Over time
I built the box
wall by wall
day by day
composed of dreams
and desires
ideals, beliefs, and goals

Over time
it kept me safe
and where I wanted to be
within the boundaries
of what I wanted
pushing me to succeed
keeping me in line

Over time
it became a prison
trapping me in, not letting me out
leaving no room for growth
no room to move
to change, improve,
or to fail

Over time
I took it down
wall by wall
day by day
removed of dreams
and desires
ideals, beliefs, and goals

Over time
replaced by the openness
of being whatever I want to be
able to let things go
and to make mistakes
for to err is to be human
and with that I was set free

On a summer of 2010,
I met this guy who wore a red cap.
He has an adorable smile,
he still had his teeth gap.

On a summer of 2011,
he had his braces.
"Real men wear pink.",
he says as my heart races.

you would think
maybe once
you would break your back
for me
because I
already
paralyzed myself for you

I've been drinking about you baby
trying to drown you out of my head
but the poison makes you stronger instead

I've been smoking about you baby
inhaling you into my lungs
i miss the feeling of touching each others tongues

I've been pill popping about you lately
to make me feel more numb
the fact that i still need you is really pretty dumb

The winter has found a way to freeze me over
But I wont falter and reach for your warmth
You are December
and I am the Earth
You  ****
As I struggle to maintain life
Your reign is ill
and Spring shall fight

healing
growing
bursting
overflowing
expanding
I exist

I thought
I was
Letting you go.


Funny
How fast
Things change.