You have been lurking in the shadows of sorrow

So full of pain

Shadows reached out fingers of death

Clawing at your despair

Dragging you down the path that is often taken

At the end burns an icy hell

Somehow you turned that darkness into light

You conquered so much, and you continue to move forward

Leaving the dark past behind

At times you hear your old sins calling your name

Ignore the temptation

What is the point of moving forward

If you only plan to give in

Everyday you will want to go back to the familiar

Remember that this path is for the better

Never turn back

When you do it will be worse than before

Will be harder to stay true

You will succeed if you focus on the now

Accomplish your goals

Don't ever turn back down the path of sin

Sorrow only wins when you give in

Hardly enough time to write
Put down in words how I feel inside
Lonely and confused
Sore and tired of getting bruised
Not on the skin
But somewhere deep within
I have felt myself slowly withdrawing
Begging my inner voice to ignore the final calling
Saying take a deep breath and forget the girl
How can I do that if she was my world
Only concern was her for such a long time
Now she's gone and I can't seem to unwind
Myself from the tangled mess she made of my heart
I need to move on, but instead I'm falling apart

I was lost and had not a clue
Till I commented on a poem and met you
A man who fascinated me every day
A man who lived so far away
He said he was mad like the Hatter
I asked him why did that matter?
My Hatter was mad indeed
When he got on a plane to come see me
We fell fast
Many doubted we'd last
Yet we continue to hold eachothers hearts
My Hatter and I will never part

A vision stills my breath

My body aches

Everything dims out of focus

My only sight is of you

Feeling close to the edge

Take a leap of faith

Fall

You refuse to catch me

Smirking as I break

My weakness is him

He's the only one

Who can lend me strength

Stubborn becomes you love

Ignore your heart

I'll sit here broken

Watch as I fall apart

But when I gain the strength to stand on my feet

I'm heading your way

I will not bow down to you

If you don't return my love

I become your enemy

So take my heart

It's all yours

But I won't let you forget my Love

That's for **** sure

Lure you in with a false promise

I swear to always be honest

Never leave you behind

Oh Darling, you'll learn im anything but kind

Say one thing, I'll do the other

If there was a next time you'd be careful when choosing a lover

I'm agony disguised as lust

Oh love, if only you'd been wise when deciding who to trust

Now come to me my one and only

A white lie won't hurt the lonely

By the time I finish my game

You will know nothing but pain

Manipulative is what they call me

They say that woman is just in it for money

It's not true my love. I'm in it for you

I bring companionship and a promise to stay true

Promise is for a short time

But still it brings you peace of mind

As I watch you smile at me and begin to tire

I smile back then light the match to my fire

As I watch smoke fill the air I feel no shame

Oh how I enjoy playing the husband game

Walking away with my winnings and a map

I send thanks to the devil for helping with my trap

I am nothing

As you look at me now

I breathe; I scream; I cry; I feel

But all this is an illusion for what I truly am

What I'll never overcome

I am nothing

I'll never truly be seen

You say you care? Maybe you do

Even so I'm not worth the thought

I know what I am

What I'm worth

This life has left my conscious in the dirt

Soon I'll be in the ground

I'll be forgotten

Sure you might miss me for a while

But soon I'll fade away from your mind

Once again I'll be what I once was

What I'll always be

Nothing special for all to see

For all to forget

Keeps pulling me in

It's about to begin

Leaning close to me
   Sighing

Stepping a little closer not done
   Trying

Leaves my body
   Quaking

My soul
   Shaking

Speaking honey dripped words
   Breathtaking

Perfection for awhile never
   Swaying

Waiting for a sign that he is
   Faking

When it is shown it will be
  Heartbreaking

My heart is his for the
  Taking

Still pulling me in

Going to let it begin

Ignore the side of me that is use to
   Denying

Mute the voice as it whispers, "One of you is Lying."

