robin

robin May 2019

write me a song
of mean words
to dance around my head at night
tell me i’m stupid
because i think differently from you
tell me to shut up when i say something you don’t like
tear me down when i don’t act like the person you want me to be
it’s a blind fist fight
but neither of us win
we just punch holes in the drywall
you just leave and slam the door
how can I grow in the places that I need too if you just cut me down.

#realtionship #lonely #sad #idontknowhowtofixitanymore

robin May 2019

fake <3

conditional love
leaves a sour taste on your tongue
when you were raised on candy
it comes as a surprise
but not everyone’s like you your mother will say
It’s hard excepting that some people will only love you based on what you give them.

#fuckedupfamily #fakelove #conditionallove #whyisitsohardtpbeagoodperson

robin Apr 2019

Tantrum

Petals break apart
as the peach fuzz erupts
The blood spills out the sides
Like an over poured soda
You shake it up
and it
explodes.

robin Apr 2019

flesh hotel

come and go, to and fro
like a cockroach. i mean hell, you're
resilient.
you slide under my door
and into my bed
whisper into my ear and crawl inside my head.
room 206
do not disturb

        i am

tired.

        but not of you,
not now,


                              not ever.

robin Apr 2019

my own little slice of sadness

empty
like a cloud
tears raining down on the people around me
i am numb
like frost bitten hands
piled under snow
alone like bitter midnight winds
with their chilly embrace
hugging you deeply.
i sleep in a pile of leaves. my bones leave their imprint
but no one can tell i was ever there
my heart is the crinkled mess of leaves at the bottom of the pile
if i told you i wanted to die would you believe me
would you be able to forgive my selfishness?

#suicide #depression #postpartum #mental #illness

robin Apr 2019

pushing up daises

a single flower wilts
slowly coming to an end like a battery powered toy losing juice
i thought we were the next big thing
scribbles of our names under the bleachers
but
i hate myself
im sorry i know that messes everything up
i hate myself and it makes me hate you.
how do i fix that?

robin Mar 2019

rainbow pastels

the rain
is warm and soft
like a barefooted lover
drenched in rainbow pastels
we run through the grass
hand in hand and collapse in a bed of wildflowers.
giggling
like
children
with no care in the world
feelings flutter in our chest
and past our teeth
into a world filled with birds singing in the morning
we are fearless
Stupid and determined
That we will make something beautiful

only in a dream