end,
while I was glad that it was over,
Finally.
We were such great buddies in the past,
And talked about a great deal of things.
But the very memory of him appears black
Just too painful to even think of now.
I tried so hard to forgive him but can't,
don't think I will ever be able to.
I have just boxed it in this writing
And in a distant corner of my mind,
moving forward with my life.