Therefore the shadows are seen
I cannot touch them
There is no fixing the invisible
It can only be an illusion
A quiet demand for change
The echoes are getting larger
Larger than what the heart can contain
Who I am can never be known
Only by name
It's too sensitive
Less friendly
You can drop the tears and leave it as ghost
Or rip it out and lose a soul
It cannot be cheated
All it can do for you is hate it
Scary it could be
But all you can do is trust the unkown

It is a feeling
I felt it for the first time seeing
Never thought i would experience this rare meeting
They say it is once in a lifetime
I say it remains even if all we have is fading time
I wasn't aware that these unexplainable feelings exist
It is something so precious yet short
A sensation you can't resist
I failed to respond to it
But it still taught me the way to fit
It brought the pieces together
Knowing that being complete means finding another
How sudden it was
So briefly it last
10,000 words i need to left spoken
A few just lasted in that right moment
Now it says i must be dreaming
Because i was looking for a shot
Finding the sentences i hope end in dot
A dot for all my unknown emotions
Answering the question mark to what i am feeling in these sensations

The lava will flow
So shall the water
Don't grow in pain
Make that a choice

The things we do not see today
Will lead us to our tomorrow

I tried to stop the tears from falling
To hid the wounds we once tried to pause from repeating
Kinda like our lost pitty hug
I could still feel the empty embrace choking me for no reason
It was still a yesterday in my mind but a tomorrow for you
I wanted rewind but the buttons of the past no longer exist
I still live the dark days of the dark places where i got trapped
I wanted a fastforward out of this beautiful tragic movie
A happy ending would have been great
A sorry goodbye for an ending would have been fine too
But all i got was just lost clues of how an ending could be played forever in a painfull way as if it was just a background outside the real view
Now i have thought of this through and through
It just ended like....
It never really even started at all

Death is not the greatest loss
The greatest loss is what's dying inside

The wings that turned to ashes
Taught me how to wear eyeglasses
Like seeing through the pages of guilt
A painful vision of the past that was built

The cry from those years are now
My longing tears are exhibiting a smile
A discontent entity that flows in my veins
Called for the fire that is still unburnt

I am rusty and I can't trust me
The signs I am falling on top again
Is a means of crashing back
To the black hole of miserable haunting

These wings are severely wounded
Scarred in nature
Feathers plucked within a soul
The drive to horizons are fading

Slowly I became less
And every bit of it is part of a test
I am the nightmare of my dream
I am the terror i try to hide

This isn't flying
This isn't falling
It is the journey inside a ball of gravity
Always pulling you down where you meet
Misery

The time ticks 1 2 3
See the 1 you hate to love
Love what the 2 eyes see
Say the 3 words
I love you

Now I see the sky is blue
And here I go thinking of you
My heart felt like none of these are true
Cause you are now with someone new

Then i remember the bus rides in our trip to 2nd. Chances
But all you did was treat me like a ball that bounces
Now I caught the memories with every tear and ounces
All i ever asked was your last forgiveness

You said sorry i can't anymore baby
And all I thought was infinite maybe
You left me out with misery
And all I heard was sorry your out of my priority

Here i am again and again remembering
Feeling the lost past suffering
Her voice in my head is like an alarm keep ringing
And I can't seem to stop myself from believing

She's gone
She's in the arms of someone
I no longer feel another one
She's finally gone
She left me hanging hurt and undone
I don't ever wanna see the sun in the blue sky when it run
It reminds me that she was with me just for fun

As the window grow older than the webs wrapping
A young boy stares in gloom
The view outside gets older
Dry leaves and wet flowers
Rain pouring as the sky grow in tears
He saw all outside are washed away
Sulking soil turning to mud of new beginnings
Birth of the sun at the end of rain
What he had inside remained
His old room
Plagued with random past thoughts
Boxes filled of love, regrets, and all that is still…
Covered in walls
Restricted dreams left under his bed
Only a window to view reality filled with fantasy
Seeds became flowers that bloom
Trees getting stronger
Storms ending…
A new day come as the old washed away
However…
The boy looking through the window
Remained…
In the shadow of his old room and ways

Like a feather falling
You can't stop the wind

When I look at you i see the day
A morning where a few of my life will be
Slowly it will be dark as your promises
I will see the dawning in your eyes
The threshold of hope above your chin
The lies within your illuminating path
Guiding me in a sea of anything
Random clouds will pour beneath you
For the ray of you aren't perfect
You are still forever shining
But living under you is blinding
How hot you could be yet in a cold way
So good as necessities
Burns in a million sunburns i felt agony
Why am i awake when i see you?
Why do i sleep my life away when you're not around?
It got me twisted
You are someone i love to have
But i need to accept that some point
Too much of everything can be bad
That the world is spinning
Some things are going to be missing
And when i look at the sky at night
I shall remember how the day used to be
Back then
Every time when I look at you

Plus and minus
Is where we find the love that divides us
Like multiplying the heart
Into million shattered pieces
Heartfelt noise of blistered voice

Up above and down below
Is where we see what is and was meant
Like pulling a heart with hard cement
It can't be bent
Hard, rough, and really tough

Candid faces on all the places
Wide so clear but yet not near
Clowns with no frowns
But deep down they drown
In sea of doubt that has no way out

Like the water to the sea
No matter how big the waves are
We fight until we get it right
And not settle for a bottle of chaotic battle
Drunk and lonely with no one to call only

I settled in a chair
With my Long short black hair
Staring at fake faces
Lost in a bloated space

Filling the circles in my head
Popping out of distance
I could not see
What it seems to be

Will it be my past
Pained by childhood trust
Or a hollow dark dreamy time
Engraved in my scars since nine

Will it be my present
Confused by the blue moment
Or morning craving for a heart to lean
Concieved today at seventeen

Will it be my future
Fuelled by all necessary means
Or burned through a spark of fire
From the woods I came since birth

When my alarm clock rings
Who I see
Where I belong
What was
Will be
Because this is the beauty of
Why i wake up to reality

Write
Write it all out
Put it down in a paper
Make the paper feel even if its numb
Put the ***** you hold back in a white lined wood
Call it the stroke of a hand
Or the confusion of the hands
Put it in and leave your misery on it
Let it slay the rocking heart of yours
In it are written thoughts you hide to peek
Its an art
A dangerous art of making a sense out of the confusion we hide
Write It in the paper
Read all it and leave it in your sheets
Publish your minds disease
Spread the plague of words to their hearts

You
You are someone
Not everyone knows you
But you have feelings
Not everyone cared
Not sure if somebody does

You
You are special
Not everyone is like you
But you keep trying to become them
Not owning what you feel
Not standing for what is real

You
You are priceless
Not a single soul could know your true value
But you keep selling yourself
Not believing you aren't for sale
Not knowing you can't be owned

You
You are alive
Not everyone are given the chance to breath
But you keep wishing you are dead
Not seeing how blessed you are
Not realizing that you exist

You
You are you
Everything is a part of yourself
But not everything can define you
Not the world
Not the solar system
Not the things you do
Not even your name
Or the words that are spoken about you

You
You will always be who you want to be
You will always be what you have been
You will not be defined
You will always be you
You are the only one given a chance to live like you
And you is the perfect thing about you
Because you can't be replaced
Even if the world keep trying to make you erased