Along the road we go, the dusty ***** track
too afraid too understand, holding hands we don't look back.

In the middle of darkness, gripped by that of fear, the sound of silence this is somewhat clear.

Along the road we go, we start to hit the bend,
waving off the old way, life is on the mend.

We reach our destination, at first it's feeling strange, welcome to the feeling, which is that of change.

Along the road we go, new places to explore,
feeling like we're living, life no longer seems a chore.

Always riding the tide, never quite reaching the shore, searching deeply for something, this I cant ignore.

Always hoping and waiting, to feel the change in the water, longing to feel the calm now I'm no longer your daughter.

Always pondering thoughts, collectively stored upon my mind, not to certain either on what I'm trying to find.

Always wanting more, never feeling content or at ease, trying to keep the balance, always aiming to please.

Always riding the tide, never quite reaching the shore, not wanting to feel, feel this way anymore.

Angry and bewildered your driving me insane,
making me want to runaway I don't wan to feel this pain.

We argue fight and curse each other nearly every day,
is this what love is really like is this the way.

Crying with frustration all I can do is shout,
once upon a time with us there certainly was no doubt.

I need a little space a place where I can breathe,
will we make a comeback or forever will you leave.

Maybes we aren't meant to be things are turning sour,
or maybes our love will blossom just like that of a flower.

Angry i'm annoyed your constantly on my back,
where is the support that we both seem to lack.

All I know now is I need time to think,
I'm pushed to the edge i'm standing on the brink.

Do I shut the door and keep all men at bay,
or do I fight for us and beg for you to stay.

Angry I am hurting is this really what we are,
please just be a bad patch and together we'll go far.

Fools will be blind to all the eye can see

Dig deeper

Only then you will see the reality in front of you

Blowing in the wind with my hearts desire,
soaked up in my bones the feeling I'm on fire.

Blowing in the wind with my souls need,
around my neck I protect with a rosary bead.

Blowing in the wind with my own reality,
questioning the doubt of my mentality.

Blowing in the wind with my urge to waken,
lost my vision I'm blind, the strength from me is taken.

Boarded onto the boats by the hundred's, desperate to flea their own land, leaving with only essentials, families firmly holding hands.

Desperate to escape from the cruel environment they face, loosing everything they are feeling in disgrace.

Another tragic ending the story published worldwide, there's no refuge for our brothers, no where for them to hide.

I often wonder if we deserve the world we were given, so many are suffering in the life that they are living.

Unimaginable circumstances, men, women and children too, there's got to be a way, surely there's something we can do.


Boarded on to the boats by the hundred's, their fate is still unclear, the horrific journey begins, they are overcome by the fear.

Brainwashed no control over your mind,
wishing there's a button so I can press re-wind.

Back to the day you met this awful fate,
I'd warn you off, tell you not to go through the gate.

9 years of torture you've been under a spell,
you haven't been yourself, you've really been un well.

We've tried to protect you save you from the mess,
watched you being beaten, frustrated by the stress.

Its hard for us as your daughters,
we can see you that your drowning in the deepest waters.

Watching you waste away your all skin and bone,
the weakness in your voice I can hear it in your tone.

This man is more than evil, he sends shivers down my spine,
with the thought of him killing you, is an awful worry of mine.

Finally he's gone he's left his mark on you,
we are here to help you, don't be ashamed of you.

Brainwashed your starting to open your eyes,
to the damage that he's done and all his harmful lies.

Can't stop these crazy thoughts in my mind they race,
fighting off these demons is something I must face.

Images flashing vividly my mind it's never stills,
doped up on medication from these happy pills.

Trying to be normal pretending it's all alright,
staying up all hours finding it hard to sleep at night.

Can't stop this mental state it's got a hold of me,
it's something man doesn't understand nor can it see.

Living life as a robot i'm almost like a machine,
trapped in a world of delusion somewhere we all have been.

