Whirlwinds...
Dizzying continuum of bright highs and the darkest of lows
I let go
Only to feel I'm barely holding on again
Sweetest taste of sin
I take you into myself as you **** me slowly
Price is steep
Looking at my receipt
Wondering are you worth the cost
**** it...
You only live once right??
If we are guaranteed death let me enjoy this feeling at least for one more night
As my eyes roll back I take flight
Into space trying to distinguish my rights from my wrongs
hippy tripped out music got my zoned out..
oh wait..its just my phone..ringing
Dreaming again...

I could live in your lap
But I rather reside somewhere deeper
I could live in your mind
But I rather make you feel me some place sweeter
Miss me like you never saw me
Want me like its what you never had
Both graduated with PHDs
Speaking knowledge when those head games are applied
I could submit to my knees
But I need to look into the eyes of the one..
I crave more of you than just fun
Quick nights and games with our tongues
Let the raw truth follow
After one night comes tomorrow
Then those lust filled lies become that much more hard to swallow
So until then..let me hold this lock
With infatuated anticipation hoping
You will insert your key inside my Pandora's Box
Get me off with the thoughts and energy of your touch and actions
Cause contractions inside the walls only you know
But you have yet to let it be known
That your lap is where I call home...

He asked me…
Is the ***** his
He put his name on it
He know the way to hit it get it another man couldn’t dare..compare
To the way he love up on me..****… he know I wouldn’t ever ever share it…
He strum my body like the fine cords of a guitar
***** me crazy like a **** star
I try to run from it but..hmm..he don’t let me get far
I never ever lie to him
When I tell him
That this ***** belongs to him
He got the exclusive rights
He treats my body like an exploration
***** my ***** like he’s on a vacation
He never wishes to return from
And makes me forever come…to new heights
Oh you may wonder
Why my language is so ****** with it
So raw and uncut
This man drives me to pure ectasy
So it’s a must..that i
Tell him what he got me feeling
Tell him what he already knows
I love him 100%
But 300 plus 700 when its us without our clothes..
Most may say I’m sprung
Maybe even flat out crazy
How I let this man claim my body
I don’t know..could be…maybe
But I say
He can’t claim something
I let him put his name on anyway..
I’m his forever and day
A day and a lifetime
Drunk off his love like I’ve downed 6 bottles of red wine
Just so gone
But he finds me
He gets me
I let it be…
Just wrapped up in the moment of us
Knowing its love and not lust
Cause from beginning he had my heart & soul
And with this we have nothing but time
He places his hand on my hips
Brings me close
To his lips...and says
Is this ***** mine..
And I will always answer yes…

My mind grows tired
My body weak
Just wanna close my eyes
And never open them again
eternal sleep
But I wont rest
That's a feat I can't acheive
Cause my soul is torn
Lost in translation
Started since my day one born
I've searched for answers
But uncovered more questions
Thought I could teach
But Im still learning lessons
This is my confession
I'm not Usher
But I must say
I've gotten older wiser
I can admit I'm afraid
I'm scared
Frightened that my soul will grow old
Alone
Because I've seen heard and felt love
But in my grasp it won't stay
Maybe I'm cursed
with the burden of lonliness
Trapped in my own hell of sorrow
Single tear drop falls as my soul
Fades away...

I'm a quick study
a fast read
and I can see
this isn't where you want me to be
I care for you
My heart went black and blue
Sore from the bruises you left there
When you promised to share my time and space
Should've known you wouldn't get or contemplate
True love at its best when its staring right at you
Maybe that makes me crazy
for staying..
Quietly anticipating..
That one day when you awake from your nightmare
and see the woman of your dreams...me
Maybe I'm wishing on long lost stars
In this twisted bleak fairytale
I can't tell if its love or a painful deception
Yet I'm still ignoring my powers  of perception
my woman's intuition
Its telling my mind things my heart already knows
Yet im gone on this affliction called love
I can't see with my eyes closed
It must be something
for you are the one i see
with my eyes wide shut
Should've listened to the life lessons taught
When I was told love would truly hurt this much...

Cold and alone
I cannot breathe
For the life has been drained out of me
Or should I say snatched away
Those brighter days I once took for granted
I'd give life itself for just one last glimpse..
No sense in crying
Cause as I lay here dying
I realize there is no way back home
I reached for the phone
Dead silence greeted me on the other end
I could pretend that in my eternal solitude
that this is bliss
But lord knows i won't be missed
Cause that list grew shorter
As my fakek friends became my real enemies
maybe that was the true death of me
Trying to see the good in an impossible situation
So now I lay here longing for one honest salutation
But hey i've made my peace
I'll just close my eyes and await for the darkness to befall me
Most fear death
But its nothing but reality for me

Just to level with ya
I'm not on a level with ya
I'm my super futuristic swag ish
The kinda ish you cant cope with
Nine Lives
No worries the mayans calendar brought no end for me
I'm an entity
Reincarnated many times past
They say seeing is believing
Watch how my soul last
Throughout time like a fine wine
I'll make my impression
Take note of this life lesson
many have tried but there is really no one like me
I come from dimensions ascended from queens
Supreme being
Check my pedigree
Things mere mortals can't see or even relate to
If I were you I would bow down to my greatness in front of you
No reason for the southern hospitality
But no confusion or illusion
I'm a southern girl until they bury me
Only the deep can contemplate the inner working mechanisms of this story
Destined for greatness
Leaving my mark embarking on this journey
I'm under appreciated
So I emancipated my mindset
And went on a diet dropped alot of dead weight
To think with a higher realm of reason
Lest we forget I speak with foreign tongue
To those who can't comprehend my exsistence
So in close i'm me
I'll never be residual
top notch first round draft pick
I'm a truly unique individual
I dont know another way to be