Red wine and Coors Light
Reminds me of a time
Where happiness was scarce and unknown
A time where in a group I still felt alone
Empty cans and bottles scattered our floor
Bitter words, sour smell added to the wicked allure
Yells and fists became a everyday routine
Tears hidden as I choked on my screams
Mama favored the wine the way it helped relive her pain
He favored beer the way it made reality fade
I suppose sometimes the haze may help to unwind
As long as you don't abuse it all the time
Some just can't stop when they feel the buzz, can't resist the pull
But continue to drink even when full
My own worse enemy were my little feet and puny hands
Not strong enough to save her from that wicked man
So small and unable to help
Can't imagine the pain I felt
Grew strong and escaped the darkness and pain
Left her there with the man who she refused to blame
If you ever loved me
You'd set the devil free
But she couldn't
My heart knew she wouldn't
Stayed with him for years
Through all the tears
Always thinking of his happiness, never mine
That's what I remember when I see red wine and coors light

Limbs stretch out and droop downwards in warning
The wind whistles and shrieks in a desperate yearning
Leaves are hiding in the dirt
The earth seems to always fall short

Humanity is taking without a sound
Knees are padded by the wet ground
The dirt under bare feet is a red sand
It burns in my cracked hands

Seeping through my hold like a useless thought
I was thankful for the chaos the rain brought
Droplets hits the impenetrable dirt and still remain on the surface
I am nothing but stillness on my knees waiting to drown, accepting my life purpose

I once loved a willow tree so full life
She died waiting for me, and my love was a knife
I took all that was offered; I stripped her of her clothing
I thought for sure my love would fill her with loathing

Her limbs lost it's skin and twisted in sadness
But my willow did not leave me alone in my madness
So selfless my dead willow is on this dying land
She gives and gives to this broken man

Giving it all to my begging body and empty word
Save me when the water gets to high and my begs are no longer heard

Don't you know her?
She is the one that makes you wait
Makes you contemplate
Everything you once believed
Even though you don't know her
She is all you will see
She'll reach in and grab your heart
Won't release it
Even when you need to part
Hold you tight within her grasp
Falling for her is something that happens fast
Never have spoken to her one word
Yet your love is what you need to be heard
She teases you with the possibility of forever
Makes you remember some ties can't be severed
The invisible rope she has around you
You won't ever be able to cut through
Forget your fear; Make her see what your love can mean
This one will haunt you whether you hide or choose to be seen

Uncertainty is running through me consuming my mind
Filling it with thoughts that make it impossible to unwind
How am I to break free if he refuses to let me be
Showing up day after day
His memory refusing to fade
These negative feelings continue to stay
His dark eyes haunting me with pain
Yet I know our love is something we will not regain
Time to shut the door on what was
Let the present lead me to true love

Tears choked back, held in, and were locked deep inside
Chest cavity opened to an emptiness that couldn't subside
Slippery oil dark and thick took its root in my core
A sickness of the pain that I couldn't hold in anymore
It leaked out like dark thoughts into my gut and made me nauseous
If I had know the results of my control I would have been more cautious
Cautious in the way of never letting go and hiding behind the lie
I would have lived more in a way of freedom and flying high
Instead of quick sand always making me sink and crawl
I would have picked a cliff with a beautiful waterfall
When my body would fall forward my soul would be wiped clean
At least I know I would've died to a wonderful scene

Tossing and turning
I can't seem to find peace
The silence once again caused me to lose sleep
No noise to drown out my dark thoughts
How am I to get rest if my mind refuses to quiet
Forever thinking so it seems
All I want is to be taken by dreams
Slip into the sweet abyss of unconsciousness
Escape my reality that is slowly killing me
Forget for awhile that the world is a dangerous place
My mind is still awake
What is another night of hardly any sleep
Too many in a row to count
Soon exhaustion won't give my brain a choice
My body will fall under on its own accord
Too weak to keep up the battle with my mind
Then finally I will rest for awhile
But once I awake the process will repeat
Then several more days will go by until I  sleep

Fast feet
Pounding on the wet ground
Away from me
I'm screaming. You hear no sound
Head pointed forward
Eyes aimed straight ahead
Where are you headed toward?
Feet struggle to keep up with the one that fled
Rain drenching my skin
Thunder echoing in my ear
Storm holds me back again
Body aches to catch up so you'd be near
You were always faster than me
Always fleeing and I was left to try to retrieve
You were always loud and free
I was always more quiet. Never one to leave
Now here you are leaving me again to deal with the pain
Now I swallowed my fear to chase
My feet stumble. I can't seem to gain
Slow down and make this an even race
Fast feet
Running away from me
Slow down and try to see
That it is you I need

I'm sick right now
Sickness of the mind
Wanting a way out
Not finding the time
Help me if you can hear these cries
Sometimes they're masked by the lies
Crying out I need you here
But when you come I whimper out in fear
Do I need someone who confuses my soul?
Someone I hate to want but can't seem to fight the pull
Pulling me where?
Down?
Will I fall or will my feet hit the ground?
Either way I'm yours
Through my fear I know this for sure
You will catch me if I fall
If I need help I know you'll be there for it all
These whimpers are for someone before
Someone who left a fragile heart sore
So forgive me when my mind is blinded by dark thoughts and unbearable  images of the past
This sickness that consumes me with fear will fade but I know my love for you will last