Not living in the moment i'm full of constant worry,  
trying to revive myself it seems i'm in no hurry.

Can's stop these crazy thoughts and the pain I feel inside,
lost without a cause from the outside world I hide.

Crazed I'm in a daze,
Hoping this is just a phase,
A burning blaze I'm in hell,
Now you really can tell,  
Got to get well,
Even if I'm trapped in this cell.

In the darkest deepest memories of my burdened soul,
searching for a purpose, my life's own personal goal .

caught in a trap I'm hoping for some light,
to beam its rays on me, sweetly warm and bright.

In the darkest deepest memories of my confused  mind
I'm trying to unravel, what it is I need to find.

The feeling of disheartenment thickening on the inside until it reaches your throat.


No longer can you stand it, like barb wire around your neck. You can't breathe by the feelings that have consumed every last inch of your body.

Paralysed, you can't move! Your thoughts run wild within your subconscious, images flurrying; changing continuously until you no longer see what's before you.

Your heart shatters into devastation, the realisation of the cruel surroundings in which you have succumb.

Tears pour down your face, with each trickle you cling to yourself  The desperation in your cries, no one hears your plea .

Domestic violence, I feel it in your silence,
I see the pain in your eyes, hearing the torture in your cries.

Bruises, broken bones your half dead,
he battered you so badly there's scars on your head, with the feeling of dread.

To weak to fight his strength, you'd go to any length,
to break free run from this bully, he don't love you in his heart not truly or fully.

Excuses are running out, you have to get out
U can hear him coming, you get the urge to start running.

You freeze he grabs you by the hair,
pleading with him to stop, in this rage he doesn't care.

Another punch in the face, he throws you around,
too young to pick you up off of the ground.

He says he didn't mean it, i wish you could of seen it
from the beginning, he's got a hold of you he thinks he's winning.

walking on egg shells living in this hell,
too afraid to speak out, there's no one you can tell.

He rapes you batters you inflicts all this pain,
stripped you of your dignity, makes you feel insane.

Domestic violence, break your silence
fight back your strong, what he's doing is wrong.

Drinking beer drinking wine,
Drinking because your not fine.
A shot of ***** that glass of gin,
Drinking the bottle your haunted by sin.
Drinking at breakfast a cider or two,
Downing it by the litre is all you seem to do.
Drinking yourself into a sad sorry state,
Drinking so much you fall through the gate.
Drowning your sorrows your out of your mind,
Drinking that one drink to help you unwind.
Drinking everyday it's all you want to do,
You've lost that spirit deep within you.
Drinking is bad when you abuse,
Drinking is something you just can't refuse.
On the whiskey that old awful smell,
Drinking it straight no wonder you fell.
Drinking it's took over it's hard to see ,
Drinking I choose not it's just not for me

Family feuds you refuse to see this despair,
damaged relationships, something we just can't repair.

All of this drama it's wearing me down,
thinking of leaving this god awful town.

I can't take it no longer I'm tired of the fight,
worried sick your keeping me awake at night.

Your my mother not my child,
your off the rails you've gone wild.

Abuse your violent mentally ill,
you've tortured my mind I can't keep still.

I've tried and tried to help you get well ,
your beyond this now I really can tell.

I have my own family, got to live my own way,
I can't keep feeling hurt by the things that you say.

I know your trapped in this mental frame,
too much to handle, I cry with the pain .

Family feuds I can no longer connect,
it's making me Ill, myself I need to protect

Father Christmas where did he come from?
On Christmas Eve we all leave him a feast,
Along with some carrots to share with his beast.

Reindeer dust we sprinkle on our lawn,
tucked up in bed we get excited for dawn.

Lavish gifts more than one we receive,
but why is it in Father Christmas that we all believe?

Pretending each year that this man is magic,
he's not real I found this so very tragic.

Father Christmas he's just make believe,
your mum and your dad hide the presents you receive

It's really confusing how we create these lies,
stories of Santa's sleigh and how he loves  mince pies.

