Reaching out to her father but he doesn't want to know, the pain behind her eyes you can see she's feeling low.

Reaching out for answers its been almost thirty years, left empty inside wondering why he never cares.

Reaching out for love from her father in which she has craven, trying to settle the storm within to create her own inner sweet haven.

Reaching out to his stepdaughter over social media, after years of engine searches from google to wikipedia.

Reaching out for a chance to meet the dad who got scared and closed the door, another slap in the face from her big brown eyes the tears they pour.

Reaching out for closure to understand what she did that was wrong, the need to seem him daily is forever growing strong

Reaching out for his explanation he can't even give her that, not even in a letter or face to face in chat.

Reaching out in hope that somehow, someday just maybe, he'll fall in love with her again just like when she was a baby.

Reaching out for his affection she's missed out on having her dad, all the father daughter things, something she has never had.

Reaching out in desperation it hurts her deep and raw, something that has never healed it hurts right through to the core.

Reaching out to her daddy she's not mad or full of hate, she won't accept that this was written as part of her own fate.

My heart beats, as my lungs breathe
my body functions genetically,
as I become emancipated these functions are beautifully orchestrated.
My senses are heightened right down to the taste in my mouth, sound so loud and clear, like I'm on the inside looking out but somehow this feeling is surreal.
The vivid imagery floating through my mind,
I'm intoxicated with deep pure love from this light that has opened a new lease of life.
The deeper I sink into this abundance, my awareness is magical as though I'm in a dream.
My perception is altered and here I can receive clear truthful messages, intuitively knowing the answer that is often clouded by the reality blinding our sight and thought process.

This is the place I call home, at peace with myself and surroundings. The intensity of emotions and senses are infatuating to core.

When you have no money nobody wants to know,
Being made redundant, my morale is feeling low.

Waiting on the government to process my claim,
Can't pay my bills, I'm panicking, but I am not to blame.

Creditors chasing me, letters piling up behind the door, powerless to do a thing, but this I can't ignore.

Loosing the will slowly, my head hurts from all the pleading, my children and my dog they will soon need feeding.

No support available, this walk I must do alone, crying myself to sleep, I could have been prepared if I had known.

My world has suddenly collapsed, the domino effect has begun, rippling through my cash flow, this summer isn't feeling fun.

The days are feeling empty, to broke to go anywhere, trying to scrape together copper so I can treat my children to the fair.

Relentless job searches, I'm tearing at my hair, when you are left without a penny and there's no one around to care.

Holding my head in my hands, trying to keep things together, depressed and down I hope this isn't forever.

Fighting off the feelings, trying not to take it to heart, hurt that I worked so hard, from the very start.

I was always there, worked overtime for free, helped out when things were bad, stupid, silly me.

Its ok for the big boys, their wage it tripled mine,
They may be in the same boat, but they will just be fine.

Pacing the walls I'm slowly slipping into madness,
Clinging onto hope, getting lost deep inside the sadness.

A temporary glitch, I'm hoping I will be able to recover, its times like this we need help from one another.

Scared, more terrified but what's worse is I feel alone, trying hard to keep upbeat, trying to remain in good tone.  

My children too young to understand, and my dog just looks at me funny. Not realising the world is dominated by that paper stuff called money.

My thoughts are racing vividly, trying to capture an idea, paralysed by the sudden shock along with intense fear.

My world has collided, my heart begins to fade,
All of this could have been prevented, If only I'd been paid.

Vicious tongues a nasty rumor,
It only sparks my sense of  humor.
Chinese whispers what do they say,
there's no truth in the patter at the end of the day.
People believe then the gossip is stirred,
when really the truth  is it never occurred.
Jealous minds and evil in man,
They choose to destroy because they know that they can.
So never believe what the gossips have to say,
How do you know that's the truth anyway.
Don't be foolish to believe that it's true,
Your feeding the power to all it can do.
Nasty rumors they spread so fast,  
It'll soon be forgotten a thing of the past.