Two bodies never felt so close as the night air seduced us into a ****** trance

Urging us to give into our deepest need
Begging us to do a sensual dance

Hot and thick the summer heat added fuel to our fire

Sweat dripping off of our bodies as we gave into the desire

Stripped me bare right there where anybody could see

Whispering naughty words that would make the old me flee

Something about the night, the thick summer heat

The way the moon was glistening, never had I wanted more to feel complete

Laying down on the cool ground

Our needy heart beats were the only sound

Nothing else mattered in that moment, everything else was drowned out

Touched me gently where I held all the heat and I tried desperatly not to shout

Bending down to ******* heat with your mouth, claiming the need to explore

I screamed as you continued to **** sweet honey and begged for more

The summer had never meant so much to me

When you stopped your exploring and finally made us complete

Thighs tickled as you slid in between

Breaths mingled as we finally fulfilled our need

That night we came together not caring if we were seen

Wrapped up in desire that surrounded us like the summer heat

Oh, Sunrise and Sunset!
He is very close
In such a way that is far
Made of the same substance
Will time matter so much?
For like the nun’s and their piety
I have devotion, do you?

He could paint my lips red –
Color that the sunrise bled
And an orange fog
Thus, I’ll be not as dark
Tonight, we will not meet!

Alas, the sunrise is haunted
He is surrounded by eyes –
Once closed after sunset
Like a sprite hiding in a Lilly
I hide for the sunrise
An inevitable loss

Take me
Take my body
Let me slip
Fall from his grasp
Hide me please
A place unknown
Don't let him near
All I want
Is for you to listen
Hear my silent pleas
Save me from the man
The man I loved
The man who shouldn't be
All I need is to be saved
So I can be free
So take me
Take my body

Where did he go? Once was here and so close
Then all of a sudden he was called home
Rain splattered on the concrete that night
Masking my tears from sight
Sobs were lost in the howling wind
Storm of sorrow reminded that he wouldn't be back again
How does a bright day get consumed in darkness so quickly?
From happiness to sorrow, it surrounded me so swiftly
The Lord decided it was time for you to leave
Now im left here with a soul that is no longer complete
Sometimes when the storm fully surrounds me
I wish to just give in and end my misery
To be called home into your arms where it's warm
Saved from my sorrow so I'd no longer have to mourn
Memories of you haunt me everyday
I'm so tired of never seeing color, only a bitter grey
Before you helped me to look at the world vividly with open eyes
Now I try to look but what I see I can't help to despise
Everything you once showed me to love
Was taken from me when you were called above
Maybe one day I'll be able to look past this grief that leaves me broken and torn
I just wish I could stop time, rewind, and  go back to save you before the storm

They lived up on a hill

In an old farm house along side the old wind mill

Out front was the old barn that leaned slightly to one side

It had been used for many years and filled the owners with pride

On the farm the family continued to stay

The mother and two sons living peacefully day after day

Then came a time when the mother grew sick

All gathered around the bed as the final clock began to tick

She passed away leaving the sons all alone

They continued to live but the farm no longer felt like home

Espically to the one son that was called Sam

He withdrew into himself and became just a shadow of a man

On the outside everything seemed fine

No one suspected that Sam was running out of time

Not even the other son, John, who worked the farm alongside him

So it came as a shock when Sam committed the ultimate sin

In that barn on the hill

A man entered and time stood still

Sam told John he was doing a chore and smiled as he went to the barn

A shot rang out that awoke the many sleeping animals on the farm

What to do when you enter the place that you knew so well

Only to find that your brother lays with a gun and an empty shotgun shell

What a sight to see that early in the morning

The heavens did weep as the rain started pouring

Mourning the loss of another so soon

As the wind whistled a sorrowful tune

So a few months after he had buried his mother

John had to keep it together so he could bury his brother

Staying strong as the world falls apart

Keeping their memories close to his heart

Yet he couldn't stand to stay

So he moved to get away

Now the barn on the hill stands empty along with the rest of the farm

An abandoned home ruined by death and self harm

There was a boy who had to learn very young how to fend for himself

Fore his family never cared enough to remember to put food on the shelf

The streets can be harsh for one so little

But this boy learned quickly and so he gathered enough coin to purchase a fiddle

Sitting on the street corner everyday

The boy would place his coin plate and then he'd begin to play

At first the crowd was small

But soon the boys song began to lure all

The plate grew heavy with many of coin and his belly was always full

But good fortune can only last so long when you live under the Devils rule

His parents grew envious of the boys coin and fiddle so one day the boy left to go play

