scarmaya nicole

scarmaya nicole Jan 2023

waited

love never came my way
despite of praying for it everyday
i waited for something even just a bit
why do i still have to beg for it?

it's so unfair.

scarmaya nicole Dec 2022

lots of thoughts,
but only has few words.

oh to be an illiterate writer,
a poet in silence.

a writer who is struggling with writing.

#tryinghard #writer #writing #poet #awriterwhocannotwriteherself

scarmaya nicole Dec 2022

i asked the moon to take care of him.
he rarely goes out every night.

how can i love you when you're not only out of my reach, but out of my sight as well?

#twosentenced #sadlovestory #outofsight #outofreach

scarmaya nicole Nov 2022

equated

and as if the hell i've been through was worth it, because you came.
your love justified my wretched life.

they suddenly became clear to me.

scarmaya nicole Oct 2022

unhappy

i'm running out of ways how to make myself happy
i don't know what to do anymore
i'm falling unto that dark pit again

:<<

scarmaya nicole Sep 2022

waste

and here we are again
waiting for that agony
that despite of me doing everything i can
i still always end up helpless

every
single
time

and yet we keep going :>

#helpless #waste

scarmaya nicole Sep 2022

haunted

burning in the flames of regret
carrying the burden of non-existing debt
slowly losing hope of being free
for the memories are still haunting me

i'm sorry. i was still a kid back then.

#haunted #regret