robin

robin Mar 2019

the rain
is warm and soft
like a barefooted lover
drenched in rainbow pastels
we run through the grass
hand in hand and collapse in a bed of wildflowers.
giggling
like
children
with no care in the world
feelings flutter in our chest
and past our teeth
into a world filled with birds singing in the morning
we are fearless
Stupid and determined
That we will make something beautiful

only in a dream

robin Mar 2019

missing autumn

leaves are a fallen fruit
the grounds gaping mouth swallows them hole
Turning the earth with its tongue
leaves crinkle and crack
like bubble wrap
on an early morning.
crisp air holds the fogs hand as it creeps through the woods
quiet
blanketing the earth
they break apart
with a melodically crisp crunch
Bits of red and yellow confetti
In your hair, eyelashes.

falling
at your feet.

robin Nov 2018

fresh laundry

slipping and sliding
downwards
i’m slowly drifting away
everything i thought i was
i simply no longer am
my skin is worn and leathered
slowly peeling away like scales
to reveal something new .

robin Oct 2018

September

Fingers
three at a time
Tears rolling down cheeks
like car windows
Hands around your throat kisses
Choking out I love you’s
each time
Shaking legs
Shaky breath
the taste of lemon liquor on your tongue
you
on top of me
me
screaming into piles of pillows
that never listen
.

robin Sep 2018

Fluorescent

And you are the light of my life
yellow licks of sunlight
five year old freckles
a field of sunflowers
that we are both lost in

drowning
in
sun
light
you engulf me

Stars, there isn’t enough stars in the sky
Rain, enough of it couldn’t fall down onto our faces
i will hold your hand and walk beside you
into the night
from now until forever

i promise

until forever
turns into tomorrow
until tomorrow dies
until I no longer cease to exist;

meteorites
look like scratches on the big chalkboard that is the sky

you are a mix of my greatest moments
moving frame by frame
like a ballerina slowly dancing into view
you are my everyday
my quiet when the world is screaming loud

And I am your home
.

0/29/19

robin Sep 2018

green river

green river
wet thighs
white towels
panic
yellow lines
street signs
cracked pavement
nighttime
City lights
Ambulance siren
hospital lights
dog barks
water drips from the faucet
running out of time
grey leather seats
emergency
wheel chairs and nurses
galking people
wet eyes
hands, shaking
sharp turns
running
down the hall
Barefoot
cold floor
green river
hospital tissue paper
phone calls
too much
can’t breathe
nurses laughing
hands on your shoulder
Happy for you
contractions
three centimeters dilated
nurses talk
Blanket
cold hands
heart beating fast
can’t breathe
Fluorescent lights
Shaking
green river
nurses
where’s babies heart beat
dropping
panic
Cold hands
Creeky bed
Oxygen mask
Can’t breathe
can’t breathe
all fours like a dog
Blue Shower cap
Emergency
Running down the hall
wet eyes
Green river
Florescent lights
hand sanitizer smell
Can’t breathe can’t breathe
cold
hospital room
no blanket
alone
shaking nervous scared
Emergency
heart rate dropping
Galking eyes
cold air
dizzy
Panic
anesthesia
blackness
Fuzzy vision

Where’s my baby
where’s my baby?

robin Aug 2018

and i fall

you’re growing
inside me
like a ****
you thought was a flower as a child
before the days your mother threw the dandelion bouquet you made her into the yard waste pile.
it was a definitive part of growing up she’d say.
im smiling but my feet are bare and the floor im walking on is needles
needless to say
i already know you’re darling
in every way
we’ve been communicating these last nine months through a layer of flesh
like we’re pen pals
you know my skin and bones like family
and I know your kicks and punches
like it’s yesterdays news.

i can’t tell you this but i am fearful

fearful of who i will become
what i have to offer
fearful of
the control of my life, the constant day to day swing of things i know I must leave in the rear view mirror

only for once
i don’t care
for once

i
am
an
autumn leaf
t
u
m
  b
l
    i
n
   g

down to uncertainty
only instead of fighting it
i surrender.