He returned to find his fiddle broken and pieces thrown every which way

His plate of coin was in his father's hand

He said 'boy you do not need this much coin, these riches are meant for a man'

The boy could do nothing fore he was too small

So the next day came and the people waited for the fiddles call

They began to protest when the boy did not show

Marching to the boys house refusing to go

The father came out and said there was no more fiddle

Then the boy stepped out with his chin held high trying to not look so little

The crowd began to cheer when they heard the familiar song

The boy held his mended fiddle proudly as the crowd began to sway along

Out from the crowd stepped a old woman who had sold the fiddle to the boy when she saw he was in need

Then he brought her the broken fiddle and she gave him a new one with the promise that he'd be freed

The woman stepped up and took the boys hand

She looked at the father and told him to get off her land

The old woman, not known to the boys parents, owned the town and would not tolerate this type of sin

So she had the boys admirers run them off and then she banished the boys torturers from ever returning again

Quiet my little dolly
Your screaming is folly
***** strings for hair
Button eyes stare
Dress of old cloths
Been eaten by moths
Stuffing leaking out of your tummy
Makes you look quite funny
Shoes nowhere to be seen
Must have floated upstream
Further up then the dolly did
When she was tossed by her kid
Now she cries everyday
Wanting someone to find her and play

His recklessness was something that drew me in
Wrecked my senses, falling deeper once again
He was everything that was bad for my sanity
He very quickly became a everyday fix in my reality
Arrogance had never suited one so handsomely
The dark creature carried himself with more than just authority
Respect was something he always received
Never had to cower or bow to anybody
Not like me having to bleed and claw my way through life
He had already earned his right
Already had bled to get that he had received
Worked hard everyday to succeed
When we first me he would smile at me, a cheshire cat grin
Telling me how to never look back on your past sins
Fearless was what this man was
Afraid of nothing but to Love
Which I found out eventually on a late spring day
When I woke up to a empty room with nothing left but a cigarette bud in the ash tray
I couldn't seem to regret loving the man
For somewhere deep in my mind I had always knew his plan
He grew up in a place that would make even the devil shudder
It only made sense that he wouldn't know how to deal with a true lover
Only knowing sin and people who had betrayed his trust
My lover only really knew of lust
He was born in a world well the good leave
Where you tell white lies with the intention to deceive
Angry I am cause I know that his memory won't fade
As I gather up what is left and exit the place where our love was made
Deceive me he did in more ways than one
So goodbye my Lover I guess our time is done

I've been weary of my heart

Turning a blind eye at chance

Letting the bottle rule my life

Take away the pain that burns

Stings more than the liquid that aims to ****

Do I care if this ends?

Only wish to fade away

Depart from memories that cause the ache

My sinning is not helping to numb

I can't forget her smile even in my drunken haze

Want the memory of her pain gone

Bottle why won't you help?

Erase the love, my need, my greatest want

Drink. Waste away

Fill my bloodstream with your toxins

I'll close my eyes one more time

Picturing her behind closed lids

Here comes the pain

Take a sip

One more

Drink till the end

Make me forget

Drink

Who was she that tempted me?

My memory is blank, my heart is empty

I've been weary of my heart

Turning a blind eye at chance

Letting the bottle rule my life

Drink

Take away the pain that burns

Stings more than the liquid that aims to ****

Do I care if this ends?

Drink

Only wish to fade away

Depart from memories that cause the ache

My sinning is not helping to numb

Drink

I can't forget her smile even in my drunken haze

Want the memory of her pain gone

Bottle why won't you help?

Drink

Erase the love, my need, my greatest want

Waste away

Fill my bloodstream with your toxins

Drink

I'll close my eyes one more time

Picturing her behind closed lids

Here comes the pain

Drink

Take a sip

One more

Drink till the end and make me forget

Drink

Who was she that tempted me?

My memory is blank

My heart is empty

*Drink

Darkness is what the young boy awakened to.

It surrounded him making his fear rise

He began to cry out for his mother.

Silence is the only answer he got.

'Where's mama?' The boy thought

He scrambled to get up from his makeshift bed.