His famous red suit and his long white beard, finding out he's a fake is something I always feared.

Flying the world all in one night,
a sack full of toys for our children's delight.

Father Christmas who invented this man?
An image created we believe that he can.

Finding my voice the words do not flow,
confrontation has risen with nowhere to go.
That old scary feeling i'm back in that place,
my stomach is churning the fear on my face.
Terrified and shaking like i'm about to die,
trying to keep control I can't let myself cry.
A mistake I made there's no need for your drama,
a bully you are one day you'll face karma.
Humiliated again shouted at like a child,
you are not human you belong in the wild.
Finding my voice screaming inside,
looking to escape I need somewhere to hide.
At breaking point my reaction is cool,
so why I am I feeling like I am the fool?
Scared of this feeling I can't seem to face,
inside I am frightened my heart starts to race.
Finding my voice it's not easy to do,
if you can do this then so can I too.

For all the love in the world, make sure its worth your own,
Don't forget to love yourself, remember to set the tone,

For all the jewels on the crown, make sure you never frown,
even when your fed up, there's no way you're going to drown,

For all the rights to freedom, sacrifice you need,
at times you'll want to give up, its the strength you must now feed,

For all the bad in the land, reach out and share your heart,
It may not make a difference but it sure is the way to start.

Where is my father who I've not yet seen,
Where is he living where has he been.
Uncanny this feeling it's making me sad,
Left me hurting I'm needing my dad.
His face I can not picture an image forgotten,
How could he do this it's simply just rotten.
Maybes I'll meet him one day if it's down as my fate,
Or maybe I'll meet him waiting at heavens gate.
Where is my father he's supposed to be by my side.
I search for him always with eyes open wide.
He knows I exist he just can't stand up and be a dad,
It sure is hard but mostly it's sad.
I know I'm not in the wrong I was only a child,
Having no father is driving me wild.
Where is my father where has he been,
I dream of the day his face can bee seen.

Feel the love inside of you,
Remember to love all that you do,
Except for the badness,
Evil and sadness,
Decide to be true,
Open your eyes see you
Make that happen.

Grace yourself  because it's not about wealth,
more importantly it's about your health.

Grace yourself because it's not about money,
It causes wars, you can't tell me this is funny.

Grace yourself  because it's a greedy game your in,
Look around there's nothing but sin.

Growing up was hard the memories I have are sad,
living in a broken home I never saw my dad.

A frightened little girl the sound of smashing glass,
hiding in my room, sitting silently in class.

Feeling all alone my mothers in a state,
another violent outburst do I run for the garden gate?

You's were fighting all the time my step dad hated me too,
I know you were in a bad place but did I mean that little to you?

Growing up was horrific the trauma was unreal,
still to this very day it affects the way I feel.

Dragged around by my hair I know you didn't mean it,
when I was ill with a sickness bug you left me all alone to clean it.

Bathing me one day you tried to drown me in the bath,
I wasn't even a bad kid I was just a victim to your wrath.

Wetting the bad you'd laugh I was only five,
praying I would die I couldn't bare to be alive.

Growing up was hard looking back I see,
I was only a child this should never of happened to me.

Have you ever had a situation where your feeling crazy? Left in this world alone things are looking hazy.


Have you ever felt secluded? Somehow you've gone deluded, in your mind someone has intruded.


Have you ever lost your way? Barely surviving through the day, at night you beg and pray.

Have you ever lost yourself or mistreated your own health?

Have you ever retrieved that something you once believed? Too much hurt you have received.


Have you ever found the light so bright it blinds your sight? It sparks the fire to fight.

Have you ever been in recovery? Your too shocked by your discovery.


Have you ever had that dark cloud? Inside your screaming so loud, trying to do yourself proud.

Have you ever lost the motion? Your hoping for a potion, or some magic kind of lotion to get control of your emotion.

Have you ever felt ok? Even if its just for one day you try to runaway.


