march 20th

****

smoking in my room
so i know what to do
write the next line
about how i wanna die
i think that message got through
so i keep acting a fool
tell me, do you think i'm cool
i know i act like a tool
but you act so cruel
you turned my heart into goo
i want so many tattoos
so when you see me
you know that i'm bad news
im a drug
so run away
before i catch you
cause i'm addicting
you won't wanna leave me
but soon your gonna hate me
i'm a druggie
with no money
hiding from my mother
cause im a shame like no other

shawty told me we were going way to fast
i told her we weren't prolly meant to last
but she only my past now
i don't even care now
cause i know we don't work out
how could we possibly
cause this next girl seems to be in love with me
not like the rest
cause this new girl the best
but then she start to **** the same
or soon she start hate my name
then she tell me i'm insane
don't look at me, i'm not to blame
im not sayin i don't got no shame
cause i feel that **** every day
wake up and it's on my mind
smoke a little **** and i'll be fine

I feel so broken
busting at the seams with emotions
my heart feels eroded
my mind is overloaded
these feelings are overflowing
and time keeps passing by
don't know when im gonna die
don't mind if it's tonight
cause i lived my life
just the way i that wanted
pocket full of drugs
when i stumble through the halls
imma make it all mine
tell me, will that make me shine?

I feel all alone
no one to call my own
I felt love once
could feel it in my soul
made me feel so whole
but my selfish desires took their toll
so now I walk alone