On the floor in the kitchen of their Chicago apartment is where they slept.

Always slept in the kitchen because mama said the demons wouldn't get them in the kitchen.

The boy listened in the dark for any sounds to indicate where his mother might be.

Hearing a faucet running from the bathroom sink.

Finding his way out of the kitchen he got out into the hall to find the bathroom light was on.

As he got closer he could hear his mom mumbling. "Mama?" The boy started to open the cracked door wider.

"Stay away boy! Boy. My boy Alek. Away. Go away. Evil beings with daggers say go. Go away." His mother was shrieking again.

He didn't like when his mom got this way. It was happening more and more.

She use to take him out to the park. Out to get get food.

She hadn't taken the boy out in days. He'd been having to go out by himself.

Asking for food from one of the neighbors.

There were papers getting slid under the door daily that read eviction notice.

He kept bringing them to his mom but she kept tearing them up.

He was really scared this time as he gazed at his mama where she crouched in the corner of their small bathroom.

Both the bathtub faucet and the sink faucet were on full blast.

Her hands were over her ears as she muttered about things that the boy couldn't comprehend.

Feeling scared and uncertain the boy went back to the kitchen and got under the blankets.

Covering his head and ears. Trying to block out the sounds coming from the bathroom.

Eventually everything became silent.

The silence bothered the boy more than anything.

Shaking, he arose once again and made his way to the bathroom.

He could hear the water still running, but his mom had gone silent.

Fear settled around the boy like a old friend, making his trembling worse.

He knew something wasn't right.

Nothing ever was right.

But now he knew for certain that something bad had happend.

Dread hung heavy in the air as the boy stepped into the cramped bathroom, his feet wet with water.

That was the first thing the young boy saw. It was gushing out of the tub.

Out of the sink. Running out of the tiled bathroom floor to the hall.

He rushed over to the bathtub to try and turn the nozzle off like he had seen his mama do before.

His tiny hand slipped at first, not able to firmly grasp the nozzle.

Eventually he grasped it and turned it till the faucet gave one last gurgle and drip before finally shutting off.

Then he ran over to the sink where he saw his mom's shirt was stuffed into the drain.

Preventing the water from going down. He removed it before shutting off the sink.

His mama had done this before. She always said the dark man wants the water. He never knew what she meant.

Couldn't understand the dark man was in her mind.

That she was in desperate need of help.

But nobody around these parts got help when it came to mental illness. Not if you didn't have any family.

And the woman only had her young son.

Who was currently crying and screaming at what he had found.

His mom crouched over in the corner, not making a sound

Bloodied wrists. A razor blade lay near.

Sickening to think that maybe if someone cared she could've gotten help

But that was not the Fate of the woman who only had her son.

Instead she took an out, leaving the young boy with no one.

If I were to sit you down and admit to all the times I wished you were him

Would you admit to feeling the same?

Would you say that you wished that I was her?

If only this life had brought us together in a different way

Then maybe we'd be together

I'd save you from yourself

You'd save me from becoming somebody else

If I truly wanted you to rescue me from my mistakes

Could you?

Would you leave her to come help me?

The answer is one we already know

You would.

I know this with all that I am

Some hearts our drawn together

Even when they shouldn't be

Unable to resist the tug of the rope that holds their souls together

Combining them as one

Like a any tragedy where love is conquered by the reality of everyday life

We'll never be able to prove our love to each other

Too many road blocks stand in our way

Walls that we are incapable of tearing down

But if you could whisper the three words  before you disappear

At least I'd know

That if things were different our love would rise above

The land was dead, lost long ago in the first battle
Where men's blood flowed and the world's concious was rattled
Limbs of the old willow tree are a dark ashen gray
Setting the mood in a sorrowful way
Reminding all that this was a place of loss and anger
Here Death was no longer a stranger
Men's emotions overflowed and bubbled up from their cage
No longer able to avoid the differences, they gave into the rage
During the first battle of this once thriving kingdom
Both sides had been fighting for their versions of freedom
The willow stood tall in the midst of the battle not making a sound
Silently weeping as blood soaked the ground
The tree had survived for many years
All that time it'd never shed so many tears
Not when lightning struck down its neighbor one stormy night
Not when the ground rumbled and caused the villagers a fright
No the night when blood ran thick and men's screams filled the air
The battle for a freedom that they both could've shared
That was the night the Willow started to fade away
Once lively now just a dark shadow that continues to stay
Haunting a piece of land that is a bitter reminder of what use to be
Now just a thing of death and destruction in a place that use to be free
Screaming souls of men that were lost can be heard near
Another reminder that causes the Willow to shed a tear
So if you ever here the willow weep
Remember of the lost souls it continues to keep