Have you ever woken from your illusions? wrapped up in your scary delusions, you cant take anymore intrusions.

Have you ever felt numb? People treating you like you're dumb, is this the life that you've succumb?


Have you ever found strength where you'd go to any length? To come first not always tenth.

Have you ever been rejected? Your heart is now infected like a drug you've just injected.

Have you ever made a decision where you bleed from the incision? You've lost yourself and your vision.

Have you ever felt free? Given all that you can be there's a brighter future for me.

I came here for a new life,  came her for the change. I don't want to be the victim, feeling that I'm to blame.

I came here to be happy live life freely, came here to do this, I don't want to feel the shame.

So please don't hate me understand my reason,
Inside my hearts warm, it's the cold outside that is freezing.

I came here for my kids, to create the dream,
Came here to escape the sad things that I have seen.

I came here to be strong, to escape these dark places I have been.

So please, please understand, see it through my eyes, living in your world rapped around your lies.

I came here to live, I've given it my all,
Came here to witness, the rise or the fall

I came here to fight one day I will win,
Came here to be brave, to wash away the sin.

So please just let me be, this time away will do no harm, searching for that peace, the still, the warmth and the calm.

I can't go on living in this way,
Its opened up my eyes that is all I have to say and I've tried and tried for too long,
Got to do what's right for me now even though you thinks its wrong.

I will remember you you'll always remain in my heart, living in different worlds it's time for us to part. Please don't forget me together we share a past, I'm hoping your bitterness will turn sweet, I'm not sure it will last.

I can't go on living this way, my heart is broken into two, craving for a relationship I know I can never have with you. Closing the book you need to let me go, hoping you can save yourself only time will show.

So please don't hate me I need this to recover,
A whole world awaits outside only I can can discover.
A connection we once had only by blood,
I'm not running from my problems I'm doing what anyone would.

I cant go on living this way it hurts too much for me to stay, in my thoughts for you I pray.
Until we meet again I wish you nothing but the best. Stand up to your demons endure the test.

If only for a moment, I'd stop to stare with care,

If only for a moment, true loves kiss we both would share,

If only for a moment, together we would dare,

If only for a moment, sometimes life it isn't fair,

If only for a moment, without you I cannot bare,

If only for a moment, my heart it would not tare.

I just wanted to say I get how you feel,
your caught up in this nightmare, this **** it's crazy and real.

Your lost in the darkness the deep depths of despair,
these experiences are needed to help you with repair.

Caught up in a moment your world subsides around you,
feeling helpless and frustrated like there's nothing you can do.

I just wanted to say you have people around you who care,
in your moments of sadness, I'm sure they'll always be there.

I'll spread my wings and learn how to fly,
away from this loneliness and the tears that I cry.

I'll fly far away to neverland,
with fairy dust and the world in my hand.

I'll think happy thoughts with stories to tell,
get to know this place so very well.

I'll sleep in the trees way up high,
looking above at the stars in the sky.

I'll be in a place where happiness is real,
wash away my worries the joy that'll I'll feel.

I'll spread my wings and learn how to fly,
living this dream until the day I die.

I'm not angry anymore I've cried too many tears,
I've been the one to overcome my fears.
I'm not sorry that I don't know you it's the path you chose to take,
angry with my mother you see me as a mistake.
I'm not missing out on my children's lives to me it is my duty,
this opportunity is a gift filled with lots of beauty.
I'm not sad anymore I've tried too hard to reach you,
only one chance I wanted, I'm not here to try and preach you.
I'm not ashamed anymore,  I've accepted that you don't want this,
we have no memories together, there's nothing for me to miss.
I'm not pulling myself apart because of a choice you made,
it's on your conscious forever, but for me this hurt will fade.
I'm  not perfect but I'm not afraid to face the things in  life,
I hope you are happy raising someone else's children, sitting cosy with your wife.
I'm your only daughter In my heart I know you once cared,
the situation was crazy too young you ran off scared.