That moment when you feel sick, your hearts beating real quick, your mind starts to tick.

I'm hurting I'm sad! Why do you make me feel bad?
you chased away my dad, of course I 'll be mad.

The truth about your way, something I had to say,
on that ****** up day, I need to getaway.

Slap me in the face, to your own disgrace ,
I'm leaving this place, without a trace.

The drama, the karma;
I need to wrap myself in armour,
To protect me from the trauma.

Despite is that right?
the day would come when I'd stand up and fight

It's my right, it may be no delight but
you could just be polite, accept that you've lost the fight

To control, it's not your role
It's starting to take it's toll.

Pushing me away, there's no way I wanna stay,
you don't listen to what I say.

What will I do this is such a mess,
A tangled web I'm lost in the stress.
A blurry vision I'm blind to see,
The life I was given the path that's for me.
A complex root there lies a cause,
My life's on hold a constant pause.
My mind must be still it has to be clear,
To look for the cause, get rid of the fear.
So I plead with you I surrender my soul,
I need a way out of this deep darkened hole.
I search for a sign just give me a clue,
I request some help on what I must do.
A wrenching ache there's a missing link,
A time for reflection where I must think.
The answer is there it's just lost in illusion,
I'll find it when I fight through the confusion.

The day that you left me, oh what did I do that was wrong?
left me pregnant for another lady now it's time for me to be strong.

Carrying our child I'm feeling awfully scared,
you've walked out on us you've never really cared.

Counting down the days until our child is born,
my world has collided my heart you have torn.

What do I do now? How will I get over you?
don't want to believe these rumours, even though I know they're true.

Our son arrives your nowhere in sight,
I cradle our baby bring him close to me tight.

Suddenly they rush him away,
i cry in my pillow with each thought that I pray.

The doctors return a few hours later,
our baby didn't survive in the little incubator.

Shocked I can't breathe my mind is a blur,
angry by the thought of you being with her.

The day that you left my world was washed away,
wondering if our baby would be here, if I knew how to make you stay.
I

The last words I've spoken, they haven't been in vein,
thoughts colliding through my mind, I'm feeling real insane.

Our relationship is broken, shattered beyond belief,
I'm struggling to cope I'm going through the grief.

I can't relate to you anymore, I've lost the trust in you,
trying to understand the crazy things you do.

Your supposed to protect me be their unconditionally,
you talk to me like ****, you think that I'm just silly

Oh mother I can't fix this I need to walk away,
my heart hurts too much, no longer can I stay.

The last words I've spoken, I opened up to you,
give you nothing but my honesty, the words I spoke are true.

The lonely old man wrinkled he's aged,
he's gone into care he feels like he's caged.

Weak he's fragile but his mind is in tact,
the way life is it's a matter of fact.

The lonely old man he's missing his wife,
waiting to die looking back o his life

Looking through photographs a distant memory it seems,
frightened by death it's plaguing his dreams.

The lonely old man it seems nobody cares,
in his bedroom he sits there and stares.

One day a young lady comes to help him get ready,
on his feet he's not stable he's become unsteady.

The lonely old man he's feeling a tired old chap,
the lady dresses him smartly finishing with his cap.

Out in the gardens she takes him for a walk,
from his wheelchair  he laughs as they talk.

The lonely old man and the lady they bond,
watching the fish as they swim in the pond.

Days go by the man weakens he's worse,
the lady stays with him that's her promise as a nurse.

The lonely old man ready to leave his life,
he starts seeing the face of his beautiful wife.

Holding his hand she knows he is dying,
trying to be professional she can't stop herself crying.

The lonely old man turns to the lady,
his face has darkened his eyes grey and shady.

Slipping away his breathing is slow
knowing it's time for him he must go.

The only way is up don't let yourself get down,
always wear a smile on your face, never sit and frown.

There's only one road you can choose, you must do this alone,
or forever remain a robot, just another living clone.