Her innocence caught a wild heart off guard
Stealing my breath as I tried to resist not to fall too hard
Her optimistic view of the world was everything unknown
The darkness in me needed her to take a glimpse of the world I had been shown
The untainted part of my mind screamed for me to stay away
Steady beat of my once quiet heart wouldn't let reason have the final say
She was everything I'd never been
I was her passage way into the world of sin
Untouched so far but a few scratches here and there from trying to fit into today's society
I had already clawed and fought my way to where I wanted to be
Beauty is something I would've called her then
Now I value her more than I ever did
She was everything I didn't know I needed at the time
The faint beat grew more steady with each day I continued to call her mine
There came a night when cold and smoke surrounded me
Looking into my window I saw my angel asleep
I felt my heart swell with an emotion that seemed to be more than I could take
Frightened the side of me that was still consumed in past mistakes
She slept so soundly as I crept back in quietly with the plan to get away
Gathered up my stuff and ignored the sound of something in me shattering as I left her there to lay
Cold was all I felt walking away from her
Time is something I now wish I could reverse
I would go back in and stay inside
Wrap my arms around her and vow to never leave her behind
In the past I had carried myself proudly and seemed so sure
Who knew i'd be brought to my knees by someone so innocent and pure
Only my stubbornness kept me from returning that night
By the time I had realized my mistake she had dissapeared from my sight
I search for her even now
The girl who made my heart beat loud
It's a unsteady sound without her near
She needs to be found so that she could hear
Love that radiates within my soul for only her
Need to find her and make things right with my world
Now that she's gone my arrogance faded and allowed me to admit that I had been blind
My fear ruined me for the girl that was suppose to be mine

If I hold this head in shaking arms
will you run away in fright?
If my eye sockets are bare and my scalp without hair
Would you scream before witnessing my sorrow
Curiously, I would run before you
Cradling my skull like a newborn babe
I would run away from the possibility of redemption
The eternal rest is a frightening notion
Decomposing girl is forever running
I lack comprehension
I breathe in fear
I am nothing but bones

Feet so heavy, let's stay grounded today
Sheets so white and crisp where they lay

These hands are so twisted as they move to fold
Cracked and dry making the linen go crimson in their hold

We messed up the work with our blood
Go to reload the machine but alas, a flood!

Open up the exit, pushing the filthy water out with a broom
Sweat, blood, and bile pile up in the concrete room

Goodness! Our feet are no longer grounded
They are embedded into the floor as if they had been pounded

I thought to leave soon before my life fades away
The corporate world is hard to exit, and offers little pay

Tell me you want me behind Closed doors
To the world though I'm known as the town *****
Say you'd be crazy to claim me in front of the public eye
I say if you didn't want me then all you told me were lies
I'm not someone who is ashamed of my past
If you had a problem why did you play it like you wanted us to last
So I'm a little young, you knew that going in
Stop acting like I'm the only one who made all the sins
You didn't have to come to me at night
Whispering sweet nothings, crawling between my thighs
Take your lies before I rip out your heart
Skin you and stuff you, display you like art

Hear my words; Listen to me,

We are nothing if not free

You think you know what hand I've been dealt

You cannot understand the shame I have felt

Treating people as if they were rats

Stepping on their pride like they are floor mats

Play with our emotions, push us around

Bringing us one step closer to the burial ground

Enjoy our shame, Laughing at our pain

All our hard work was done in vain

Release us from our bonds, the rope has left a burn

Tired of being chained to a cause that makes our stomachs churn

You lured us in with false security, speaking nothing but lies

We once loved you, now we despise

You have turned into a Tyrant

Us, the people, our slowly turning defiant

Tired of our chains, We come together to destroy, to win

Say goodbye to your throne, time to pay for your sin

Crafty and cunning,
prepare me for my public shunning.
Withhold my truth again.
How am I to defend?

Words screamed into my bleeding ears.
Am I consumed by your fears?
Shadow hands, they pressed so ******* my chest.
Maybe I will faint and get some rest.

Harsh words slice through me.
The violence caused by him is all I see.
One would think that the plate that shattered,
wouldn't look so appealing with its pieces all scattered.

If I bleed on my terms would I feel fine?
Would his and my sins then intertwine?
Would we be able to finally stand on common ground?
Maybe I will faint; I will fade away without being found.

