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Sheyla X Donatt Apr 2017
"It's not your fault"
Sheyla X Donatt
Apr 2017
I’m sitting in my car, hugging my knees to my chest muffling my cries
My parents look at me through the rear-view mirror with worry in their eyes and in unison say
“It’s not your fault”
I’m sitting in a tight room, on a small chair, in the interrogation room
The first thing that comes out of the officer’s mouth is
“It’s not your fault”
I’m standing at the bottom of my stairs with tears streaming down my eyes
In front of me is my mom, she’s consoling me and she says
“It’s not your fault”
I’m struggling to keep myself standing wrapped in a pair of arms, sobs escaping my mouth
Hugging me is my dad and he’s repeating the phrase over and over
“It’s not your fault”
I’m telling my story, my typing is slow and my hands shaky, tears are flowing down my cheeks
Jonathan texts back his support and the first thing I read is
“It’s not your fault”
I’m sitting on a couch, I’m shaking and repeating the story holding back tears
My new counselor looks at me and says the infamous phrase
“It’s not your fault”
I lay in bed, lights off, blankets on, tears streaming down my cheeks
I can’t get all the people out of my head, the memories of what happened, the phrase is stuck on replay in my mind
“It’s not your fault” “It’s not your fault” “It’s not your fault”
I repeat the phrase over and over
Under my breath and into the night where the only person who can hear is me
“It’s not your fault”
It’s not my fault and it never was.
How can it be my fault when an adult took away my childhood?
How can it be my fault when I was in fear and embarrassment?
Most Importantly
How can the people who are supposed to be there for you think it’s your fault?
How can your family disown you when it’s not your fault?
I’m not going to apologize for trying to protect myself and everyone else he’s done it to.
I will be the voice for everyone and anyone who is or has been afraid to speak up about it.
Because It’s not your fault.
Sheyla Donatt
My parents look at me through the rear-view mirror with worry in their eyes and in unison say
“It’s not your fault”
I’m sitting in a tight room, on a small chair, in the interrogation room
The first thing that comes out of the officer’s mouth is
“It’s not your fault”
I’m standing at the bottom of my stairs with tears streaming down my eyes
In front of me is my mom, she’s consoling me and she says
“It’s not your fault”
I’m struggling to keep myself standing wrapped in a pair of arms, sobs escaping my mouth
Hugging me is my dad and he’s repeating the phrase over and over
“It’s not your fault”
I’m telling my story, my typing is slow and my hands shaky, tears are flowing down my cheeks
Jonathan texts back his support and the first thing I read is
“It’s not your fault”
I’m sitting on a couch, I’m shaking and repeating the story holding back tears
My new counselor looks at me and says the infamous phrase
“It’s not your fault”
I lay in bed, lights off, blankets on, tears streaming down my cheeks
I can’t get all the people out of my head, the memories of what happened, the phrase is stuck on replay in my mind
“It’s not your fault” “It’s not your fault” “It’s not your fault”
I repeat the phrase over and over
Under my breath and into the night where the only person who can hear is me
“It’s not your fault”
It’s not my fault and it never was.
How can it be my fault when an adult took away my childhood?
How can it be my fault when I was in fear and embarrassment?
Most Importantly
How can the people who are supposed to be there for you think it’s your fault?
How can your family disown you when it’s not your fault?
I’m not going to apologize for trying to protect myself and everyone else he’s done it to.
I will be the voice for everyone and anyone who is or has been afraid to speak up about it.
Because It’s not your fault.
Sheyla Donatt
Alyanne Cooper Sep 2015
My Fault
Alyanne Cooper
Sep 2015
I stand
Corrected.
You were right.
It was all my fault.
It was my fault
I couldn't handle
The demons of your past
While trying to
Exorcise my own.
It was my fault
I couldn't slay
The dragons
Surrounding your tower
And save you from yourself.
It was my fault
I couldn't swoop in
And pluck you
From the depths
Of your Hell's fires.
It was my fault
I couldn't save you.
It was all my fault
Because I couldn't see
Past the end of my own nose.
It was my fault
I learned to cook and clean
And pay all the bills
When I was eight years old.
(You were "sick" on the couch.)
