i think about how happy he is without me
and wonder

would everyone else be too?

my emotion is a mess that i can't express
so i'll just suppress deep in my chest
the mess that i'm not ready to address
because
i'm afraid

I'm worried about you

you say "it's not bad, it's only scratches"
"they don't even begin to match his"

but whether you deserve help is not measured by
the depth or the size of the scars on your thighs

it'll only get worse
this addiction is a curse

please get the treatment you need
maybe then you can finally be freed

end this this cycle of suffering
try to start recovering

you are worth it