It's not sleeping like a dead man that terrifies me
Its waking up to remember that I am one

Her fingers are long and thin
Hips jut out, skin stretched around the bone
Cheeks are sunken
Eyes are glazed
Hair has lost its sheen
You would think she was a ghost
Faded away into a pile of bones
Her smile, though, is so wide
She is hope
She is more than her body
Her mind is most certainly lost
Her spirit is glowing
Body is fading
She might disappear
When she goes she is going all the way
She refuses to return
Reincarnation is overrated
This soul needs rest

Little boy scream
Let out the cries
May they help with your suffering
The relentless pain
Forever drags you down
You are unable to gain
Nothing seems to end
One moment you can breathe
Then the hand is back again
Blocking your airway
Tightening the grip
Making you stay
Refusing to let you slip
Runway from the past
Time is forever stuck
Making your hell last
There is no tick tock
The hand refuses to move
On your clock
Maybe if you could let the past go
It wouldn't continue to haunt you so
Taunting you with painful memories
Stop focusing on what was
Focus on what could be
Little boy Scream

Me and my desperate lies
All because I choose to hide the truth with a lie

(You hide what you feel with your lies
But If I look deep enough I can hear your cries
Trapped within your thoughts refusing help from all who sees
I will stay by your side until the darkness flees
I won't abandon you even when you tell me to leave
For the truth is I need you just as much as I hope you need me)

Our need what a dangerous thing
Because without a whim or wish we do refrain
I need to be helped, I need to breathe
Because if I don't in these emotions I do seethe
I wish I may I wish I might
Take away your pain tonight
With my desperate pleading cries
That I do hide inside
My wishes and hopes that I wish to achieve
Are simply that but I hope to be
I feel as if I'm tearing apart at the seams
But sadly no one notices but me

(No one notices you?
But I notice everything you do
What you hold back, don't say
I hear your cries clear as day
I know how you feel at night
Wanting answers, wanting to make everything right
I won't let you be alone
My grip on you is tight, and I don't believe in letting you go)

But how do you save someone who's done
Who feels they're already as good as gone

(You love them more than ever before
Love them till even the thought of leaving makes their heart sore)

Peek a boo. Yes it's me

Oh you thought I would leave

Thought I'd back down?

Whatcha think I forgot to breathe

Losing isn't in my vocabulary

Plus all your lies was causing me to be weary

I grew tired of the *******, time to meet the new Carrie

Stephen King stepped aside, ***** I'm the new scary

Better run and hide back under your covers

The things I plan to do to you make the devil shudder

Limbs stretch out and droop downwards in warning
The wind whistles and shrieks in a desperate yearning
Leaves are hiding in the dirt
The earth seems to always fall short

Humanity is taking without a sound
Knees are padded by the wet ground
The dirt under bare feet is a red sand
It burns in my cracked hands

Seeping through my hold like a useless thought
I was thankful for the chaos the rain brought
Droplets hits the impenetrable dirt and still remain on the surface
I am nothing but stillness on my knees waiting to drown, accepting my life purpose

I once loved a willow tree so full life
She died waiting for me, and my love was a knife
I took all that was offered; I stripped her of her clothing
I thought for sure my love would fill her with loathing

Her limbs lost it's skin and twisted in sadness
But my willow did not leave me alone in my madness
So selfless my dead willow is on this dying land
She gives and gives to this broken man

Giving it all to my begging body and empty word
Save me when the water gets to high and my begs are no longer heard

It was loud
Thunder booming in the background
Lightning offering its shine to all those without light
The old man with no hope knew he was in for a long night
Numb from the normal aches that come with old age
The knife in his heart masking the pain
Ever since his love had been called away and he was left here to stay
Left in the old house wishing she was still there to fill the emptiness
Pain was difficult before she parted; Now pain was the Ultimate test
Dripping of the rain the splatter here and there
Filling the silence yet making the loneliness too much to bare
Thoughts of a crooked grin
Eyes forever young. Ones he'd never see again
Do you know what it is like to miss half of your heart?
Have the ultimate love then have death tear your world apart?
Reached in so suddenly and took her away
What was once meant to be now is gone and the man doesn't know if he should stay
It'd be so easy to join the girl
May she be how she was before?
Back when they first met
Back before all he did was mourn and wept
When her hair was long and flowing
Baby blue eyes full of the love she was always showing
Smile so quick to warm the heart
That girl was mine before the start
She was destined to me. And I was her one and only.
A woman so kind and caring for a man who had been so lonely
Now my wrinkle hands tremble as I stand in the heart of the storm
Looking upward for a sign of her as I mourn
Praying lightning would strike down and send me home
Back into her arms so that I'm no longer alone
Wanting to end it all right here and now Knowing that she would take my decision with a frown
She was never about taking the easy way out
Always knowing what was best without a doubt
So taking shelter away from the storm.. away from this pain
I will live until I am called home. Then with her I will remain