Grab your dreams with all your strength, make them come true    
your thoughts and your vision, are the key to what you do.
Laugh, cry and get angry but be in control of emotion,
don't get wrapped up in the drama of all this crazy commotion.
life as little lessons to create a better you,
don't beat yourself up over the hiccups, its the worst thing you can do.

Always be upbeat destroy any negative vibes,
look at how other cultures live, happy in their mighty tribes.

The message is all over but from birth we are re-programmed,
the signals are hard to see, they somehow seem to be jammed.

The only way is up, you've already been in the dark,
the flame is ready to light, just ignite the spark.

The product of environment behaviours, boundaries and mind,
In this world I hope there's an escape that you can somehow find..

Your just a little girl you have nothing in your life that is stable,
I would scoop you away afar If only I was able.

The product of environment influenced by your creator,
She's messing with your mind, I can see your anger you hate her.

Please little girl remember you have me,
I'll help you if I can, run with me be free.

The product of environment your world is unstable,
Your longing for the love but your mother isn't able.

Sweet little Nicole you have the weight of the world on one shoulder,
I hope this doesn't crumble you or affect you when your older.

The product of environment it's all that you've been taught.
It worries me deeply, I'm frightened by the thought.

The way you touch me and stroke my hair,
how you love me the way that you care.

The way you stare deep into my eyes,
how your honest you don't tell me lies.

The way you hold me you pull me in tight,
you push on through the struggle, never give up on the fight.

The way you love me your always so sweet,
you give me your everything in the skip of a beat.

The way you look after me your always so true,
I'll love you forever for all that you do.

Think about the way that we live today,
what we preach to our children, what we learn them to say.

Think about how we are spending most of our time,
working for a dollar selling for a dime.

Think about our families take a step back,
on every street people dealing out crack.

Think of our cities and how we rotate,
the people in charge leading the debate.

Think about our planet the damage we've done,
about the crimes, tragedies and the times that we've won.

Think of all the bad things, then think of all the good,
do what's right in life, do what you know that you should.

Think about the way that we live today ,
make positive changes that's all I can say.

So this is who I am and this is where I've been,
Down in the gutter there's nothing I aint seen.

You either hate me or love me, I really don't care,
I always speak truth, I always am fair.

I may not be perfect but I sure am real,
I don't hide my feelings I ain't afraid to feel.

I've made mistakes don't stand there and judge,
you'll end up cold if you hold a grudge.

We all make bad choices, this is how we learn,
I've learned by mine, now I think its your turn.

So this is who I am, **** the haters,
the hypocrites and all the ****** fakers.

Through the mirror of my mind,
Lost in illusion control I can't find
Needing that place so bitter sweet,
Dreaming of that prince to sweep me off me feet.
A fine treat, the luxuries in life,
Making that promise I dream of making a good wife.
The knife it has twisted too many times.
A reason I write and make up these rhymes.
Through the mirror of my mind,
Stories untold who knows what you may find.
Behind my eyes, deep within my soul,
I search for the light to get out of this hole.
Through the mirror of my mind lost in illusion, All this confusion it's making me blind.
Blind too see beyond the fakes,
Repeating a cycle not learning from my mistakes.
It takes a while to focus on what's real
From me my fate no one can steal.
Seal the deal I will make this dream real,
No matter how hard or bad I feel.
Heal and love it's in me to care,
I won't be tricked into doing this dare.
Through the mirror of my mind.
Time for reflection that need to unwind.
Through the mirror of my mind,
Lost in illusion control I can't find
Needing that place so bitter sweet,
Dreaming of that prince to sweep me off me feet.
A fine treat, the luxuries in life,
Making that promise I dream of making a good wife.
The knife it has twisted too many times.
A reason I write and make up these rhymes.
Through the mirror of my mind,
Stories untold who knows what you may find.
Behind my eyes, deep within my soul,
I search for the light to get out of this hole.
Through the mirror of my mind lost in illusion, All this confusion it's making me blind.
Blind too see beyond the fakes,
Repeating a cycle not learning from my mistakes.
It takes a while to focus on what's real
From me my fate no one can steal.
Seal the deal I will make this dream real,
No matter how hard or bad I feel.
Heal and love it's in me to care,
I won't be tricked into doing this dare.
Through the mirror of my mind.
Time for reflection that need to unwind.

