The fairies of the mound
hide under ground
when the light of the day reveals


But as the sun
makes it's final run
the fairies
come out to play


Then there are
those picked by stars
to be the forebearers
of burden and woe


They fly the skies
as night time byes
warning of death to come


Beware my friend
someone comes to an end
when the banshees
starts to wail


It's heard through wood or stone
in every home
no one escapes
the throes


And in the end
the wailing sends
another poor soul
to Hell


Banshees are a special breed
they come from the seed
of a star


In the mounds of folk
does their life evoke
a love afair of magic
from a man made out of a star


Sometimes the banshees will wail
when they think of the love
that parted so many years ago
and
so many light years away

Few to none
All to more
They are aware
Of my love afair
How it was fake
How bad i was
The **** i was
The **** i am
The feelings i felt
But cowardice took me apart

I take all blame i broke you up
It seems like bagage was all i had

Seemed not to care for your perfect self
Seemed not to give but still expect

Such a person i had to be
To become the person I'm meant to be
All the ******* you had to take
Cuz maybe you loved and cared  

But here i am renewed at your feet
No way of contact
Many years later i seek
A chance i know i don't deserve
A clue that you remember and care
A last advice now meant for you
A little time to show you
That i evolved
That i am new
That i did care
Care about you  
That i know i love
I love you

I ******* hate myself more with each day passing.
I lose my sense of understanding.
Internally screaming & bleeding.
Knowing the solutions, the answers...
Yet my best foot forward steps in the right direction, are depleting.
Any moments of pause, stuck thinking. Watching what has become my reality. Leaves me feeling empty.
With nothing but a hollow Soul freezing. Listen as you hear me claim happy.
"This too shall pass, really it's nothing."
You know automatically that it's all bulshit and I'm pretending.
Feel my aura change dramatically...
The nights are days days are nights..all the ******* chaos leaves my head spinning.
But even if only for time spent shortly, with you, the universe's intention,  I could see clearly. Overwhelmed by this feeling.
The stillness, peace and tranquility.
I fought hard temporarily, trying desperately. To feel absolutely nothing.
To show you anything but my heart racing. And my face with its glowing. I didn't want you to see the vulnerable slowly slipping, somehow becoming attached...me.
Against my better judgment, Rebelling.
If I knew then what I know now I'd like to think with you, my hopes dreams and passions, I never would have been sharing.
But **** that denial style living.
Something somewhere decided we needed our paths Crossing.
All this ****, The good the bad and the ugly. I am forcing, myself to start believing.
It was all supposed to be happening even the moments most defeating.
Whoever I am deep within me, bound and determined to keep  forward-moving. Whether you're with me or in memory.