Imagine a life without craziness, with no evil possessing man,
The world would be a better place, right now it's just too shan.

Imagine love and peace lets not go to war,
reading stories of destruction, it's sickening to the core.

Imagine a happy place where we could peacefully live,
where people are not nasty, they reach out and they give.

Imagine imagine let yourself see,
this world has gone crazy, no one is free.

I'm young I'm free that's what I'm destined to be,
A free bird I flight high up onto a tree.
From tree to tree I fly around,
This life won't keep me tied or bound.
Freedom I have I'm as free as a bird,
This I express with every word.
I won't be ruled or caged by another,
A free bird I give thanks to my mother.
I'm young I'm free not always easy this is true
Being a free bird your true to the spirit in you.

Injected with a poison my body weak it's limp,
forced to work the streets at the hands of my greedy ****.
Working through the night my body's bruised it's battered,
All my hopes and dreams into a million pieces they've shattered.
Tortured by the demons affected by the drugs,
living in this cold dark place amongst these ****** thugs.
Got to find a way out I need to get away,
they threaten me with death tell me I must stay.
Injected with a poison thrown back into the game,
selling myself to the devil i'm drowning deep in shame.
Blocking out reality looking for a vein,
standing on the ***** streets already feeling that drain.
In another dimension I'm high as a kite,
my will too weak to struggle on and win the fight.
Injected with a poison I've become a modern slave,
clinging on to hope trying to be brave.
Locked up in this bedroom with women just like me,
thinking of a plan to help to set u free.
Turning on our **** we stand and say no more,
stabbing him in the chest he crashes to the floor.
Injected with a poison  together we are saved,
the memories of this tragedy in me they've engraved.

Inner issues lead people to misuse,
selling their bodies, taking drugs they abuse
themselves they can't get no help their stealing off the shelves,
To survive in this life this crime is now rife,
young kids ruling the streets they're armed with a knife.
Inner Issues torturing peoples minds their trapped in this hell,
need a fix, looking for things they can sell,
to get through another day amongst this badness, you can see the real sadness in their eyes, you can hear their tortured cries.
They've become numb to this way,
I see it everyday, In the depths of their darkness I hear them pray,
for a better existence, you can feel their resistance to, change for the better from jail they write a letter, the rain is getting wetter.
Inner Issues their tortured by abuse, they can't call a truce to all of this abuse,
a slave to the devil, they're on a deeper level in this life they revel.

I see the pain in your eyes, the sadness in your reflection, I should have loved you a little more, I should have saved you from rejection.

I see the hurt in your emotion, your longing for my heart, but day by day I'm pushing us further apart.

I'm numb to any feeling, of emotions like love, set me free, if only, I want to fly far and above.

So don't think I don't care, my love for you is pure, only the expression that is faulty it's something I'm trying to cure.

I see the troubles I have caused you, I'll admit that I've done wrong, lets build bridges together and make our love binding  strong.

I see now I never showed you any affection inside, too frightened I ran from you, to protect my feelings I would hide.

I see your efforts to wow me, worship me holey, all alone in your trying you've been doing this solely.  

I've never learnt how to love, always feeling ice cold, warm me up with your passion I don't want to be like this when I'm old.

I see how my actions have caused your loving heart to crumble, I'm sorry for your sorrow, I'll try and catch you from the stumble.

I see if I don't wake up or defrost my frozen heart, I'm going to miss out on my one true love and I know you'll want to part.

So take these words as my token, on paper I hope that it make's sense, please understand I've never felt love these feelings are intense.

Something which I'm still learning, each and everyday, I hope and pray this poem will be enough to make you stay.

I've made mistakes I've been uncool, You can't use this as your tool.

I've said sorry more than once already, Your making this relationship become unsteady.


I've cried in shame I am to blame, Your now different your not the same.


I've begged for forgiveness, pleaded with you. What else do you want me to do?

