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i put my pen to paper & make inanimate instruments sing & sometimes my thoughts take the form of pictures. if i ever had a ...
18/M/New York City
Poems
Steele Mar 2015
Smoke and Cyanide
Steele
Mar 2015
Blades of smoke pass through my hair,
Cutting; oxidising; as the smoke is slowly rising
through the tower of my power as I vainly gasp for air.
Cyanide, it seems, can comfort me a while,
as I'm breathing; screaming and repeating
smoky words into the floor's mute bathroom tile.
But my power is all gone; all wrong.
Oxidise: Cyanide.
Once more into my lungs.
Cutting; oxidising; as the smoke is slowly rising
through the tower of my power as I vainly gasp for air.
Cyanide, it seems, can comfort me a while,
as I'm breathing; screaming and repeating
smoky words into the floor's mute bathroom tile.
But my power is all gone; all wrong.
Oxidise: Cyanide.
Once more into my lungs.
I've been quitting about a month now, and **** is it hard. It shouldn't still be this hard, right? Jesus.
pat caldecott Jun 2011
Cyanide
pat caldecott
Jun 2011
Once again I return to feel the hurt the pain
Addicted to your cyanide
That’s driving me insane
Ride upon this sickening ride surf upon its tide
Feel it rotting out my brain
You are my cyanide
As a child upon the bed I’d think to stop the chain
Small doses of your cyanide
Were coursing in my vein
I didn’t know and so I ate whatever you’d provide
Given the things that you’d obtain
The bitter cyanide
Only poison in your heart things that you’d been fed
Force fed on the cyanide
Lead me where your led
Addicted to your cyanide
That’s driving me insane
Ride upon this sickening ride surf upon its tide
Feel it rotting out my brain
You are my cyanide
As a child upon the bed I’d think to stop the chain
Small doses of your cyanide
Were coursing in my vein
I didn’t know and so I ate whatever you’d provide
Given the things that you’d obtain
The bitter cyanide
Only poison in your heart things that you’d been fed
Force fed on the cyanide
Lead me where your led
Elizabeth Zenk Oct 2019
candy apple cyanide
Elizabeth Zenk
Oct 2019
no one tells her that those candy-colored pills are not chocolate
that no matter how many she stuffs she'll never be full,
nor will she be entirely empty.
though they taste so sweet
they will rot your teeth
and their effects shall be engraved in your skull
that candy apple cyanide
so hard to resist
so hard to not take a bite
no one tells the ugly girl with a mouth full of tombstones
that she gleefully presents for show and tell
that she too needs to eat, to keep it down
though the dissolving graves
withing her smile
tell a saddening tale
that candy apple cyanide
so hard to resist
so hard to not take a bite
no one tells her that her mind and mirror are distorting
morphing the person she truly is
into the person she hates to be
though her measurements are static
her body seems to inflate
like balloons at parties she avoided
that candy apple cyanide
so hard to resist
so hard to not that a bite
no one tells her that average isn't too heavy
that she can be loved and called beautiful at 120
and that she can love herself too
though she's grown accustomed
to the taste of acid and ice cream
and no sees no need for stopping
that candy apple cyanide
so hard to resist
so hard to not that a bite
no one tells the girl that she's wasting away her body
no one warned her of all the pain
no one warned her that her illnesses would always stay
that no matter how many she stuffs she'll never be full,
nor will she be entirely empty.
though they taste so sweet
they will rot your teeth
and their effects shall be engraved in your skull
that candy apple cyanide
so hard to resist
so hard to not take a bite
no one tells the ugly girl with a mouth full of tombstones
that she gleefully presents for show and tell
that she too needs to eat, to keep it down
though the dissolving graves
withing her smile
tell a saddening tale
that candy apple cyanide
so hard to resist
so hard to not take a bite
no one tells her that her mind and mirror are distorting
morphing the person she truly is
into the person she hates to be
though her measurements are static
her body seems to inflate
like balloons at parties she avoided
that candy apple cyanide
so hard to resist
so hard to not that a bite
no one tells her that average isn't too heavy
that she can be loved and called beautiful at 120
and that she can love herself too
though she's grown accustomed
to the taste of acid and ice cream
and no sees no need for stopping
that candy apple cyanide
so hard to resist
so hard to not that a bite
no one tells the girl that she's wasting away her body
no one warned her of all the pain
no one warned her that her illnesses would always stay
flush those pills
let those apples rot
let your garden flourish
in the poison
you haven’t yet forgot
let those apples rot
let your garden flourish
in the poison
you haven’t yet forgot