Awake all night
Practicing that fake smile
And I've forgotten what the real one looked like
Because I haven't used it in a while

It was 11:11 and my friend told me to make a wish
She said "Wishes come true!"sounding really affirming
But i guess these things never work
Because all i wished was to sleep and not wake up the next morning

"your eyes, they look like ****." is all they tell me
Desperation behind these eyes is what they don't see
"I can read your eyes,you're sad."is all they tell me
Putting on sunglasses, I'm like "Read me now *****!"

"The happiest of them are the ones who cry themselves to sleep"
But I'm so tired of being tired that I can't even weep
Staring out the window all night in this cold weather
All I wanna do is sleep for a long time
Like
Forever.

She is a pretty girl with a bright smile on her face.
Her eyes like clear cristals charm the most cunning hearts.
Her kindness consealed like sheltered pearl on the sea bed.

But look closely at that smile you will see,
A frowning girl with a musk on her face.
In her eyes you will see,
A blazing fire that has consumed her heart.
And like an empty shell,
She is lonely, broken
And in her mind,
She feels she is worth nil the penny that a precious jewel could buy.

That girl is me.
Yet I still fake every moment of my life.
When dawn comes I transform to a beast.
Anger consumes me
And all that I can do is fight it,
Yet too weak,
I simply breaking down in tears.

I am no human by night.
Not a normal one of course.
I am consumed by insomania,
Everything that pops in my head is either evil or just bad.

I am not a girl any more.
Not the one who walks upon the clouds night and dream.
I am that one who fears closing her eyes.
For all the dread that consumes me,  
And takes over my little soul by night.
I tremble in the arms of darkness crying;
"Oh Lord help me!"