Don't trust a big **** and a smile
A lesson you should've learned a while ago
But you never pay attention in class
That venomous snake
Slithered her way in
And took you away
But what she doesn't know
Is you're more lethal
Than she'll ever be

The ocean beckons me with it's beauty
I approach with caution
In a hypnotizing step
Stopping just before
Wet meets land
The waves charm me in
I abandon the unneeded
And let the tides pull me out
Farther and farther from shore
Inhale
Exhale
One last breath
And I surrender myself to
The Deep Blue

It’s not being labeled fat or thin

Or the number on the scale

It’s the looks we get when we step out the door

That keeps us down

Or lifts us high

We’re only measured by our looks

Whiny, spoiled, brat
That's what I'm called when I don't get what I want
But everything I want is because of you
You boast of your fat wallet with promises of such goodies
So that's why when I ask, I expect
With same mouth you told your sweet lies
You gave up my hopes
Letting them float out of the reach of any human being
Years you've tricked me into thinking there was a flaw in my character
It's all in yours
The flaws are all in you
I won't take the time to fix you
Because unlike you I
I value myself
So just like you gave up my hopes
I'm giving up you

Days are feeling longer
Nights are getting darker
And I'm still here
Standing in the shade I make in the light of others
Waiting
For my light to join theirs'

They say we control our own fate
They lied
So many are doomed to a life they didn't ask for
Strive for
Or deserve
My life is in the hands of human ignorance
And negligence
One mistake
And it's over

Love is your favorite game
Many are invited to play
I'm a frequent winner
But still I lose
To the one in second place

I write during stages of sadness and love
But during our time together
My pages have been blank ...

I like to watch myself bleed

Even if
It's just a tiny bead

It gives me hope 

That i’ll spill all over the floor

Leaving this slab of flesh and meat

For you to find

Just beyond my door