I've stopped going out, there's no need to shout. Control is what this is all about.

I've lost myself along the way, frightened you'd leave, praying you'd stay.

I've done ****** up things, hurt you inside, But punishing me forever I cant abide.

I've put life on hold, inside I'm scared putting up with this I would never have dared


I've lost the will to recover, Maybes I'm not meant to be your lover.

I've gave up inside I've died, I've lost count of how many times I've tried.

You use your son as a weapon a selfish childish game,
not bothered by your actions no remorse, regret or shame.

Not giving a **** about your son and the right to see his dad,
Posting lies on facebook trying to make this man look bad.

You phone up all the time just to be a *****,
is your life really that bad you nasty little witch.

Not caring that you've hurt him and your son too,
when will the law wake up to women just like you.

You think that this is funny you should be done for slander,
creating all these lies it's all just propaganda.

He doesn't stand a chance with you he's tried to be a dad,
all the proof is here deep down you know you're bad.

You poison your child against him in some sick game to try and win,
One day your son will know the truth no longer will you grin.

With no real reason for stopping contact, except the fact your hurt,
maybes he would of stayed if you didn't treat him like dirt.

You need to learn your lesson be brought down a peg or two,
nasty you're dangerous your power should be stripped from you.

One day he'll see his son the truth will then be stated,
how will your son feel then knowing what you've created.

You will get your karma one day you'll loose the fight,
you've ruined their relationship denied them of their right.

Kiss me in the moment your lips are soft and sweet,
dance with me under the starts lift me off my feet.

Kiss me in my dreams now we are apart,
my love for you will remain embedded deep with in my heart.

kiss me like we are young again like on our honey moon,
memories of you and how you've gone too soon.

Kisses I miss it's the small little things,
the joy that we shared the happiness it brings.

Let us go back to the way we were when we first met, lets not fill our days with sadness which later we'll regret.

Take me back to the happy place when the times we had were funny, lets not fill our days with darkness make them bright and sunny.

Let us go back to that special time where we both were shy, stop all of the fighting please don't make me cry.

Take me in your arms hold me close to you,
Believe I'm sorry for my mistakes, my love for you is true.

Let us live the life we are dreaming it to be,
stop all this craziness its destroying you and me.

Take my word when I say I'd be lost without you here, I don't always show it but to me you are so dear.

Let us wipe the slate clean back to how it was back then, you are the man for me there's no room for other men.

I love you with my heart please don't think that I'm cold, I hope you stick around until we're grey and old.

Life is like a yo-yo they like to say it's yolo,
In this world I'm feeling so low
Can't predict the future but what I do know,
There are places I need to go,
Got to write my own show,

Life is like Sims with emotions,
Stirred up in a cocktail of potions,
Searching in the deepest oceans,
Going through the different notions.

Life is like a roller coaster ride,
Make sure you wear it with pride,
From this life you can never hide,
You've got people on your side.

Life is like a tree deep rooted in the soil,
In this life you choose make sure you don't spoil, your chance to enhance let your haters boil.

Like everything in life there has to be a balance,


I'm not talking about your wardrobe or your pretty valance.

A mixture of feelings all cooked up in a ***,
blending together nicely,
if you leave them they will rot.

Weighing out ingredients,
preparing is the key
Opening the door to all that you can be,

It comes with consequences,
if you try to jump the steps,

you will fall off the ladder,
back
to the darkest depths.

Its not about perfection,

in life you'll make mistakes,
learn from them as you will,
beware of the snakes and fakes.

Like every in life, there has to be love,
like the angels watching over us,
from the stars that shine above.

Living in a bubble the world is now  suppressed,
looking through the window this place is too depressed.

An economy that has risen  we are all slaves to this,
the government is greedy they really do take the ****.

Fighting for survival a game that's full of deceit.
shocked by the rise in prices I can't look at my receipt.  