It was my fault
I learned self defense
And how to slid a knife
Between a man's ribs
When I was twelve years old.
(You threw me out on the street to fend for myself.)
It was my fault
I learned the sweet taste
Of the siren named Whisky
And her silken embrace's escape
When I was fourteen years old.
(You put the first bottle in my hand.)
It was my fault
I learned the power
Of Death
And became his closest friend
When I was sixteen years old.
(You said you'd never wanted me to begin with.)
It was my fault
I learned the truth
And had to choose
Between me and you
And I couldn't choose you
Because I had finally seen
The real view:
It was all my fault
That I so blindly
Trusted
Adored
Worshipped
Loved
you.
It was all my fault.
And I stand corrected.
Corrected.
You were right.
It was all my fault.
It was my fault
I couldn't handle
The demons of your past
While trying to
Exorcise my own.
It was my fault
I couldn't slay
The dragons
Surrounding your tower
And save you from yourself.
It was my fault
I couldn't swoop in
And pluck you
From the depths
Of your Hell's fires.
It was my fault
I couldn't save you.
It was all my fault
Because I couldn't see
Past the end of my own nose.
It was my fault
I learned to cook and clean
And pay all the bills
When I was eight years old.
(You were "sick" on the couch.)
It was my fault
I learned self defense
And how to slid a knife
Between a man's ribs
When I was twelve years old.
(You threw me out on the street to fend for myself.)
It was my fault
I learned the sweet taste
Of the siren named Whisky
And her silken embrace's escape
When I was fourteen years old.
(You put the first bottle in my hand.)
It was my fault
I learned the power
Of Death
And became his closest friend
When I was sixteen years old.
(You said you'd never wanted me to begin with.)
It was my fault
I learned the truth
And had to choose
Between me and you
And I couldn't choose you
Because I had finally seen
The real view:
It was all my fault
That I so blindly
Trusted
Adored
Worshipped
Loved
you.
It was all my fault.
And I stand corrected.
KayLenn Oct 2017
Baby its Not Your Fault
KayLenn
Oct 2017
If a flower grew in a dark room
Would you trust it
It wilted in the sun
But lived in the dark
It's Not Your fault
It tricked you
Showing the rose it once was
Only to show you the thorn
But you kept that flower
But, It's Not Your Fault
You tried your best to cut off the thorns
but they only cut
You deep down to the flesh
But It's Not Your Fault
What did we do to
Deserve a **** hidden as a rose
But you settled with that rose
And now even **** killer can’t **** this rose
But It’s not your fault
But this flower grew arms and
Now he hits you
He slaps your face
But you love him so much
You don’t call the gardener
But it’s not your fault
You’re getting used to the black eyes
And swollen lips
And now you are doing anything to make time fly
But it’s not your fault
He calls you a *****, ****, and a *****
But you gotta stay strong
Don't give up because
It's not your fault
Who knew that roses
Were not as beautiful as they looked
The looks can ****
but so can this Rose’s lifestyle
But it’s not your fault
It’s not your fault that you are in a trap
It’s not your fault that you can’t get away
It’s not your fault that that love is real
IT’S NOT YOUR FAULT!!!!!!!!!!!!
Would you trust it
It wilted in the sun
But lived in the dark
It's Not Your fault
It tricked you
Showing the rose it once was
Only to show you the thorn
But you kept that flower
But, It's Not Your Fault
You tried your best to cut off the thorns
but they only cut
You deep down to the flesh
But It's Not Your Fault
What did we do to
Deserve a **** hidden as a rose
But you settled with that rose
And now even **** killer can’t **** this rose
But It’s not your fault
But this flower grew arms and
Now he hits you
He slaps your face
But you love him so much
You don’t call the gardener
But it’s not your fault
You’re getting used to the black eyes
And swollen lips
And now you are doing anything to make time fly
But it’s not your fault
He calls you a *****, ****, and a *****
But you gotta stay strong
Don't give up because
It's not your fault
Who knew that roses
Were not as beautiful as they looked
The looks can ****
but so can this Rose’s lifestyle
But it’s not your fault
It’s not your fault that you are in a trap
It’s not your fault that you can’t get away
It’s not your fault that that love is real
IT’S NOT YOUR FAULT!!!!!!!!!!!!