Good or bad,
Everything falls apart
Everything is within the cycle of life—
Being born, growing and dying
There are many rebirths, new growths and mini deaths experienced throughout each persons life

That’s all I can really expect from this life:
That things will change

It will feel like most things have stayed the same
Like this sharp pain in my brain
But really, though the script has stayed relatively the same
The characters have aged,
Their hearts are frayed
My mind is slightly disarrayed

All I can do
Is swallow my pain whole
And surrender it to the great poet in the sky
Maybe she could rewrite the ending
Before I truly die.

I believe in Magic.
Not the dream come true kind but the gathering
I know it’s just some stupid card game
But when you don’t know how to make friends
Maybe a little magic will help.

I bathe myself in hope,
Pastel bubbles run down my skin
And enter in through my crevices

This hope reaches through to my darkness
This darkness like a split off part of myself
Head down, body contracted, heart wounded
My hope reaches my darkness
And offers it healing,
And my darkness gradually, cautiously
Blossoms to the buoyant light of hope.

beautiful colors swirl,
clouding realistic images,
the truth is lost within.

Where does my inspiration come from?
My broken heart...
There are cracks in my heart
Made by deep sadness
That’s where the inspiration slips through
A melody emanating from my heart
Is released through the cracks

It’s bittersweet, it always will be
Sometimes the melody is pure, unaltered joy
Other times it’s agonzing sadness
But no matter what song spills through the cracks of my heart
If I allow it,
It makes me become more human

If I resist the song,
Because I don’t want to experience it
Then I close myself of
From the beautiful symphony of life.

I love you,
The Risen One
I love you,
You are the fire in my heart
I love you,
You revived me after years of grief
I love you,
You sheltered me through every storm
I love you,
You guide me through this treacherous world

Please never leave me,
Though I often forget you
Please quell my anxieties,
Quiet the violent waves within,
Reassure me that you’re with me
Guide me into your serenity.

Amen.

I wish I were made of stone
So your words would never hurt me
I wish I were cold as ice
Then maybe I wouldn't be lonely

I wish I were made of steel
So my strength would never waver
If only I could turn back the clock
To a time when I felt safer

But I'm only flesh and bone
And your words have left me bleeding
My heart is torn apart
It's a wonder it's still beating

You made up your mind
Given me your final answer
What we shared is in the past
Time to write a brand new chapter

I will fix my broken heart
Some how piece it back together
It may never be the same
It'll bare this scar forever

But I'll be strong, I'll be alright
Though I'm not as hard as steel
And I can't turn back the clock
In time....my heart will heal