Trouble maker you ain't nothing but a faker,
out to be mean this I've seen, your a taker.

Stirring the spoon to get a reaction,
your so transparent I can tell by your action

A power trip to fuel your insecurities,
a dangerous game, filled with real impurities.

Jealous your bitter your twisted inside,
you think you have me fooled, like its something you can hide.

One step ahead I know your plan,
I wouldn't even bother thinking  you can.

Your shan I wouldn't trust you ever,
causing world war 3, thinking your clever.

Get a grip, grow up stop slamming your cup,
on your desk in a mood, just calm down dude.

Trouble make always pointing the finger to blame,
you think you'd know better. It's a real dam shame.

Trying to move on and live a normal life
surrounded by the struggle, mental illness is rife.

let me be me, don't torture me for who I am,
I'm not nelson mandella my name is Sam.

I do what I can to survive this infliction,
it's not my fault you have a drug addiction.

I'm not to blame for your past, remember you created me,
you need to get real, this is something you must see

Treat me like a hater I ain't got no respect,
family or not there's a cause and effect.

Narcissist you thrive on the control,
Jekyll in Hyde your suited to the role.

Remember you chose this path,
now I'm feeling the vengeance of your wrath.

I can't deal with this pain any longer,
it's stopping me from living, I need to get stronger.

You made me laugh you made me cry,
Just like a drug you got me high.
You bigged me up then pulled me down,
Made me look a silly clown.
You are fake with a cold black heart,
I should of seen this from the start.
You let me down and locked me out,
in your mind your full of doubt.
Your wicked ways you were so cold,
It'll leave you lonely when your old.
You said you loved me you'll always be there,
where are you now you just don't care.
You gave it up it didn't take long,
It's not my fault you were in the wrong.
Your cruel game it has imprinted,
Leaving my heart battered and tinted.
Your time will come when you get what you gave,
I'll be over so so i'll just smile and wave.
Unfinished business comes back around,
Next time my feet will be firm on the ground.
You don't deserve my love you'll only miss treat it,
I will not fall i'll stand tall and defeat it.

You call me up on a Friday night,
drunk again you've started a fight.

You come knocking at my door all hours of late,
I thought men were respectful by starting with a date.

You stay and do your deed no cuddles or any kissing,
trying to figure out this puzzle, can't find the piece that's missing.

You stay away through the week you never answer my call,
feeling used and abused once again, I curl up into a ball.

You say we are just friends you don't want to commit,
there's no respect at all not one tiny little bit.

You can take yourself off to someone elses bed,
I'm sick of your lying and you messing with my head.

You get them people in life who look down there nose at you, there obvious behaviours, transparent in what they do.

Arrogant attitude they show you no respect, treat you like dirt like you are an insect.

They don't acknowledge you when you say hi,
I wouldn't even bother its not worth the try.

You get them people in life who think they are something there not, their bitterness inside as they begin to rot.

They sit up on a pedestal ordering you about,
power of authority from their lungs they shout.

You get them people in life who are bitter and sour, too much overdrive from the who power.

But they can never make you feel like you have no right, stand up to these types of people they'll crumble with the fight.

Your touch is magical, it makes me shiver,
stroking my legs they start to quiver.

How you deliver it blows my mind,
there's no one like you, I can replace or find.

Your eyes look deep into mine,
lost in this moment it's real mighty fine.

The passion between us it's more than just lust,
together we are comfortable, in each other we trust.

Your kiss is sealed with love that is real,
I can see you love me, your devotion I feel.

You shower me with affection, you see the real me,
we were destined we were meant to be.