Living in this crazy world it's full of unwanted danger,
it really comes to something when you no longer trust a stranger .

Technology has taken over are kids are ****** right in,
all in the name of money this is such a greedy sin.

The recession has hit us hard and we aren't the one's to blame,
the banks are the people who should hold their heads in shame.

Living in a bubble the world has reached this state,
an awakening is needed before it's too late.

Looking at you I see how you  cry,
47 years of hell but you get up and try

your fragile too frail like your ready to break,
I'm not sure how much more your able to take.

Frightened I'll wake with you no longer here,
thoughts of you this way I let out a tear

Your hurt yes your angry with this I agree,
don't make these threats, cut the rope from the tree.

Your my mother for you I will always care.
slowly your starting to age, the grey is showing in your hair.

It's not too late to make a change,
although its hard and at fist it seems strange.

looking at you there's no sense of hope,
thinking of ways I can help you to cope.

Listening
Open
Visionary
Exciting

Make me understand, make me see your way, I never get your point of view or the things that you say.

Make me see your vision, make me catch your drift, all of this quarreling is making us adrift.

Make me see what's real, since you say my ways are crazy, to me they are the truth but you insist that they are hazy.  

Make me get the point, I don't always understand, this conflict is confusing it's something I can't stand.

Make me feel ok about the person inside of me, I am not blind, I just don't see the things you see.

Sunflowers, daisy's and tulips too,
these are things that remind me of you.

Animals of many to them you are kind,
geese, dogs and chickens in your garden you will find.

Bright colors your a hippy chick you own it so well,
a friend in you that's my Auntie Mel.

Miss Melanie your canny plenty of good times that we've shared,
I know i'm not always there but for you I've always cared.

Your lovely little ornaments your wacky hippy ways,
I often think of the good times I miss the olden days.

Sunflowers, Daisy's and tulips too,
I really miss you and all that you do.

Mr brightside come back to make me smile,
I haven't seen you for a long time it's been a lengthy while.

Come light me up with your sunshine like the days when I felt free,
sitting by the river reading books under my favorite tree.

Mr brightside shine your warm light brightly,
lift this darkened mood even if it's just slightly.

Give me strength and courage to lift me from this state,
take away the sadness don't let me feel such hate.

Mr Brightside please save me from this torment,
let me live my life so i can appreciate the moment.

Right now I'm numb to any sort of feeling,
the hurt and anger, inside it's got me reeling.

Numb to this exposure,
I'm trapped deep in this enclosure.

Banging my head against the wall,
there's no way I'll survive the fall.

Trying to accept life isn't just black and white,
blind I have no vision, I've lost my sight.

Right now I'm numb to any sort of feeling,
no time to reflect, or proceed with self healing.

I am nieve to believe your sickening excuse,
But for our son remain to keep the peace, I called upon a truce.

It's not fair that you dare, you act like you don't care.

I am stupid for understanding,
It's not like I'm a ***** or even ridiculously demanding.

He's your son, he should be your saviour
I'm shocked by your ways and selfish behaviour.  

I am a fool to let you rule this situation isn't cool.

A distant father but your not that far away,
Never interested in his schooling or parent teacher day.

I am fed up of hearing your always hard done by, yet you can afford to party don't you think that's just sly?

You go on like we live in outer space,
You never call or ask about him, to your own disgrace.

I am sick I've had this for nine years,
Our boy he thinks that nobody cares.

Two days out of fourteen you parent our son,
more bothered by drink not by the damage that's done.

I am scared our son is being effected,
when you let him down I can see he feels rejected.

You only have one chance to share these moments, strangled by your image and your lifes long torments.  

I am here everyday  by his side,
the pain he is feeling, he cannot hide.

When age catches up and your reminiscing,
I'll be sure to know you'll regret the memories you are missing.

I'm not mad, just sad, our boy needs his dad,
he should never have to feel like he's done something bad.

And when you wake up from the lifestyle you've live, I hope our son is able to forgive.