Raise the weapons high

Smoke fill the sky

Prepare to be consumed by my wrath

Welcome to my bloodbath

Men resume your battle stance

Tonight many will fall in this bitter dance

Peace doesn't exist as I fire the first shot

Fighting for a cause that many forgot

I feed off their greed

It is a substance that I need

Rage makes me stronger

I have lived for many years, now I live longer

Humans are weak, easy to manipulate

They stand no chance against Fate

Little boy smiling at me
Innocent and sweet
At the time he was a pain I hated to meet
My blonde bouncy curls he liked to pull
Teasing me had done it's toll
I'd chase him around
Doing circles on the playground
Just two young kids teasing eachother till no end
He was a stubborn boy, refusing to bend
Years passed as the boy grew into a strong willed man
I grew into a lanky woman without any goals or life plan
We drifted apart for awhile
Became separated by miles
You know when you meet someone again that you haven't seen for awhile?
It's hard not to remember them as they were when they were but a child
Meeting him again something had changed
Something that made my heart ache in way that was strange
Wanted to be close to him
Yet his once innocent eyes warned of sin
I could tell that the man had been through pain
I feared that this spark wouldn't remain
The boy was was still haunting my mind
The man was a reminder I was running out of time
Once so ornery and carefree
Now he could barely smile at me
I could tell he wanted this just as much
Seemed to fight the urge to lean in whenever we touched
So different they were. The boy and the man that he had become
The boy was there for me. The man just disregards my love
The man is forever fighting against the pull of fate
By the time he realizes what he needs it'll be too late
The one who use to chase me
Now tries to flee
Funny how the roles reversed
After so long I searched
Waited for him to come back here
Now all his pain screams not to come near
Strong man hiding from me
Broken and free
Long ago he was an innocent boy that taunted
Now he is the man that has left my heart haunted

It all started when I was seven after making a decision to eat eight apples with the core

It made me weak and my stomach lurch, leading ultimately to ***** all over the floor

That urge showed up again not long after when I decided to runaway alone

I got picked up and brought to a place that one could call a dead zone

If I had any sense it was lost tens years past

My life is simple, until it’s not and then it’s a nice contrast

If I spill beet juice on the sheets it turns into mess that wounds his heart

When he bleeds on the sheets it doesn't resemble the juice, and a mess is now art

It all started with a knife and an apple to slice, a waiting voice to persuade

My stomach churned while the hand twitched causing me to miss, but he met my blade

Such a sweet fruit
Such a sweet life
Will it stain my knife?

Cease, oh, cease thou foul play
that words sickly and sweet fell
And his hazel eyes, loving like sunrise on a cold day,
Colors that will mislead and mix into gray;
But our lips come together to keep us sane,
Sealing an unknown, maybe in vain

Moan, oh, moan in sorrow
Which thy stone heart cracks a slight,
On to the next stone for hope of tomorrow
It is her duty to mend not borrow;
But first think of him in kind
Lust will one day leave us blind

Then it was you and me. Everyone else were nobodies. Not as free, just wanting to succeed.

Trying to please everybody wasn't for us. We had eachother in our lust. Nobody else did we trust.

How were we to know that this would all end? Always breaking but refusing to mend. Our Love never really did begin.

Just that ever taunting lust was always present. Tainting our senses, refusing to relent. Needing to go back to the beginning to find out what this all meant.

Could we have been more? Did we deny  a love that could've been the cure? Fixed the shattered mess that is our souls, diminish our wicked allure.

Now I'm sitting here with a heart in my trembling hands. Desperately wishing I could go back and fix the man. But at the time mending a broken soul was never part of the plan.

He was willing to try for me. Pick up the broken pieces of the dark memories. For some reason his compassion terrified me, I had the urge to flee.

All that it could be. All that it should be. All that it would be. My choices have a haunting ending. Sitting here figuring out what he was to me. I finally see.

That man was everything. Yet I just let him roam free. Leaving me here with my heart on my sleeve. My decision taunting me.